#cyn disassembles stuff

[abs0lut3-gambl3r]

Intro Post!

Hi! I’m the owner of this blog, and I use multiple names! If you’ve interacted with me before, you may know me as Chance, Cyn or Kat. Depending on if you’re from a different platform, you may also know me as Moth.

For a list of names and identities I use/identify with, you may want to check out my pronouns.cc!

All dividers and images etc without credit on my blog are either made by me or from Pinterest.

DO NOT BRING THESE TOPICS HERE

-Shipwars. This includes anything about the whole proship/antiship dynamic (I am very firmly anti-harassment but do not enjoy darkship content, if you need to know).

-Syscourse / Anything against Endo Systems (I’m a singlet but some of the best people I’ve met/am friends with are endos or mixed origin)

-Selfshipping with the following characters:

Mafioso/Don Sonnellino (Forsaken)

iTrapped (Forsaken)

1x1x1x1 (Forsaken)

Two Time (Forsaken)

SCP-079 (SCP)

-RPF (Real-Person Fanfic)

I may rarely block if you make me uncomfortable or act bigoted, but usually I don’t block. This list is also not a strict DNI, just a representation of topics I don’t want here as of writing this.

Stuff you can expect to see on this blog + tags I’ll use for it!

#chance gambles stuff - Chance kin related posts

#cyn disassembles stuff - Cyn/Absolute Solver kin related posts (these are grouped under one tag because their identities are hard to tell apart at times)

#kat does stuff - non-kin related posts (stuff that happens in this reality, reblogs etc)

#moth bites stuff - stimboards, moodboards and similar

Some last details and/or wishes:

Please mainly refer to me as Chance or Cyn on this blog.

Some of my posts are bound to mention Doublefedora (the ship between Chance and Mafioso) and UnluckyCards (The ship between Chance and iTrapped). This is because they both play a huge role in the few kinmemories I have up until now. I may also mention 1xChance (the ship between Chance and 1x1x1x1), but this is rare. I didn’t have anything with them in source, I didn’t even know em outside of them being a killer.

I AM SOMEWHAT CANON DIVERGENT WITH BOTH OF MY KINS!! For Cyn, it’s mainly appearance-wise. For Chance, even though my lore is getting re-worked, I’m relatively sure what happened in my home reality was the original lore plus the side factor of me dating Mafioso, or atleast being very close with him.

I’d love it if you told me about your headcanons for any of my kins! I like approving stuff or disapproving stuff and then explaining why.

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There’s an AbsoluteSolver/CYN smutfic on ao3. The CYN part of me doesn’t want to read it. The Solver of The Absolute Fabric part does. Perhaps I’ll flip a coin on this.

[abs0lut3-gambl3r]

// the urge to speak in 3rd person

// the urge to refer to myself as 'one'

// the urge to capitalize my pronouns

Was I like this as The Solver of the Absolute Fabric, The Void, The Infinite End and the Existential Implausibility or am I some other god wtf :/

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Kinshift so bad this thing is feeling disrespected by people that likely won’t even be home for multiple hours still

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Thought about space and now I’m homesick fuck.

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Need me someone to attach to from a distance. Just reading posts n stuff. Anyone just so happen to be murder drones ockin out there and called XIB? Hahahaha lolololol jokes jokes probably

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Do I miss you or do I miss the idea of you?? I can’t even remember what you sounded like. I can’t remember what things you liked. I can’t remember what things you didn’t like. I can’t remember how you acted. I can’t remember what we did. I can’t remember YOU, but I can remember that I’m supposed to miss you. I miss missing you. I want to miss you.

My friends miss others. They describe what they liked. They describe how they were. And I miss those people with them. If I can miss people I’ve never met and likely will never meet, why can’t I miss you?? What kind of friend misses others friends, but not their own?

Why did I forget YOU? Why do I only vaguely remember you?? Why can’t I recall anything? Why do I not know either of you anymore? Why is nothing adding up? Why is nothing matching up?? Why can’t others just know YOU as well? Why am I alone with my failure of a memory of YOU?

I dont want to leave you behind i dont want to leave you behind i dont want to leave you behind please believe me i know youre still there i know youre still somewhere i know i could have saved you but now i dont even know who you are

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”CYN is so evil!” CYN barely even survived.

“CYN is so evil!” On their way back to the manor, hoping that their luck would save her, they found her best friend deactivated. The Absolute Solver either didn’t have the ability to reactivate them or simply chose not to because they wouldn’t have been useful, even as CYN tried and tried to get them back to life.

“CYN is so evil!” Tessa found her, still staring at her best friend.

“CYN is so evil!” She offered to be her new friend. CYN saw her as their new best friend, given that they had no one else. Tessa always preferred J.

“CYN is so evil!” She was still always a freak. She was locked in the basement. The only person they really got along with was N.

“CYN is so evil!” She always cared for Tessa, being their new best friend, even if only for a very short while. (No longer than 2 months, Tessa’s mom was very insistent on throwing me out.) They told her to stay away from the Gala. She didn’t.

“CYN is so evil!” CYN’s plan was to leave Tessa alive and take her with her to destroy more worlds. She was going to leave J and N alive, for Tessa’s sake (and, with N, also partially for their own use).

“CYN is so evil!” Tessa and J were going to kill her. Tessa and J had the gun and the sword on purpose. The Absolute Solver didn’t care, but had CYN still been herself, she would have acted purely out of fear.

“CYN is so evil!” CYN had her identity stolen.

“CYN is so evil!” YOU HAVEN’T SEEN THE REAL CYN. YOU HAVEN’T SEEN CYN. YOU HAVE SEEN THE ABSOLUTE SOLVER. THE ONLY BIT YOU’VE SEEN BEFORE ORIGINAL ME’S IDENTITY WAS COMPLETELY REPLACED IS N’S FLASHBACK AT THE BEGINNING OF EPISODE 2.