#daisy problems

[douchebat]

''i wish i wasnt irritated by latex so i could wear a lilac beard''

[daisymarie07-blog]

'Daisy, we need to have a serious talk......'

Great. Another serious talk with my mother regarding my future. I get that she finds it necessary to have these talks with me but seriously twice a day, its getting kind of ridiculous. "Daisy, what are your thoughts? what are you gonna do with your life? Do you not want to make something of yourself? Are you seriously not going to go back to school? Are you gonna get a job? All you do is be on the computer everyday. get a job that involves that, you're good at that. I never know what to say when people ask me what you're doing with your life. Why aren't you like *insert long lists of names here* he/she works, and is going to school. Don't you want to make your own money? buy your own things? You know you're sister's not gonna always be here, she's gonna get married and leave soon, and you will have to be responsible, and learn to not rely on her so much..." - now normally I just sit there in silence, rolling my eyes saying 'yes mom' and 'i know, mother.' but not today. Today, i finally spoke to my mother about this and assured her that i do have plans for my future. "you always ask me what im gonna do with my life and in all honesty i don't know. im young and i change my mind constantly. one day i hate One Direction the next i love them, do you see my problem? bigger problem, im 21 and i fangirl over and have the HUGEST crush on Harry Styles.... believe me mother i am reevaluating my life. Am i going back to school? and stress myself even more than i already am? no thanks, i'll pass. i think we've established that im not meant for college, im not about that life. Maybe someday, but not today not tomorrow but someday. i do have ambitions, i really do. they're just so big they scare me and im terrified out of my mind on screwing up. and that's basically what's holding me back. i know my sister is not gonna always be here, i know, and believe me im dreading the day. When that day comes, im gonna be ready and i'll step up to the plate but till then im just gonna chill. Mother, you need to stop worrying about what people think or say about me, don't be embarrassed either just say the truth... i don't mind the truth neither should you. we are not all the same, we don't all neither evolve or mature nor grow at the same pace. we are goddam individuals. Please stop comparing me to those people, we are not the same. i am my own individual and have my own pace, im in no rush. Would you rather prefer me be basic than unique and fabulous? cause that's what they are, basic. im not basic, mother. As for a job? im with you mother, im all up for me earning my own money and buying my own shit, not like i ask for much and have you in debt.. cause what i buy is with my own money, money that is given to me. but yes, i would love more. I've tried looking for a job, none are of my likes and/or are too far. As for being on the computer daily, i'm obsessed with social media and thanks i am pretty good with technology." my mother then told me: "Daisy, don't you ever sell yourself short. you are very much capable of doing it. you're a very smart girl. OK. you have to believe in yourself, believe that you are capable of succeeding and making something of yourself, like i believe in you." i found it incredibly hard to hold in my tears because lately i have felt that no one believes in me anymore. I've always felt as some sort of disappointment for my family but my mother telling me she believes that i am very much capable of doing things is exactly what I've been needing. So i told her: "I do plan on making something of myself, i really do. Like i said, i don't know what im gonna do or when im gonna do it - maybe it'll be today, maybe tomorrow, maybe in a month or two or three maybe next year, i don't know but i could assure you without a doubt in my mind that i WILL do it, at my own pace. there is no rush right now. no rush, Mother."

[ichimatsu-girl]

I wanna meet a guy named Seth with lots of piercings and I wanna suck on his nipple

[douchebat]

i used to frequently get asked if i was an actor or a musician

now i get asked if im a painter

am i really that mopey

fuck

[douchebat]

i dont know if youre calling me a nickname i dont recognize

or talking to someone i blocked

waaah

[douchebat]

Due to all the blurry,grainy,poorly lit photos of goths im used to i forget that goths have facial hair. Not to mention the heavy makeup and poor lighting at concerts so whenever i see them in real life im like ''oh yeah facial hair that exists''.

[douchebat]

see photo of tradgoth

wait 3 minutes

see it reblogged a minimum of 3 times by 3 different ppl

sigh

[askeletonofhabit]

I really want to go on a canal boat but you don't get them up here because there are only really shit rivers :(