Sinopsis: Clark Kent has spent months trying to get your attention in the only way he knows how: quietly, sweetly, and awkwardly. But when Superman saves your life and begins visiting your apartment at night, Clark realizes he may have accidentally made things far more complicated for himself.
If Clark counted the times he tried to flirt with you, they would be in the thousands. But the funny thing was that his way of flirting was so subtle that it almost always got mistaken for his everyday kindness. Clark was affectionate with everyone; that was how he had been raised back home in Smallville, where being gentle and thoughtful was as natural as breathing.
That was why, when he bought coffee in the mornings, he never arrived with just two cups, but four: one for Lois, one for Jimmy, one for himself, and an extra one that he always handed to you. And of course, you were his coworker, even if your desk was nowhere near his the way Lois’s was. Yours sat almost four meters away, far enough for anyone to think there was no reason to include you in his coffee runs. But Clark always found an excuse.
He said Perry, the boss, had mentioned that you did excellent work whenever you collaborated with him, and that was why he wanted to get along with you. You never turned down the coffee, because there was always a smile on your face whenever he walked over to hand it to you.
Still, you were a serious person at work, the kind who avoided talking about your private life, your weekend plans, or whether you had a date on Friday night. But that did not mean you were rude. On the contrary, you carried that same warm professionalism with everyone: you greeted people politely, asked how they were doing, remembered birthdays. And that exact mix of seriousness and warmth was what intrigued Clark the most.
Because he noticed that when you laughed with Lois, it was not a professional laugh or a polite one. It was genuinely friendly, the kind of laugh that slipped out unexpectedly, the kind that made you blush a little and lower your gaze while absentmindedly touching your hair. Clark kept asking himself over and over again: what did you talk about with Lois that made you laugh like that? What topic made you let go of that professional armor you guarded so carefully?
And even though Clark had that other side, that side of Superman who flew between buildings and saved people, he never wanted to mix it with you. He did not want you to meet Superman first, nor did he want you to mistake grand heroic actions for something heartfelt. He wanted you to see only Clark: the clumsy but kind reporter, the one who sat next to Lois and handed you coffee every morning.
He did not want to compete with his own other self, because he knew perfectly well that many women mistook Superman’s idealism for love. They saw the red cape and the muscles beneath the blue suit, and they never looked beyond that. The mere thought made Clark sick, the idea of having to compete against himself just to make you like him.
Because if you did not like Clark as he was, with his sleeves half rolled up and his glasses sitting slightly crooked on his nose, then you would never like what he truly wanted you to love about him. And the worst part was that he had no idea whether you were capable of seeing beyond that. Whether you could look at the Daily Planet reporter who worked with you from time to time and find something special in him, something that did not need a cape to shine.
But anyway, that was not the point right now.
The point was that you ended up meeting him, and not in the quiet way he would have wanted. Of course not, because you specifically had to be on that bus heading toward the Daily Planet.
The very same bus that would derail when the bridge was struck by something nobody was sure about: maybe a bomb, maybe an attempted attack. The only thing anyone knew for certain was that the explosion caused the bus to fall and hang dangerously off one side, suspended over empty air.
While everyone scrambled out screaming and shoving each other, Clark could hear your heartbeat. He had memorized it without meaning to during the investigation you had been working on together over the past few weeks. He remembered exactly what your heart sounded like whenever you leaned closer to him and shook your head while the two of you reviewed documents together.
“No, I actually think we should go after the drone company,” you had whispered that time, without looking at him, your eyes fixed only on the investigation papers.
“Why?” Clark asked, leaning slightly closer to your desk.
“Because they have more connections than they seem to,” you replied, sliding a page in front of him.
“Connections to who?”
“To Luthor,” you added, and that was when you finally looked up. Your eyes met his for only a second, and Clark felt warmth spread through his chest.
That was when he blushed, but he loved the sound of your confident voice, the way your mind worked. That was why finding you in the middle of a crisis was the last thing he wanted. He did not want to see you frightened. He did not want to see you hanging from a broken bus.
But that was exactly what happened.
Clark saved people as best he could, helping down those who stumbled, those who lagged behind. In the middle of the chaos, you helped an elderly woman who could not climb through the emergency window. Everyone else was too terrified, thinking only about saving themselves, but you took the woman’s hand and helped her climb out.
Then the bus jerked violently, and you nearly fell, but you managed to grab onto the edge of the window frame. When the woman finally made it out, you reached your hand toward a man standing outside, waiting to help pull you up.
But then the bus shifted again, this time even harder. You felt the floor tilt beneath your feet, and you closed your eyes. You thought it would be the last time you ever saw the world. You thought about your family, about your empty desk at the Planet.
But Clark was never going to let anything happen to you.
He moved so fast you did not even hear the wind. In a single second, his firm hands were around your waist, holding you safely in the air. You opened your eyes on instinct and wrapped your arms around him as tightly as you could, without thinking, without hesitation.
When you looked down, you saw solid ground beneath your feet. The people around you began cheering and clapping excitedly. Slowly, you pulled away from him, still trembling slightly, and lifted your gaze.
Superman stood in front of you.
Your eyes shone like two coins beneath the sunlight. You looked at the dark blue suit, the red and yellow emblem across his chest, the red cape flowing in the wind. It was him. It was really him.
“Are you alright?” Superman asked, his voice deep yet calm.
You simply nodded without saying a word. You could not speak. You could not stop staring at him.
“Are you sure?” he insisted, tilting his head slightly.
You nodded again, but this time with a small smile you could not hold back.
Superman smiled too, quick but genuine. “Good,” he said, and with a soft rush of air, he lifted into the sky, turning before flying away between the buildings.
You remained standing there, your heart still pounding, watching the blue-and-red figure grow smaller and smaller until he disappeared completely.
No one was injured. Nothing terrible had happened. Superman had saved the day once again.
Little by little, the people on the street stopped screaming, the children stopped crying, the cars began moving again as though nothing had happened. The damaged bus was already safely on the ground, and all the passengers were unharmed, hugging one another or calling their families to tell them they were okay.
You stayed there for another moment, your hands still trembling slightly from the shock, but quickly you did what you knew best: being a journalist.
You approached people, pulled a small notebook from your jacket pocket, and began asking questions.
“How did it feel when the bus tilted?” you asked an older woman with gray hair.
“Did you see how Superman arrived?” you asked a young man who was still shaking.
You moved from person to person, taking notes, listening to every testimony, and once you had gathered enough information, you practically ran back to the Daily Planet.
There, in the newsroom, you stood before all your coworkers and recounted everything in vivid detail. You told them about the bridge, the explosion, the hanging bus, and you also told them how Superman had appeared out of nowhere to catch you in midair and bring you safely down.
Clark listened to you from his desk, his elbows resting on scattered papers and his beard pressed against one hand. He watched you gesture excitedly, watched you smile whenever you mentioned Superman, and he thought everything was fine.
It was only one interaction, he told himself. Sooner or later Superman was going to save you. I should not be afraid. I should not worry.
You were just his coworker. Nothing more.
But maybe what happened afterward was his own fault.
Because that same night, Clark could not help himself.
After finishing his shift at the Planet, after waving goodbye to Jimmy, after walking several blocks until he reached a dark alley where nobody could see him, he removed his glasses, straightened his back, pulled open his shirt, and revealed the blue suit hidden underneath.
A second later, he was already flying above the rooftops of Metropolis.
The cool night wind brushed against his face, the city lights glowing below like countless tiny stars. But he did not patrol the city the way he usually did. He did not go searching for trouble or stopping thieves.
He went straight to your building. Straight to your window.
He hovered there in the air, his boots barely grazing the ledge, and looked at you through the glass.
You were inside, holding a cup of tea, still dressed in your work clothes. You looked up and saw him. Your body tensed slightly at first, but you did not scream or panic. You only stared at him with curiosity, as though you were trying to understand why the most powerful man in the world was floating outside your window on a Tuesday night.
You slowly opened the window and remained standing in the frame, the cool air moving through your hair.
“What are you doing here, Superman?” you asked nervously.
Of course you were nervous. Your voice sounded slightly higher than usual, and your fingers tightened around the tea cup more than necessary.
Superman looked directly into your eyes. He tried to smile calmly, confidently, even though inside his heart was pounding like a drum.
“I… always make sure the people I save are truly alright and get home safely,” Superman said, using that firm yet kind voice he always used.
You nodded slowly, never taking your eyes off him. Your nervousness gradually shifted into something closer to amusement. Tilting your head slightly, the same way you did whenever you cornered someone with questions at the Planet, you asked:
“And… have you already visited the nearly twenty people you saved besides me?”
One eyebrow lifted slightly.
Of course you were not easy to fool.
She’s a journalist, Clark thought. She questions everything. She finds logic where everyone else sees coincidence. She likes being right and uncovering the truth, even when it hurts.
But right now, with Superman floating outside your window, you did not seem to be in investigation mode.
You only seemed curious.
You only seemed… interested.
“Yes,” Superman answered quickly, maybe too quickly.
Your eyes widened slightly in surprise. You had not expected that answer.
“Really?” you asked skeptically.
“Really,” Superman insisted, although inside Clark thought, I’m such a liar.
He had not visited anyone else. He had flown directly to your window without thinking about anything else. But he could not tell you that. He could not tell you that your heartbeat was the only one he wanted to hear that night.
Three days passed. Clark thought it would not happen again, that the visit had been a mistake, a foolish impulse he should not repeat. But then the thing he feared most and wanted most at the same time happened.
He came back.
He could not help it. Once again, he was floating outside your window, another night, once again wearing the blue suit and the red cape flowing behind him. You opened the glass as if you had already been expecting him, and in your hand you held a small plate with a slice of chocolate cake, a shiny metal fork resting beside it.
“Come in,” you said, nodding toward the inside. Superman stayed floating for a moment, not knowing what to do.
“Don’t just stay out there. It’s cold. Well, I suppose you don’t feel cold, but it still looks weird. Come in.”
Superman entered slowly, almost fearfully, as if it were the first time he had ever stepped into a normal place. He stood in the middle of your living room, still wearing the suit, not daring to sit on the couch or touch anything. He looked as if he did not want to be in the way, as if he were afraid of breaking something just by existing.
You laughed a little at how stiff he looked.
“Sit down, Superman,” you told him, placing the plate with the cake in his hand. “It’s to thank you. For the bus.”
He took the plate carefully.
“Thank you,” he said softly. “You didn’t have to.”
“Of course I did,” you replied, sitting across from him on the couch with your legs crossed. “A flying man doesn’t save your life every day. That deserves at least some cake.”
Clark, disguised as Superman, felt his chest fill with warmth. It was so easy to be like this with you. He did not stutter or say ridiculous things that made him look foolish, the way he did when he was Clark at the office. With the suit, with the deeper voice, with the confidence that came from not having to hide, he could smile for real. He could joke. He could make you laugh.
And you liked it. He could see it in your eyes. He could see it in the way you relaxed around him.
The following week, you invited him inside again. You no longer asked why he was there. You simply opened the window, he came in, and you continued doing your own thing while he stood nearby or sat on the edge of the couch without bothering you.
One night, you were cooking, and the aroma filled the whole apartment. Superman was floating near the window, looking outside, when you called him.
“Hey, Superman, since you’re here, do you want dinner? I made extra. It’s incredible having Superman as a friend. Not everyone can say that.”
Clark smiled inwardly.
Friend, he thought. Friend is fine. It’s a good start.
So he walked over to the table, sat down on a chair that creaked slightly under his weight, and you served him a plate of your dinner: rice, beans, a warm tortilla, and some shredded chicken. He ate slowly, enjoying every bite, not so much because of the food, but because of the moment. Because he was there with you, in your small kitchen, with the sound of the television in the background and the sound of your laughter every time he said something funny.
After two months, you were already joking with Superman as if he were your lifelong best friend. You let him see that side of you that you only showed Lois: the funny side, the one that teased affectionately, the one that made bad jokes and laughed at them before even finishing them.
And now you shared that with Clark.
Well… with Superman.
But to Clark, that was fine. As long as it was with you, he did not care what name you used for him.
One night, after dinner, you were washing the dishes and Superman was leaning against the kitchen wall, his arms crossed over his chest. You had a stain of sauce on the sleeve of your sweater and were scrubbing it with a cloth using your “secret cleaning recipe for small stains.”
“Please, Superman,” you said, turning to look at him with a teasing smile, “I can’t believe Superman doesn’t know this secret for removing stains from clothes. What, do you use your laser vision to get stains out and then just buy new clothes?”
Superman placed a hand over his chest, pretending to be offended.
“Miss, I also have a life of my own. I have to wash my clothes from time to time too.”
“Really?” you asked, laughing. “With what? Rainwater from the clouds? Kryptonite soap?”
“You’re very funny,” Superman said, shaking his head. He took one step closer to the kitchen and rested one hand on the counter. “My apologies, Miss Perfect. Although weren’t you the one who said you had never burned a tortilla in the pan…”
Your eyes widened.
“What?”
“…while you were burning a tortilla in the pan,” Superman finished, nodding toward the stove. In the pan you had left on the burner, a tortilla was slowly smoking, its edge already black as coal.
“Ah!” you shouted, rushing toward the stove to turn off the flame. You grabbed a spatula and lifted the tortilla, which crumbled into black pieces over the pan. You stared at the remains and let out a laugh. “This… this doesn’t count. I was distracted.”
“Of course it doesn’t count,” Superman said, his smile growing wider.
“Shut up!” you replied, throwing a wet cloth at him, which he caught in midair without even looking.
The two of you ended up laughing.
You stood there with your hands on your waist, pretending to be angry but unable to hold back your laughter. He kept his head lowered, laughing softly, enjoying every second as if it were a treasure.
That became his favorite part of every day.
Because Clark did not talk much at the office. When he was near you as Clark, the words got tangled on his tongue, his hands sweated, and he always ended up saying something awkward like “what nice weather,” even if it was raining.
But in the evenings, when he put on the suit and flew over the buildings of Metropolis, everything changed. After patrolling the whole city, after making sure there were no thieves in the streets or fires in the buildings, he always ended up in the same place: outside your window.
And you were always there waiting for him, with a ready smile, with a plate of warm food or a steaming cup of tea. Sometimes you told him how your day at work had gone. Sometimes you read him some bad joke you had found online. Sometimes you simply stayed in silence watching television, and that silence was better than any conversation.
Clark had never felt so lucky in his entire life.
Because he had someone waiting for him.
And that someone was you.
That was how, in the third month, the night Clark would never forget finally arrived.
You were working on something for the Planet, your laptop resting on the dining table and a pile of messy papers scattered around you. Superman sat on your couch, even though the hero was enormous and his broad shoulders barely fit between the cushions. He had to arrange his red cape to one side so he would not sit on it, then crossed one leg over the other as if he were just another guest in an ordinary home.
In one hand, he held the little bun you had given him, the warm bun with jam that you always prepared for him when he arrived. He took a slow bite while watching you curiously from the couch. He saw the way you frowned while reading a document, the way you bit your lip when something did not convince you, the way you turned the pages quickly.
And then, in the middle of that comfortable silence, an idea lit up in Clark’s mind.
Oh, God, he thought.
He had the chance to do what he had been thinking about for months. He wanted to see if Superman could make you jealous. Of course it would hurt to know that you were in love with Superman, because that would mean you, like so many others, only saw the cape and the emblem.
But he still wanted to test it.
He needed to know.
So he cleared his throat, a dry sound that broke the silence in the room.
“What’s wrong?” you asked, glancing at him for only a second before lowering your gaze back to your computer. Your fingers kept typing quickly, without stopping.
Superman straightened slightly on the couch. He placed the bun on a plate sitting on the coffee table and clasped his hands over his knees. He tried to sound casual, as if your answer did not matter too much, even though inside, his heart was pounding.
“Well… today, a woman I saved from a money robbery told me that… I was the most handsome man of all,” he said, looking directly at you, waiting for your reaction.
His blue eyes did not blink. They observed every small movement of your face, every shift in your expression.
You looked up and laughed. A short, sincere laugh, as if you had just heard the silliest joke in the world. You shook your head and looked back at the screen.
“Oh, really? How nice,” you said, giving it no more importance.
Clark felt his hope deflate like a punctured balloon.
He began to think it had all been his imagination. Maybe nobody caught your attention at all. Maybe neither Superman nor Clark could ever reach your heart. Maybe you were too focused on your work, your reports, your investigations, to notice anyone. That thought tightened around his chest with a cold sadness.
Then you sighed, pushed your computer slightly to the side, and removed your glasses to look at him better. You folded them carefully and placed them on the table. You leaned back in your chair and crossed your arms, your expression relaxed, almost amused.
“Although I don’t believe that,” you said, tilting your head as if analyzing him without any shame, thanks to the trust you already had in Superman.
You picked up your glass of soda, took a long sip, and then set it down beside the laptop.
“I know someone more handsome than you,” you added, and your eyes shone with something almost tender.
Superman felt disappointed inside, but he did not show it. His face remained the same: calm, confident, with that faint smile he always wore. Although inside, Clark was dying of curiosity and fear at the same time.
“Really? Who?” Superman asked, leaning slightly forward. His voice sounded calm, but in reality, every fiber of his being was on alert.
He would finally know who you were in love with. It had to be someone from the Daily Planet, he was sure of it. Lois had said it once; he had heard her when she told you in the newsroom, “If you don’t speak, he won’t know you like him either. Looks aren’t enough.”
Clark remembered those words as if it had been yesterday. So he waited for your answer slowly, holding his breath without realizing it.
“Man, he interviewed you. You’ve seen him up close. Clark Kent, of course,” you said with complete certainty, and a smile appeared on your lips. “He’s handsome, isn’t he? More than you.”
Superman lowered his gaze.
He could not look at you. If he looked at you in that moment, he would give himself away. He would smile like an idiot or say something stupid that would ruin everything. So he kept staring at his own red boots, his hands clenched over his knees.
You noticed his silence, and your tone softened a little.
“Don’t feel bad,” you said, your voice kind, almost affectionate. “You have to understand that I’m always going to put the person I like first. And I like Clark.”
That made everything worse.
Because just as you finished saying those words, Clark felt his throat close up. The piece of bun he had been nibbling on a moment ago went straight down his throat, making him choke. It was not truly dangerous, of course; his lungs could handle far more than that. But the shock, the emotion, and the surprise made him cough like a normal person. A dry, strong cough that shook his whole body.
Your eyes widened, and you immediately stood up. You grabbed your glass of soda and brought it to his mouth without hesitating for even a second.
“Drink, drink!” you said, panic in your voice.
Superman took the glass with trembling hands and drank a couple of long sips. The cold liquid slid down his throat, and the bun finally went down. He coughed twice more and then took a deep breath.
You looked at him with a frown, still worried.
“Are you okay?” you asked, your hand still close to his shoulder, as if you wanted to hold him but did not quite dare.
Superman nodded slowly.
“Too many buns,” he said in a hoarse voice, touching his chest with one hand.
You smiled and nodded, relieved. You sat back down in your chair, but you no longer looked as relaxed as before. Something in your gaze had changed.
Superman, or rather Clark inside the suit, stayed silent for a moment, thinking quickly. He had to ask. He had to know more. He could not leave without understanding how it was possible that you, such an intelligent journalist, so observant, so good at your job, had not realized he was the same man who sat at the desk nearby.
“Hey… but… how…” Superman began, then stopped. He ran a hand over the back of his neck, pretending to be confused. “Clark Kent… I didn’t think he was your type,” he said, trying to sound like a curious friend and not like Clark himself, dying to hear your answer.
You laughed, soft and sincere, and closed your laptop with a gentle tap. You leaned back in your chair again, your arms crossed over your chest, and looked at him with a calmness that made his knees tremble inwardly.
“He is my type,” you answered, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world.
Then your gaze turned a little sad, a little embarrassed.
“But… I’m bad at showing someone I like them. I don’t speak. I don’t make the first move. I think a look can be enough. Lois scolded me… surely you know Lois. She’s the only one who knows at work.”
Superman’s eyes opened a little wider than usual.
“Lois knows?” he said, almost startled, his voice coming out higher than he intended. He cleared his throat again. “And she never…?”
He stopped himself just in time. He swallowed and lowered his eyes to his hands.
“I never imagined,” he said quietly.
You tilted your head, studying him with that journalist’s gaze of yours that noticed everything.
“Are you okay?” you asked, and then your voice became more serious, almost a whisper. “Hey, don’t tell him. Clark, I mean. He seems intimidated by my presence, and I don’t want him to pull away from me. At least this way, I can keep him close, even if it’s only through work.”
Clark felt his stomach flip.
“Intimidate him?” Superman asked, his voice louder than he intended, almost a strangled shout.
You nodded slowly, your lips pressed together.
“Clark… well… I don’t know. I feel like maybe he thinks I’m weird. He always pulls away and then he’s kind. It’s confusing. He’s always kind. It would be bad to mistake him doing something because he likes me. Maybe that’s just how he acts with everyone,” you admitted, and for the first time all night, your gaze became uncertain.
You played with the edge of your shirt without realizing it.
Superman shook his head slowly, with a smile he could not completely hide.
“No…” he said, and you lifted your gaze toward him. “Clark… he’s actually… weird.”
You let out a short laugh.
“I already know that.”
“But he might like you,” Superman said, and the sentence left his mouth before he could stop it.
He stood up abruptly, almost tripping over his own cape.
“I… I’m leaving. I think… something is happening,” he said, walking toward the window with long steps.
“Suddenly?” you asked, standing up too, one hand on your hip and one eyebrow raised.
Superman nodded without looking at you. He was nervous. Too nervous. If he stayed one second longer, he would tell you everything. He would remove his imaginary glasses and say, It’s me. I’m Clark. The one you like.
So he simply nodded again, harder this time.
“Fine,” you said, your voice calm, confident. “Then save the city.”
Superman smiled, a huge smile that filled his face and carved dimples into his cheeks.
“I will,” he said, and before you could answer, he was already jumping through the window, floating into the dark air of Metropolis.
Clark flew as fast as he could. He left all of Metropolis behind in a second, then the entire state, then the whole country. He flew around the world. Literally.
He felt the cold air strike his face, felt the wind whistle between the folds of his cape, felt his cheeks burning from emotion and not from speed. He reached space, where Earth looked small and blue and beautiful, and there, where no one could hear him, he screamed.
He screamed with all his strength, a cry of happiness with no end.
He dropped back into the atmosphere with a smile so wide his cheeks hurt, his dimples marked like two little lines on his face.
Nothing else mattered.
Only you.
Only you saying Clark was handsome, more than Superman. Only you saying you liked Clark.
Now he knew what to do. It did not matter how foolish he acted. It did not matter if he stuttered or said something ridiculous. It did not matter if his hands sweated or if he turned as red as a tomato.
He was going to ask you out.
That was a fact.
He only needed to find the courage, and right now, after hearing your voice say his name with so much certainty, he felt like he could move mountains.
Sinopsis: When the world discovers that Superman wears a wedding ring hidden around his neck, Metropolis becomes obsessed with uncovering the identity of the mysterious woman who captured the Man of Steel’s heart. Meanwhile, you only want to survive another normal workday while hiding the truth: Superman’s wife has been sitting behind a bank desk this entire time.
Warnings: Mentions of media invasion/privacy concerns, Anxiety over secret identity
WC: 2,600 words approx.
The news broke the internet. Not slowly, not like those stories that start small and then grow over time. This was like someone had pressed a button, and suddenly the entire world was talking about the same thing. The Daily Planet had the first image, and that was no small matter, because thanks to Jimmy capturing Superman in the photograph, it wasn’t just some blurry pixels that said nothing. No, it was the photograph everyone needed to explode with speculation. In the picture was Superman, the Man of Steel, the most powerful hero on the planet, smiling while carrying a little girl in his arms. But what made the image special was a tiny detail that Jimmy, with his camera always ready, had managed to catch: a thin necklace hanging around the hero’s neck, and from that necklace hung a ring. An engagement ring. At first glance, anyone could think it was just a normal piece of jewelry, but the people who truly knew Superman knew he never wore accessories. Never. So why was he carrying that ring so close to his chest, right above his heart? The question spread faster than Superman himself.
“That can’t be real,” you heard one of your coworkers shout. You looked over curiously toward where he was standing, because his voice sounded genuinely shocked, as if he had seen a ghost or something equally unbelievable. He had his phone in hand and couldn’t stop darting his eyes back and forth, reading something that had him completely captivated.
“This is impossible,” said another woman who was being helped by one of your coworkers. She also had her phone out, and even though she was in the middle of paperwork, she couldn’t take her eyes off the screen. Her voice trembled slightly, as if whatever she was seeing had stolen the air from her lungs for a second.
“Oh my God, I knew that man had a woman,” your coworker said, and you almost blushed without really understanding why. It wasn’t that serious, you thought, but something about the way she said it—with that certainty and poorly hidden envy—made a strange warmth curl in your stomach.
At the bank where you worked, your job was to assist people who came in looking to sign up for the bank’s benefits, like credit cards or medical insurance. Most of the time it was a calm job, although sometimes the place got crowded and everyone had to rush around. Luckily, that day there still weren’t many customers to attend to. In fact, you had been filling out information for an insurance case that required endless paperwork and documents, and that had kept you busy all morning. You were about to stretch out your arm to grab your hot chocolate—the one you always made yourself halfway through the day to recharge your energy—when suddenly you froze. Something in the atmosphere had changed. It wasn’t noise, it wasn’t movement, it was more like a wave of excitement coming from all your coworkers at once. Everyone was glued to their phones, and some had even stood up from their chairs to gather around others and show them something.
“I’m so jealous, Superman has a wife,” said Thaeli, your coworker on your left. She was always dramatic, you knew that, but this time she took it further than ever: she stretched her hands toward the ceiling as if begging for a miracle and made an exaggerated expression that usually would have made you laugh. But this time it didn’t. You stared at her, feeling something tighten inside your chest.
“What?” you asked, almost nervously, though you tried to keep your voice sounding normal. You didn’t want Thaeli noticing anything strange about you, because she could be very observant when she wanted to.
“It’s everywhere, look,” Thaeli said, handing you her phone. The screen was already on, showing the exact picture everyone was talking about.
You looked at the image. There was Superman, smiling the way he always did in photographs, with that confidence that made people trust him so easily. He was carrying a little girl in his arms, a dark-haired child laughing while he lifted her as if she weighed nothing. But what truly mattered was what hung against his chest. A red circle on the photo pointed directly at it: a thin necklace with a ring dangling from it. You recognized it instantly. You knew Clark carried it with him when he worked at the Daily Planet. He had told you he needed to keep it with him while he worked because he couldn’t stand the idea of leaving it at home.
“It’s a necklace made from a strange material, it won’t let the ring fall off even if there’s a bomb,” he had explained the first time he showed it to you. “I don’t think anyone will notice it, I move too fast.”
Well, apparently not, Clark. Jimmy moves faster than you thought. And now the entire world was seeing what was only supposed to belong to you.
You handed Thaeli’s phone back carefully, trying not to let your hand shake. Barely managing it. Thaeli took it without taking her eyes off the picture, and you took the opportunity to breathe deeply once.
“Lucky woman, huh?” Thaeli said, shaking her head from side to side as if she still couldn’t believe it. You nodded, though inside you felt something very different from luck.
“Definitely,” you agreed, and without meaning to, you glanced at your ring. Yours. The one Clark had slipped onto your finger the day he knelt in front of you in the tiny kitchen of his apartment, his hands trembling and his smile bigger than the entire city.
No… no one would figure it out, you thought quickly. There were thousands of women in the world wearing wedding rings. Millions, probably. Your ring wasn’t special, it wasn’t unique. Even so, you lowered your hand and hid it beneath the desk, as if that small piece of jewelry could somehow betray you.
You picked up your own phone. There were even more images now, different angles, all taken by people who had happened to be in the right place at the right time. Every photograph showed Superman from a different perspective, but in all of them the ring hanging from the strange necklace was visible. The headlines were getting crazier by the minute.
“Superman: who is his superwoman?” one article read.
And underneath it, another one asked, “Is the woman even from this planet?”
You smiled despite yourself. Of course she was from this planet, you thought. She was from Metropolis, actually. But they didn’t know that.
Even so, nerves floated inside you like untied balloons. You knew Clark was extremely careful with you and with your marriage. Both of you were. His friends knew about his marriage to you, just as your friends knew about your marriage to the Daily Planet reporter. But the world didn’t know. The world saw Superman as a hero without attachments, someone who belonged to everyone and no one at the same time. And now, suddenly, that ring said otherwise. It said Superman belonged to someone. It said someone had won his heart. And that someone was you.
The day at the bank felt endless. Every minute dragged on like an hour, and every time someone mentioned the word “Superman,” you felt a small twist in your chest. Your coworkers couldn’t stop talking about the ring, about the lucky woman, about how she could have possibly captured the Man of Steel’s heart. Thaeli had even started making bets on whether the mysterious wife was a superhero or just a normal person.
You only nodded, smiled whenever you were supposed to, and kept your left hand hidden beneath the desk most of the time. You hadn’t taken the ring off—not once. Never. Clark loved seeing it on your hand, and you loved feeling it there, warm against your skin, like a beautiful secret shared only between the two of you. He never took his off either, you knew that well. When he was at the Daily Planet, he wore it on his finger like any normal reporter. And when he put on the cape to become Superman, he slipped it onto that necklace he insisted was invisible.
“No one’s going to notice it,” he had told you more than once, with that confidence of his that sometimes made you laugh and sometimes worried you.
Well, now it was everywhere. On the televisions inside the bank, on everyone’s phones, on the giant screens out on the street when you stepped outside for lunch. There wasn’t a single place where people weren’t talking about it.
When it was finally time to leave, you let out a deep breath. The evening air hit your face, and you felt your shoulders relax slightly. You walked home with slow but steady steps when you suddenly felt the soft buzz of your phone.
It was a message from Clark.
“See you at home,” the first one read.
Then another message appeared:
“I’ll keep pace with you until I know you’ve made it safely.”
You smiled. You knew he followed your heartbeat, that no matter where he was, he could hear the rhythm of your heart among the millions of people in Metropolis. It made you feel protected, as if he were holding your hand even from far away. So you kept walking calmly, without rushing, letting the cool evening air clear your mind a little. The streets were full of people staring at screens and discussing the news, but you simply kept going until you reached your building.
You climbed the stairs the way you always did, step by step, and when you reached the apartment, you pulled out your keys. You opened the door and stepped inside. The first thing you saw was Clark. He was standing by the window, looking outside, though not at the city skyline. He was staring at the glass, or maybe at his own reflection, or maybe at none of those things at all. His shoulders were slightly slumped, something rarely seen on him. The moment he heard your first step inside the apartment, just the sound of your shoe against the floor, he turned around quickly. His eyes met yours for a second before dropping to the floor, as if he felt embarrassed or didn’t know how to look at you after what had happened.
“I don’t know what to do,” he said. His voice sounded tired, more tired than when he came back from stopping a fire or holding back an earthquake.
You closed the door carefully, without making much noise. You left your bag on the living room chair, hung your coat on the rack the way you always did, and walked toward him with soft steps. You nodded once and said, in the calmest voice you could manage,
“Come here.”
Clark didn’t need to be told twice. He took one long step and wrapped you in a tight embrace, though not in the way he sometimes did when he wanted to lift you into the air. No. This was a tired hug, one where he leaned on you more than you leaned on him. He buried his face in your neck, right where your shoulder met your throat, the place he always said smelled like home. And before going still, he pressed a quick kiss to your cheek.
“Hi,” he greeted softly, before hiding in your neck again like an oversized child.
You smiled at his behavior. Despite everything, despite the chaos outside, he was still that huge man who curled up against your shoulder whenever something worried him. You ran a hand along his back, feeling the fabric of his shirt beneath your fingertips, then whispered close to his ear,
“What happened, big guy?”
He sighed against your skin, his voice coming out muffled.
“You told me. They were going to see it.”
You nodded even though he couldn’t see you from where he was.
“I told you,” you said, not as a reproach, only as a gentle reminder.
Clark lifted his head slightly to look at you, just enough for you to see his blue eyes behind the glasses he wore as a disguise.
“You’re developing that mother ability to say ‘I told you so,’” he said, and a small smile appeared on his lips, the kind that only came out when he was nervous or emotional.
And then, suddenly, as if the thought had been floating around in his head and he had only just gathered the courage to say it out loud, he added,
“Maybe it’s a sign for us to have a baby.”
You stared at him. Your heart jumped in a way you couldn’t control, and Clark tilted his head slightly, like a large dog waiting for your reaction. He didn’t say anything else. He only looked at you with those eyes that sometimes seemed to ask permission for everything.
A few seconds passed. You still had one hand resting on his back, and he still had his long arms wrapped around you. Then you spoke carefully, the way someone touches something fragile.
“Have you thought about the fact that maybe the best option would be not wearing the ring?”
Clark’s eyes widened slightly. He shook his head immediately, not slowly but firmly, like he had thought about that possibility many times already and had his answer prepared.
“What?” he said, and his voice sounded almost offended, as though you had suggested something impossible.
He loosened his hold on you just enough to raise his right hand. There it was. The ring. On his finger. Just like always. You looked at it for a moment, the metal gleaming softly under the afternoon light spilling through the window. Clark kept talking, and his voice filled with something softer than tenderness but somehow stronger.
“It’s my treasure. The greatest one of all.”
You smiled. You couldn’t help it. He always found a way to make you smile even when the world outside was losing its mind.
“I’ll wear it here, on my finger, or on my necklace,” he said, curling his hand slightly where the ring rested. “I’m not taking it off.”
You nodded. You knew. You had known from the very beginning, even before asking. Clark wasn’t the kind of person who hid the things he loved, even if it caused him trouble. That was why you loved him. That was why you had married him.
“So what are you going to do about people?” you asked while lifting your hand to gently caress his cheek.
He leaned slightly into your touch, closing his eyes for a second as though something as simple as that gave him strength. When he opened them again, that mischievous smile you loved so much had already appeared.
“People love Superman,” he said slowly, “not Superman’s life.”
You raised an eyebrow, waiting for him to finish.
“If I don’t talk, they’ll never know anything. I’ll never tell them.”
You laughed softly at his words. Because it was so him, so incredibly Clark, to say something like that with the calm confidence he always had when it came to impossible things. As if it were easy. As if the entire world wasn’t desperately searching for answers right now.
“Okay,” you said, leaning in to kiss his cheek, right where a small dimple sometimes appeared when he smiled for real.
And there, in the living room of his apartment, with the news screaming outside and the ring shining on Superman’s hand, everything felt just a little more peaceful.
I'm pretty sure someone asked me for such a sad story, but I can't find their request. If you're reading this, here it is. I ended up crying, so I don't know if I should thank you, haha. A part two?
Parte 2
Clark Kent x female reader
Sinopsis: She was created to destroy Superman, but meeting Clark Kent changes everything. What begins as a mission inside the Daily Planet slowly turns into something dangerously human—something she was never meant to feel.
Warnings: Emotional abuse, physical abuse, manipulation, conditioning, human experimentation, violence, blood, trauma, torture mentions, toxic power dynamics, captivity, identity issues, heavy angst
WC: 14,000 words approx.
They say broken souls are born broken.
That there is no way to fix them, no matter how hard you try.
That villains are villains forever, that they can never change, that the evil inside them is like a stain nothing can wash away.
They also say that those born in hell are consumed by the same fire, that there is no escape, that pain is the only thing they know and the only thing they will ever have until the very end.
And you heard those words so many times that eventually, you believed them. You carried them carved into your bones, into the way you learned to stay quiet, into the way you lowered your gaze whenever someone spoke to you. Because for you, kind words never existed. There were only orders, blows, experiments, and the cold silence of the laboratories where you spent almost your entire life.
You should have known your life would be like this. From the very beginning. From before you opened your eyes for the first time. You should have known your destiny was to be called nothing more than a project, a thing, a number. Labeled as a machine created to obey, to do what it was told, to bow its head and never ask questions.
But the saddest part, the part that hurts the most, is that your first cry had been more human than any other baby's. Your first breath was just as fragile, just as small. Your wounds were as visible as anyone else's. The blood running across your skin was red, just like everybody else's. But the only difference, the only damned difference, was that you had not been born from a family. You had been born from studies, from numbers, from a project no one asked if you wanted.
No one asked for your permission to bring you into the world.
No one asked if you wanted to feel pain.
They just used you.
They injected things into you ever since you were so small that you cannot even remember a single day without needles. They pierced your skin over and over again, until the memories from when you were tiny disappeared completely.
The pain was so overwhelming that your mind chose to forget. Only the scars remained. Those pale marks on your skin that follow you everywhere. And the number on your shoulder. As if you were an animal. As if you were something that could be branded and locked inside a cage. “L008L.” That was what they called you. That was how they knew you. A code. A label.
Maybe you once had a family. Maybe someone loved you before you were ripped away from their arms. But you do not know. You cannot know. Because you had no father or mother. You only had an owner. Someone who created you, designed you, decided that you would exist only to serve him.
Your oldest memory, the only one that survived all that pain, was when you arrived at the laboratories. You were nine years old. Luthor was not in charge yet. But years later, he arrived. He was the one who, once you grew older, made you his. One day, he placed a hand on your shoulder and told you, “You are my project.” And he named you that way. As if you were a brand-new car or a weapon he had just purchased.
The other scientists used to say they had never managed to get anything useful out of you, that they had wasted years without using you properly, that you were a failure. But Lex Luthor looked at you differently. He gave you something that, in your ignorance, you called affection. Because you did not even know what that word meant. No one had ever taught you. No one had ever shown you what it felt like to truly be loved.
So when Luthor’s hand brushed through your hair after they broke your nose during a fight, after you collapsed onto the floor with blood dripping down your face, you felt it as if it were praise. Like a caress. Like something good.
“You passed the test,” he would say in that serious voice of his while wiping the blood from your lip with a white handkerchief. “You are strong. You are the best. But you are still lacking.”
And you would look at him with swollen eyes from crying so much, even though by then you could barely cry anymore. And you felt proud. Proud that he approved of you. Proud that he had not thrown you aside like garbage.
During those tests, they would pit you against two gifted subjects at the same time. They had families, real names, people waiting for them outside. You only had the cold laboratory floor and Luthor’s gaze watching from the other side of the glass.
The tears disappeared when you turned sixteen. You could no longer cry. Something inside you had broken completely, or perhaps it had simply dried out. You were only a project. They had told you that so many times that it no longer hurt. Or at least, that was what you wanted to believe.
They had carved it so deeply into you that nobody even had to deny you anything anymore, because you accepted it yourself. You never intended to resist what Luthor did to you. The thought of saying “no” never even crossed your mind. You were never taught that you could say that word.
At first, you were just another project. One among many. A strange little girl in a white room. But when Superman appeared in the world, when that flying man started saving people and being loved by everyone, then you stopped being “just another project.”
You became the one.
The one who needed to improve. The one with the power to manipulate things with her hands, to release energy like green rays of sunlight, to read minds. Necessary things. Useful things. Things meant to defeat Superman.
Luthor wanted you strong. Even when your hands burned from moving objects with your mind. Even when your head felt like it would explode from hearing other people’s thoughts. Even when it felt like your skull was splitting in half. He would only glance at the clock and write numbers into a notebook.
“Again,” he would say. “Do it again.”
And you obeyed.
You always obeyed.
One time, when you failed, when you could not raise the energy barrier quickly enough and they hit you so hard you collapsed onto the floor gasping for air, Luthor approached you with fury in his eyes. Not the fury of concern.
The fury of disappointment.
He grabbed your arm and yanked you upright before snarling through clenched teeth:
“If you are not stronger than Superman, then you are nothing. NOTHING. Do you understand me? You are worthless if he is stronger than you.”
He did not ask if you were okay. He did not take you to get treated. He simply let go of you and walked away, leaving you there on the floor, coughing up blood and feeling like you were dying from the inside out.
Luthor shaped you as if you were a sword. He sharpened you with pain. Hardened you with blows. And you let him do it because you knew no other way to live.
Maybe the flaw in Luthor’s plan was not assigning you to fight Superman directly. Maybe the real mistake was assigning you to go after Clark Kent. That clumsy journalist with thick glasses and wrinkled suits who always seemed to stick his nose where it did not belong. The one who looked so ordinary, so normal, so weak.
But Luthor knew something many others did not.
And one night, inside his office, with the lights turned off and only the city glow behind him, he called you in and said:
“Clark Kent is the idiot who knows everything about Superman. Everything. If we have him, we have that alien. You capture him, bring him to me, and put him on his knees in front of me.”
You nodded, just like always. You did not ask why. You did not ask how.
You only said:
“Alright.”
And he smiled. That cold smile he gave you whenever he was pleased with you. And for one second, just one second, you felt something close to happiness. Because he had looked at you. Because he had spoken to you. Because he had chosen you for that mission.
Of course he would send you. You had turned twenty-six a few days ago. An age where other women think about marriage, children, careers they enjoy. An age where people celebrate with cake and candles.
You had none of that.
Only a new number added to your file and another order.
Infiltrate the Daily Planet, that enormous newspaper where Clark Kent worked. Pull strings, forge documents, create an entire fake identity. For a man with the kind of money that swarmed around Luthor like ants, it was effortless. One check here, one phone call there, and suddenly you had a false name, a false story, a false life.
That was all.
You never intended to know Clark Kent. Your objective was something else. Your objective was to kill him once he told you where Superman was hiding. That was what you were supposed to do. What you had been ordered to do.
But that was the thing.
No.
You never truly had the intention.
Because to have intention, to want to do something, you first have to desire it. And you desired nothing. You only complied. You only obeyed. You only did what you were told, like a machine, like a trained dog, like a weapon someone loads and fires without asking.
You had an order. That was all.
The order of your owner.
That man who waited for you every single day with questions, demands, and that cold stare asking for results.
“What did you find out?”
“Did you talk to him?”
“Did you get information out of him?”
“Do you already know where the alien is hiding?”
And you had to answer. You always had to answer. You always needed to have something to say, something to show, something to prove that you were not wasting time, that you were not a failure, that you were worth something.
That pressure crushed your shoulders as though you carried a massive stone all day long.
And at the same time, you had to pretend you were a normal employee at the Daily Planet. You had to smile, greet people, learn names, remember birthdays, laugh at jokes that were not funny to you. You had to act like you were a real person, like you had a life, like you had gone to school, like you had friends.
Pretending exhausted you more than any fight ever had.
Pretending hollowed you out in a way you did not know how to explain.
And all of it together—the pressure from Luthor and the pressure of pretending—squeezed you tighter than ever before. You felt trapped. Suffocated. As if your chest were collapsing inward and you could no longer breathe.
Maybe that was why you never saw it coming. Maybe that was why Clark Kent took advantage of that gap. That small space between the pressure of work and the pressure of Luthor, that moment when you were so exhausted you could no longer keep your defenses up. And he slipped straight into your soul.
No blows. No orders. No violence.
Just by being himself.
That clumsy man who wore suits too big for him, who tripped over chairs, who blushed whenever someone spoke too loudly to him. That man who stopped being just “the target” and became “the one teaching you.” Because at first, when you arrived at the Daily Planet with your false identity and your invented name, Perry White, the boss, looked at you over his glasses and said:
“She’s new. Clark, help her settle in. Make sure she learns how everything works around here.”
And Clark smiled at you. A shy smile, with his cheeks slightly flushed, and said:
“Of course, Perry. Don’t worry.”
It was simple at first.
You hated him.
Of course you hated him. And not because you wanted to hate him. Not because he had done anything wrong to you. You hated him because that was what you were supposed to do. It was the order. It was the plan. You had to keep your distance, keep the hatred, keep your mind cold.
But when you realized that hating him was not working, it was because of something so small, so simple, that you were almost ashamed to admit it. It happened a month after you started working there. An entire month of watching him arrive every morning with his coffee thermos, of hearing him murmur to himself while he wrote, of seeing how he laughed at the jokes from the other employees.
A month of trying to read his mind and finding yourself met with a wall. A month of failing your mission because you could not get close enough, because something about him made you lower your guard without meaning to.
That morning, the coffee burned your hand.
You had been distracted. You filled your cup too much, and the hot liquid splashed over your fingers. It was a small pain. Nothing compared to what you had felt before. A simple sting in your body. One among the thousands you had already endured.
But Clark’s eyes widened as if you had screamed, and quickly, very quickly, he took the cup from your hands. Carefully. Without roughness. As if he were afraid of hurting you even more.
You looked at him. You had been hurt before. Many times. For much less. You had been hit for spilling things, for breaking things, for simply existing. But he only looked at you with concern, those clear eyes behind his glasses, while he held the steaming cup away from you.
“I can do it, Clark,” you said.
And your voice sounded different. Softer. More human. The voice you had been using there, in that place full of normal people, had stuck to you without you realizing it. You no longer sounded like a weapon. You sounded like a person.
Clark did not give the cup back to you. Instead, he took your hand very gently and looked at the burn. A red mark on your skin. Nothing serious. But he frowned as if it were something terrible.
“I know,” he told you, without letting go of your hand. “I know you can do it. But I’m supposed to take care of you. You’re assigned to me. Besides...” He paused and looked at you with those eyes that seemed to understand things you had never told him. “You’ve been working very hard. Really hard. Let me do it. I don’t mind.”
He said it and looked at you with a smile. His cheeks were red. You looked away.
You looked at your hand, the one he had carefully released, and felt something strange inside your chest. You had never looked away from anyone. Never. Not even when Luthor yelled at you. Not even when they hit you. You always stared straight ahead, like an animal that could not show fear.
But with Clark, you couldn’t.
You could not hold his gaze when he smiled at you like that. And the worst part, the strangest thing of all, was that you had never been able to read his mind. It was as if a simple human had a strong mind. And Clark did. But not a hard kind of strength, like a wall. It was a soft strength, like a deep current you could not cross.
And that confused you.
It scared you.
Because if you could not read him, you could not control him. And if you could not control him, you could not hate him. And if you could not hate him, what did you have left?
It was the strange things he did.
Strange to you, of course. Because you had never been treated that way. Never. Not once in your entire life. You had never felt what it was like for someone to buy you coffee without you asking. Because you were used to begging. Begging for food when they punished you. Spending entire days with your stomach empty, hearing it growl inside you, while the scientists ate in front of you as if you did not exist.
And of course, despite being named a project, despite being called L008L as if you were a box, your powers did not take away your hunger. Because despite everything, despite the way they had discarded you like trash, despite the fact that you never had a family who loved you, despite the way they treated you like a thing... you were human.
You had a human body.
You needed to eat. You needed to sleep. You needed someone to see you for what you were.
And Clark gave you coffee. Sometimes a pastry. He always said the same thing, with that silly smile and those red cheeks:
“Oh, I stopped by the bakery on my way to work. Bought too much. Want one?”
And you accepted it.
Because you were hungry. Because the hot coffee warmed your hands and your chest. Because the pastry tasted like something you did not remember ever tasting before. Something like... affection? You did not know. You did not know what that was called.
But you liked it.
And it scared you that you liked it.
Clark carried the papers for you. When you came back from an interview and had piles of documents with you, he took half of them or more, just so you would not have to carry so much. Sometimes, when they received small gifts at events or press conferences, bags with notebooks, pens, brochures, he took those too.
“So you don’t have to carry them,” he would say.
As if it were the most normal thing in the world. As if taking care of you were not an effort.
And he smiled. Every chance he got. When he saw you arrive in the morning, he smiled. When you finished a difficult article, he smiled. When you made a mistake while writing something and he corrected you in a low voice so no one else would hear, he smiled.
And he got so nervous.
So much that sometimes he stuttered. So much that things fell from his hands.
And you had never felt it until that day in the elevator. Never in your whole life. Not when they treated your wounds. Not when they said “good job.” Not when Luthor ran his hand through your hair after a fight. None of that had made your heart beat.
You thought you did not have a heart. Or that you had forgotten you had one. Because after so many years of pain, something inside you had fallen asleep. Or died. You did not know which one.
But that day, in the elevator, something woke up.
It happened so soon. So quickly that you almost did not notice it. The two of you were alone, going up to the office after coming back from an interview outside. The elevator was small, one of those old ones that made noise and moved slowly.
You were looking at the floor, as always, thinking about nothing and everything at once. Clark’s hand brushed yours by accident. A small touch. Nothing. Almost nothing.
But he looked at you. And he pointed at your face with a trembling finger.
“You have a... paper,” he whispered.
His voice sounded low, soft, as if he did not want to scare you. As if speaking too loudly would break something fragile.
You looked at him without understanding. You did not feel anything on your face. You did not know what paper he was talking about. You had worn your hair loose all day, and sometimes things stuck to it without you noticing.
But when you were about to raise your hand to your face to find it, he stopped. Clark lifted his hand, but froze in the air, halfway between you and him.
“May I?” he asked.
And that question went through you like a knife.
Because no one had ever asked you “may I?” No one. Not to touch you. Not to treat your wounds. Not for anything. They simply grabbed you, moved you, put needles in you, hit you, lifted you from the floor when you fell.
Never, never had anyone asked for your permission to come close to you.
That was when you felt it for the first time.
Your heart.
It was there. Waiting. And it began to beat hard, fast, like a bird trapped between your ribs. You had spent days wanting to feel him. Not just see him, not just observe him from a distance the way you did with everyone else. You wanted to feel Clark. You wanted to know what it was like for someone to touch you without it hurting.
And you nodded. You moved your head up and down, only slightly, because your throat had closed and you could not speak.
He came closer. Very slowly. Very carefully. His hand rose to your head and removed a small piece of paper hanging from your hair, the kind that comes from notebooks when you tear out a page.
But along the way, his fingers brushed your cheek.
A small touch.
Perfect.
So soft you almost did not feel it.
But you did.
You felt it down to your bones. It was as if that touch had lit something inside you, something that had been turned off for as long as you could remember.
Clark looked at the paper in his hand and then looked at you. His eyes were bright behind his glasses. And he smiled. That smile you were beginning to recognize, the one that made you feel less alone.
“That makes you officially a full-time newsroom employee,” he joked gently.
He tried to make a joke. He tried to say you had passed the test of having papers stuck in your hair. And something happened inside your chest. Something you could not control.
You smiled for real.
Not like the rehearsals you did to behave human, even though you were. Not like those fake smiles you practiced in front of the Daily Planet bathroom mirror so no one would suspect anything.
No.
This smile came out on its own. Without permission. Without an order. Without practice. Because Clark’s smile reached you, touched you, and you could do nothing but return it.
You lowered your gaze with red cheeks. They burned. They stung. But it was not a bad pain. It was a pain you wanted to keep feeling. You felt so much that you never wanted to stop feeling it.
Never again.
But outside, in the real world, in the cold world that waited for you every night, Luthor wanted proof. He wanted something. Anything. You had been at the Daily Planet for weeks and you had given him nothing useful.
Only silly things, things from Clark’s daily life, things that were useless for capturing Superman. Luthor was giving you time. Of course he was. He knew it was not an easy job. He knew you had to earn people’s trust, that you had to pretend, that you had to wait.
But time was running out.
And every day you spent beside Clark, Luthor’s orders weighed more heavily on you. Because what you had were not secrets or plans or Superman’s weaknesses. What you had were irrelevant things. Things about Clark’s parents. Stories from his childhood in Kansas. Names of his friends. Places he visited.
Nothing.
Absolutely nothing about Superman.
And maybe, deep inside, you already knew. You were already beginning to understand why Clark never mentioned Superman. Why, whenever people in the office talked about the hero, Clark stayed quiet or changed the subject. Why he never, not once, said anything bad about him, but never anything good either.
It was as if he avoided the topic carefully, like someone walking over thin ice.
And that made you afraid.
Because if your theory was right, if what you were starting to suspect was true, then your mission became impossible. Then you had to choose.
And you had never chosen anything in your life.
One night, after a long day of pretending, you returned to the laboratory. Luthor was waiting in his office, the lights turned off, illuminated only by the reflections of the city outside. He did not greet you. He did not ask how you were.
He only said:
“What do you have?”
“There’s nothing related to Superman and Clark,” you replied without expression. Your voice sounded flat, empty. Maybe because you wanted to hide what was already beginning to fall into place deep inside your mind. Maybe because you were afraid he would see in your eyes what you could barely believe yourself.
Luthor nodded. Slowly, he rose from his chair and walked toward you. You did not run. You did not step away. You knew what was coming. It was part of life. Part of being a project.
A harsh slap struck across your face, so violent it forced your gaze down to the floor. Your cheek burned. The same cheek Clark’s fingers had brushed days before. And that contrast hurt more than the blow itself.
“I need that stupid flying man in the grave,” Luthor hissed, his voice dripping with venom as he stood so close you could feel his breath against your forehead. “Do you understand me? In the grave. And if that doesn’t happen, you’ll kill Clark Kent. Maybe then Superman will come to claim him. Maybe then he’ll crawl out of hiding to save his little journalist friend.”
You nodded.
You were used to it. The blows were part of you. The orders too. But something twisted painfully inside your chest when you heard his name.
Clark.
Kill Clark.
The words sounded different when you repeated them inside your head. It was not like killing a target. It felt like killing something you were beginning to love.
And no one had taught you how to survive that.
That was not part of the project.
You wanted to push him away. To tell Clark to leave. To run. To leave the country. To never come near you again.
So, in the following days, you started giving him options without him realizing it. You left papers on his desk. Job offers in other countries.
A job in Germany, you thought. He would be perfect there.
Clark would read them and look at you with a smile, not understanding what you were truly trying to tell him.
“Are you thinking about changing jobs?” he would ask with that innocent tone of his, with that way he had of looking at the world as if everyone in it were good.
You would smile and shake your head. Then you would leave more offers. New Zealand. A journalism exchange program in London. Good opportunities, the kind any reporter would accept without hesitation.
But he did nothing.
He read the papers, stared at them for a moment, and then set them aside. As if they did not matter. As if where he already was had become enough for him.
One night, while you were gathering your things to leave, being among the last people left in the office alongside Clark, he finally spoke. His voice sounded different. More serious. As if he had been thinking about it all day.
“I don’t want to change jobs,” he said suddenly.
Clark stood near the door, his jacket hanging from one hand.
“Did I make you think that?”
You shook your head quickly, maybe too quickly.
“No, I just... think you’re very good at what you do. That you could become a great international journalist.”
You played with your bag strap without looking him in the eyes. Your fingers trembled slightly.
Clark stayed silent for a moment. Then he nodded.
“That would be a big step, I admit.”
You nodded too, your head lowered. But he kept speaking.
“But I think I’m happy here. I have a good job. Good friends.” He paused, and when you finally looked up at him, his cheeks were red again. “And this job gave me the chance to meet you.”
Your eyes widened slightly.
Clark swallowed nervously and rubbed the back of his neck.
“I think you’re... a great journalist,” he corrected awkwardly, as if he had realized he had already said too much.
But it was too late.
You had already heard him.
You swallowed hard. Your heart was beating again, just like it had that day in the elevator. And for the first time, for the first time in your entire life, you decided to be honest.
Not because someone ordered you to.
Not because you had to pretend.
But because you wanted to.
Because you needed him to know.
“I’m happy here too,” you admitted softly, your voice barely above a whisper. “The difference between you and me is that... I don’t care whether I have friends or a good job. Working beside you somehow feels like enough.”
The words lingered in the air.
Silence followed. A deep, endless silence that filled the empty office. Through his glasses, you could see something shining in Clark’s eyes. Something you had never seen there before.
And then, without either of you planning it, you stepped closer.
He did too.
As if your bodies already understood what words could not say. As if both of you had realized that somehow, impossibly, you seemed to need each other. Ever since the moment you met, something in the world had changed for both of you.
Clark kissed you.
And you rose onto your tiptoes just to reach him.
His lips were soft. Warm.
You did not know how to kiss. No one had ever taught you. You had never kissed anyone before. But your body knew what to do. As if it had been waiting for this moment your entire life.
As if every blow, every wound, every night filled with pain had only been the path leading you here.
To this kiss.
To Clark.
And that was enough for you to realize that another life existed. A different kind of life. One where nobody demanded that you be the best. One where you did not have to beg for food. One where affection was not something you earned only after winning a fight.
A life without humiliation. Without blows. Without numbers tattooed into skin. Without laboratories, owners, or orders.
There was only Clark.
Clark with his glasses.
Clark with his flushed cheeks.
Clark with his gentle hands and tender voice.
Clark, who had unknowingly taught you that you were not a project.
That you never had been.
Clark was strangely adorable.
You did not say it lightly. It was not a word you used carelessly. But he truly was. Everything he did felt sweet in a way you could not explain.
The good morning hugs, when he arrived at the office and saw you sitting at your desk, and he would walk toward you slowly as if he did not want to bother you, only to wrap his arms around you and squeeze you just a little, whispering “good morning” against your hair.
The goodnight hugs, when he walked you to your apartment building after the two of you wandered through the dark streets together, and he stayed standing outside until you went inside, just to make sure you were safe.
Holding your hand while walking, as if it were the most natural thing in the world, as if his fingers needed yours to feel complete.
Kissing your forehead. Your cheek. Sometimes your nose, whenever he was being silly and trying to make you laugh.
Kissing you.
That.
The kisses he pressed against your lips, soft and slow, as if he had all the time in the world and nowhere else he would rather be except there, with you.
And that life, the one you had created with a name that was not a number, with someone who did not scream at you that you belonged to him as if you were an object... that was the life you wanted to live.
For the first time in your life, you wanted to wake up the next morning.
For the first time, you were not afraid of what would happen next. You wanted to get up just to see him, to hear his voice, to feel his hands. You wanted to keep pretending to be a normal employee, but not because you had been ordered to. Because that disguise allowed you to stay by his side.
That life was a dream.
A dream you never wanted to wake up from.
But the code carved into your shoulder, those letters and numbers you had carried for as long as you could remember—L008L—always reminded you of reality. They burned against your skin like a brand. Whispering into your ear that you were not real, that you were not a person, that you were only a project.
Reality waited for you outside.
Outside of Clark’s arms. Outside of his kisses. Outside of that bubble of affection that had wrapped itself around you without you even noticing.
One night, Clark invited you to his apartment for dinner. He said he was tired of restaurants, that he wanted to be alone with you, without people around, without noise, without anything except the two of you.
You accepted.
Of course you did.
You would have accepted anything he offered you.
When you arrived at his apartment, it felt so... him. Cozy. Messy but clean. With books stacked on tables and plants resting by the windows. It smelled like homemade food, like something cooked slowly and lovingly.
Clark was chopping tomatoes in the kitchen, wearing an apron that was slightly too small for him. You laughed seeing him so focused, his tongue peeking out a little while he cut them.
And suddenly, without stopping, he said:
“I think shaving your head during hot weather is actually a pretty smart strategy. I wouldn’t do it myself, but it’s a good strategy.”
You laughed. A genuine laugh, the kind that came more easily every time you were with him.
“But if you lost all your hair, you’d end up...” You gestured toward your head playfully. “That would hurt more, wouldn’t it?”
Then you handed him the onion you had chopped. He took it carefully and dropped it into the pot where something bubbled softly, releasing steam that smelled incredible.
“Well, that is an excellent point,” Clark admitted, turning to look at you with that smile of his. The one that completely unraveled you.
You smiled back.
But maybe your smile wavered a little. Just slightly.
Because deep inside your mind, in that dark corner you kept trying to ignore, you knew you had spent days ignoring Lex. You were not answering his calls the way you were supposed to. You were not giving him full reports. You kept telling him there were no updates, that Clark knew nothing, that you were still investigating.
You lied.
You lied every single time you opened your mouth in front of him.
And that lie sat inside your chest like a stone. But you could not stop. You did not want to stop. Because every time Clark looked at you, every time he touched you, you forgot Luthor existed. You forgot you had a mission. You forgot you were a project.
There was only him.
Only this moment, in this kitchen, with the steam rising from the pot and the smell of tomatoes and onions filling the air.
His hands were skilled and steady, even though he always pretended to be clumsy at the office. And you only helped when necessary, because he kept telling you to sit down, to rest, that you already did enough during the day.
“All I need is for you to kiss me every once in a while,” Clark would say whenever you complained about not helping enough.
He always said it with a mischievous smile, those flushed cheeks you loved so much coloring pink again.
And you would laugh.
And kiss him.
And he would continue cooking as if nothing had happened, though you could see the foolish smile spreading across his face every single time you did it.
At some point, your gaze drifted away.
You did not know how long you stayed like that, staring into nothing while thinking about everything. About Luthor. About the mission. About what would happen once all of this ended. About what would happen if he discovered you no longer wanted to obey him.
Clark noticed.
He always noticed everything about you.
Slowly, he walked closer, his hands still slightly damp from washing vegetables, and carefully tucked your hair behind your ear. His fingers brushed your skin, and you felt that familiar shiver running through your body every time he touched you.
“Everything okay?” he asked softly, concern filling his voice.
You nodded, even though it was not entirely true.
But you could not tell him the truth. Not yet. Maybe not ever.
He smiled, as if he had decided to believe you, and said:
“You’re my main assistant. Without your kisses, I can’t continue. Dinner will burn if you don’t give me one right now.”
“So dramatic,” you whispered.
But you stepped closer and kissed him anyway. Short. Quick. But filled with everything you did not know how to put into words.
Clark nodded in satisfaction.
“That’s better,” he said, continuing to cook as if nothing had happened.
If only he could hear you.
If only he were the one reading your mind and knew the guilt you carried.
That heavy, dark guilt crushing your shoulders every night when you were alone. The guilt of knowing you were supposed to obey, that Luthor was waiting for you, that the mission still existed even if you no longer wanted to complete it.
Because you did not want to anymore.
You did not want to obey.
You did not want to hurt anyone.
You did not want to return to that cold laboratory, to those needles, to those beatings, to those sleepless nights listening to the scientists’ footsteps echoing down the hallway.
You only wanted to stay with him.
You only wanted this forever.
This kitchen. This smell of homemade food. Clark’s hands holding yours.
But you were certain the world would still point at you and call you the villain.
Because that was what you were, wasn’t it?
That was what you had always been. A project built to hurt people. A weapon. A thing.
People never understand that sometimes villains do not choose to become villains. Sometimes they are placed on that road from the moment they are born and never given another choice.
And you had never been given a choice.
Not until Clark arrived.
You watched him smile while stirring the pot.
And then you remembered.
You remembered that night after the kiss in the office. The night he walked you home and stayed by your door because neither of you wanted to say goodbye. You remembered how he kissed you again, slower this time, deeper, as if he were trying to tell you something he could not put into words.
And during that kiss, in that moment when his lips touched yours and the world stopped moving, his mind opened to you.
Not intentionally.
Not because you searched for it.
It was as if the kiss had broken down a wall. Or as if, for the first time, he had lowered his guard completely.
That was how you found out he was Superman.
You discovered the truth you had spent months suspecting, the one spinning around inside your head like a knife that refused to sink all the way in.
Clark was Superman.
The man who flew. The hero Luthor wanted dead. The alien your owner claimed needed to be destroyed.
And you held him there in your arms while he kissed you as if you were the most important thing in the world.
Your suspicions were confirmed.
But not because you used your powers.
Because he revealed himself without meaning to.
Inside his mind, in that moment of tenderness, you saw everything. You saw the child arriving in a spaceship. You saw the parents who raised him in Kansas. You saw the first time he flew. You saw the symbol on his chest.
You saw Superman.
And you saw him smile, and cry, and love.
You saw him be more human than anyone who called him an “alien.”
Your mission was complete.
That moment should have been the end of everything. You had what Luthor wanted. The final proof. The connection between Clark Kent and Superman. You could have gone back that same night and told him everything.
And he would have smiled at you. Congratulated you. Given you that twisted version of affection you once mistook for love.
But you did not do it.
You could not.
You did not want to.
So you kept it to yourself.
Like a secret.
Like a treasure.
Because you wanted it to last a little longer. You wanted that night to never end. You wanted to keep feeling his lips, his hands, his warmth. You wanted to keep being the girl from the Daily Planet, the one with the fake name and the invented life who, for the first time, finally felt real.
You were afraid Luthor would grow tired of waiting. Afraid he would train you until you were capable of fighting Superman yourself.
And not only him.
You knew Luthor had other creations. Other projects. Other weapons. You knew that if you failed, he would use someone else.
And that terrified you.
Terrified for Clark.
Terrified for yourself.
Terrified for everything you had started to build.
But good things always come to an end.
You knew that. You had known it from the beginning, even if you had tried to cover it up with kisses and dinners at his apartment. Because a villain never got a happy ending.
Villains did not deserve one.
And at the end of the day, no matter how Clark looked at you as if you were a person, no matter how his hands treated you as if you were made of porcelain, you were still a project.
And projects were only carried out.
Or, if they did not work, they were discarded. Sometimes, they were useful until they fulfilled their purpose, and then the same thing happened.
They were discarded anyway.
Like trash. Like something useless. Like a broken toy no one wanted to fix.
You looked at Clark that day.
It was a night like many others, one of those nights you had started treasuring like someone saving coins in a jar, knowing that sooner or later, they would run out. You were standing at the door of your apartment after walking together through streets lit by lampposts.
He was saying goodbye with a kiss on your lips, one of those slow kisses that left you breathless. Your hands were on his shirt, tucked beneath his jacket, feeling the warmth of his chest through the fabric.
You were smiling.
You could not help it.
And your eyes shone like they had never shone before. As if, somewhere inside you, tiny lights had been switched on and no one had managed to put them out yet.
“We should go out tomorrow,” Clark whispered close to your lips, with that voice that made you shiver.
It was not an order.
It was never an order with him.
It was an invitation. An I want to be with you disguised as simple words.
“We’ve been dating for three months. I think I want to surprise you for the fourth.”
You smiled. But inside, something shifted. Something uncomfortable.
Because surprises were not meant for you. Gifts were not meant for you. Beautiful things had never reached your hands without you having to pay a price first.
“A surprise?” You looked at him, searching for his eyes behind his glasses. You swallowed before speaking. “I don’t think I deserve a surprise.”
The truth escaped your mouth before you could stop it. Because deep down, in that dark place Clark could not see, you believed it.
You did not deserve anything good.
Projects did not deserve.
Projects only received orders and punishments.
But Clark did not understand the depth of your words. He couldn’t. Because he did not know what you were. He did not know where you came from. He did not know what you had done, what had been done to you, what you still had to do.
He only saw you.
The girl from the Daily Planet. The shy reporter who blushed whenever he held her hand.
And he smiled at you with that wide, sincere smile of his, the one that broke something inside you every time you saw it.
“You deserve it more than anyone,” he whispered.
His hand rose to your face, and he tucked that same rebellious strand of hair behind your ear. The same gesture as always.
The one you loved so much.
“I’ll see you tomorrow at that Italian restaurant you like so much. Eight o’clock, after work.”
“Alright, then I’ll see you tomorrow... even though we’ll see each other at work,” you said, and your voice sounded happier than you felt inside.
Clark laughed again. That laugh that soothed your soul.
“Well, I’ve realized that seeing you at work isn’t enough.” He smiled, soft and impossibly fond. “I want to have you for my whole life.”
You looked at him with flushed cheeks. They burned. They stung. But it was a beautiful warmth, the kind you wanted to last forever.
You hugged him. Pressed your body against his and felt the way he wrapped his arms around you, holding you as if you were fragile, as if he were afraid of breaking you.
He had no idea.
No idea that you wanted to leave your real secret behind too.
No idea that while he was planning a surprise for your fourth month together, you were planning something much bigger.
Something that terrified you and gave you hope at the same time.
You looked into his eyes. Took a breath. And spoke from the deepest part of your heart, from that place you had believed empty until he filled it without asking permission.
“I want to have you for my whole life too, Clark,” you whispered.
The words came out trembling, but firm. It was the first time you had ever said something like that. The first time you had wanted something for yourself.
Not for Luthor.
Not for the mission.
For you.
And in that moment, you decided.
You would tell him.
Everything.
The laboratory. The experiments. The number on your shoulder. Luthor. The mission. Superman.
Everything.
If he could help you, if he could love every part of you, even with your past, with your scars, with the terrible things you had done and the terrible things that had been done to you, then you would help him defeat Lex.
Together.
Because you no longer wanted to be a weapon. You no longer wanted to be a project. You no longer wanted to be L008L.
You only wanted to be the girl Clark kissed in apartment doorways.
Clark kissed you one last time that night.
A long, soft kiss, filled with promises neither of you knew if you could keep. His lips parted from yours slowly, as if leaving was difficult for him, as if he knew something terrible was going to happen.
But he did not know.
He could not know.
“Tomorrow,” he said with a smile.
“Tomorrow,” you replied.
And he walked away down the sidewalk, looking back every few steps, smiling each time he saw you still standing in the doorway.
Until he turned the corner and disappeared.
You remained there, alone on the threshold, your heart beating so hard you could feel it in your ears.
Could you have a dignified life?
Was it possible?
Could someone like you, born in a laboratory, raised among needles and blows, trained to kill, have a happy ending?
You wondered that while climbing the stairs to your apartment. The building was old, the hallway lights flickered, and your steps sounded hollow against the concrete.
Maybe it was your illusion that blinded you.
Maybe it was hope, that new thing Clark had planted in your chest without you realizing it, that made you lower your guard.
Because as you climbed, you did not think to check the door. You did not think to listen before going inside. You did not think about anything except him, his smile, his I want to have you for my whole life.
You climbed the steps with a foolish smile on your face, your hands tucked inside the pockets of your jacket, feeling almost normal.
Almost happy.
You opened the door to your apartment.
The one you rented.
Or rather, the one Luthor rented.
Because nothing was truly yours. Not the walls, not the furniture, not the name you used, not even the clothes on your body. He had given you everything.
And everything had a price.
When you opened the door, your heart froze.
Lex Luthor was standing there, staring out the window as if nothing were wrong. As if it were his apartment. As if you belonged to him. As if nothing had happened.
His hands were clasped behind his back, shoulders straight, head slightly tilted. The streetlight filtered through the glass and painted his long, slender silhouette across the floor.
You walked forward slowly.
Every step took enormous effort, as if your legs had been filled with lead. The door behind you closed by itself.
Or not by itself.
You barely turned your head and saw one of his projects. One you had heard of, though you knew very little about him. Only that he was strong.
Very strong.
He was covered entirely in black, from head to toe, like a breathing shadow. He did not move. Did not speak.
He only watched.
Waited.
You looked at Luthor.
At last, he slowly turned around, wearing that false calm he always used when he was truly furious. His eyes traveled over you from head to toe, as if he were inspecting a defective product.
As if he had already decided you were useless.
“I don’t know what bothers me more,” he said, his voice low and dangerously calm. “That Clark Kent took advantage of my project, or that my project, the one that took me the longest to build, now has to be discarded.”
He stepped closer to you.
You stepped back.
One step.
Then another.
Your back hit the wall, but there was no way out. The man in black stood by the door. You could not escape.
“It’s part of the plan,” you said.
But this time, you did not manage to stay calm. Your voice trembled. Your hands trembled. You could not hold his gaze.
You lowered your eyes.
And that was the sign.
He knew that gesture perfectly.
He knew what it meant.
It meant you were lying.
It meant you were afraid.
It meant you were no longer his.
Luthor seized your chin harshly, his fingers cold as ice, and forced your face closer until his breath struck your skin.
You looked at him.
His eyes were full of rage. Disappointment.
Something worse.
“Part of the plan?” he spat the words like poison. “What the fuck is your plan?”
You trembled.
Your whole body trembled.
But you had to keep going.
You had to protect Clark.
Even if they killed you.
Even if they discarded you.
Even if they dragged you back to the laboratory and injected you until you forgot his name.
“Mr. Lex,” you said, your voice barely more than a thread.
He released your chin abruptly, as if you disgusted him. You stayed pressed against the wall, breathing fast, feeling as if your heart were trying to claw its way out of your chest.
“Clark Kent knows nothing about Superman,” you lied.
You wished it were true.
Wished he were not the flying man.
Wished he were only a clumsy, loving reporter who had nothing to do with the hero Luthor wanted to destroy.
“He doesn’t actually know where he is or where he lives. He thinks he comes to the planet whenever he wants.” Another lie. Your throat dried. “Clark Kent is just a... puppet. He is.”
Luthor stared at you in silence.
A long, heavy silence that crushed your shoulders.
He knew.
He knew something.
You could see it in his eyes. He did not believe you. He had never fully believed you. But he needed to hear you say it.
He needed you to condemn yourself.
“And what was my order if Clark Kent got in the way?” Luthor asked, his voice so cold it seemed to come from somewhere else.
You stayed silent.
The words stuck in your throat like thorns.
“What was it?” he shouted suddenly, and the sound bounced off the empty apartment walls.
You flinched.
The man in black did not move.
“To kill him and bring Superman down to earth,” you whispered.
The words tasted like blood. Like betrayal. Like everything you did not want to be.
Luthor nodded slowly, as if savoring your confession.
“Kill him,” he said.
It was not a suggestion.
It was an order.
Perhaps the last one he would ever give you.
“I want Clark Kent dead. Tonight.”
“I can’t,” you said.
And this time, you did not tremble.
This time, your voice came out firm, even as you were falling apart inside.
Luthor looked at you with a smile.
A small, ugly smile that did not reach his eyes.
And then came the slap.
Hard.
So hard it snapped your face to the side and made stars burst across your vision.
Before you could react, before you could raise your arms to protect yourself, the man in black grabbed you. He lifted you without any effort at all, as if you were a feather, as if you weighed nothing.
And hurled you against the wall.
The impact was brutal. The wall split open slightly, a long, ugly crack running through the plaster from top to bottom. The framed pictures hanging there crashed down over you, their frames breaking, glass exploding into shards that cut your face and arms.
You fell to the floor among the debris, your head spinning, blood running down your cheek, your ear ringing as if a bee were trapped inside it.
Luthor wiped his hand with a handkerchief, as if touching you had dirtied him.
He looked down at you from above, from that godlike height he had always held over you. And there was nothing in his eyes.
No rage.
No disappointment.
Not even hatred.
Only indifference.
As if you no longer existed.
As if he had already thrown you in the trash.
“Another damned failed project,” he said, sounding tired, as if even despising you bored him. “Take her.”
That was the last thing you heard.
The man in black approached you.
You felt a sharp sting in your neck, something cold, something metallic.
An injection.
The liquid entered your veins like liquid fire. Your body went numb. Your head filled with cotton. Your eyes closed without you being able to stop them.
And as you fell asleep, as the darkness wrapped itself around you like a cold blanket, you thought of only one thing.
Him.
Clark.
His smile.
His "You deserve it more than anyone".
The Italian restaurant.
The surprise you would never get to see.
His arms.
His warmth.
Everything you had wanted to have, now falling apart between your fingers like wet sand.
You did not need to open your eyes. The smell told you everything.
That cold, clean scent, like a hospital but worse, like something that had never seen the sun. That smell of disinfectant and metal and fear. The sound told you too. That low hum of machines, that heavy silence of empty hallways, that echo of your own heartbeat bouncing off white walls. You were in your cell. The one you used to call a room because you had not known it could be called anything else. Because they told you it was your room, and you believed them.
But now you knew. Now you knew it was a cage. It always had been.
You opened your eyes slowly. Your gaze scanned everything, just as they had taught you to do, like a weapon activating after being shut down. The narrow bed. The padded walls. The metal door with no handle on the inside. The large mirror on the far wall, behind which you knew someone was always watching. And the clock.
You looked at the time. Twelve noon.
They had sedated you. Most likely so you would sleep as long as possible, so you would be weak when you woke, so you would not be able to fight. But you had to get out of there. You had to see Clark. You had promised yourself. You were going to tell him the truth. You were going to ask for his help. You were going to start a new life. A real life.
You stood. Your legs trembled slightly, but you managed to stay upright. You ran to the door with your hand outstretched, hoping it might be open, hoping it had all been a mistake, hoping they had not locked you in again.
But the moment you touched it, an alarm went off. A sharp, violent beeping pierced your ears like a needle, and before you could pull your hand away, an electric current shot through your arm, your shoulder, your chest.
You gasped. The pain forced you back, stumbling until you fell to your knees on the cold floor. Your fingers still trembled from the shock.
“I thought I could trust you.”
Luthor’s voice echoed through the room, coming from speakers you could not see. You looked at him through the large mirror. He was on the other side, as always, arms crossed, wearing that godlike posture of a man who believed he owned the world.
“And my most... valued project,” he said, pausing dramatically as if saying it wounded him, “betrayed me for one of Superman’s friends.” He nodded slowly, as though processing something tragic. “How painful.”
But all you saw in his eyes was irritation. Not pain. Not sadness. Irritation. Like when a favorite toy breaks. Like when something that belongs to him stops working the way he wants it to.
You stared at the mirror and frowned. Your mind focused on the glass. You could break it. You could tear through it with your energy. You could reach him.
The glass trembled a little, barely at all, but Luthor noticed.
And he smiled.
“No scenes,” he said calmly, dangerously. “Or I’ll be forced to sedate you again. And this time, you won’t wake up in twelve hours. Do you understand?”
You stopped. Lowered your hand.
Rage burned inside you, but fear was stronger. Not fear of being hurt. You already knew that one. Fear of never seeing Clark again. That was new. That paralyzed you.
Luthor left. The screen went dark.
You stayed alone in the white room, sitting on the floor, your arm still tingling from the shock. You looked at the clock again. One in the afternoon. You had to get out. You had to see Clark.
The restaurant. Eight o’clock.
You had seven hours.
Seven hours to find a way to escape, to slip past the guards, to reach him. But you needed to be patient. You could not throw yourself against the door again. You could not hurt yourself. You had to think.
And then it happened.
Five in the afternoon.
Footsteps sounded in the hallway. Doors opening. Low voices. A man entered, deactivating the electric lasers with a remote control. You knew him. You had seen him before. One of the usual guards, the kind who looked without seeing, who spoke to you as if you were an animal.
Behind him came a woman you also recognized, holding a metal tray. On the tray was a syringe filled with a transparent liquid you knew very well.
Punishment.
The reward for misbehaving. For disobeying. For thinking for yourself.
“Hello, pretty thing,” the guard said with an ugly smile that turned your stomach. “We were told you behaved badly.”
You looked away. You did not want to see him. You did not want to give them the satisfaction of watching you tremble.
The guard stepped closer, confident, as if you were the same as before. The one who stayed still. The one who endured.
“You decide,” he said, his voice almost amused. “Do you want to do this sedated or conscious?”
The woman stepped forward too, the syringe ready.
You knew what “conscious” meant. It meant feeling everything. It meant they would not put you fully to sleep, only weaken you, only strip away enough of your strength so you could not fight, but you would feel every needle, every blow, every humiliation.
And Luthor always punished that way.
It was not enough to hurt you. You had to know you deserved it. You had to feel it.
But something had changed.
Something inside you was no longer the same.
You stood slowly. Both guards froze, surprised. You never stood. Never defended yourself. Never spoke. You only knelt and waited.
“I decide,” you said, and a smile spread across your face. A smile they had never seen before. “That I want to kill you.”
Your hand moved so lightly they did not even see it. A quick, precise movement, one they had drilled into you through years of training. The needle on the tray flew through the air, and before the guard could blink, it buried itself in his neck. His eyes went wide. His mouth opened to scream, but only a choked sound came out.
He dropped to the floor like a stone.
The woman screamed and stepped back, but you were already on her. You struck her in the head with the metal tray, and she collapsed too. Both of them fell to the floor.
It had all lasted only a few seconds.
Before, you had done nothing. Of course you had the strength. Of course you could. But it had been carved into your mind that it was your fault. That you had to endure everything, even if you hated it, even if you had nightmares.
Because Lex said it was your punishment.
Because Lex said you deserved it.
And you believed him. You believed him for so long that you forgot you could say no.
But not anymore.
Now you had Clark.
Now you had a reason to fight.
You stepped over the guards’ bodies and left the cell. The hallway was long and white, just as it had always been. The alarm activated immediately. Red lights flashing. A loud, irritating sound filling the entire place.
You ran.
Most of the doors were locked, sealed by security. So you used your powers. You pushed with your mind, with the energy flowing from your hands, and the doors burst open by force, shattering locks, ripping metal frames apart.
Corridors. More corridors.
Then came the guards. They fired. Bullets flew toward you. You deflected them effortlessly with a movement of your hand, sending them ricocheting into the walls.
You kept running.
And then, as you were deflecting those bullets, a blow slammed into your body. Something enormous, something unstoppable, lifted you off the ground and smashed you against the wall. The impact was so brutal you felt the air leave your lungs.
You fell to the floor, coughing, your vision blurred.
“Bad, bad, bad.”
Luthor’s voice came from speakers mounted in the corners of every hallway. Your head hurt. Your ribs hurt. You lifted your eyes and saw the man standing before you, the same one who had knocked you unconscious in the apartment.
He did not move.
He only stared at you, waiting.
“Did you think it would be easy?” Luthor continued, his voice almost cheerful, as if he were enjoying the spectacle. “No one betrays Luthor, my dear project. Never.” A pause followed. A silence that froze your blood. “Besides, you couldn’t leave without being properly introduced to my newest creation. The one who is going to replace you.”
The man in front of you slowly lifted his hands, calm, as if he were in no hurry.
Then he removed his mask.
Your pulse stopped for a second.
Maybe longer.
Your lips trembled. Your heart stopped beating, then began again harder, faster, more afraid. Because it was like looking at Superman. A corrupted version of him, yes, but still. The same strong face. The same jaw. The same dark hair, though longer, more unkempt.
But no.
It was not Superman.
It was worse.
It was like looking at Clark.
Clark without the glasses. Clark with dark, empty eyes, without a soul, without love. Clark the way you had once been. The way they had raised you to be.
A project.
A weapon.
A thing without feelings.
“Meet Ultraman,” Luthor said, pride overflowing in his voice. “Isn’t he nearly perfect? A few small defects, perhaps, but better than you. Much better.”
You shook your head. It could not be. There could not be another like him. There could not be another like you.
“I’m certain he would kill Clark Kent,” Luthor continued, as if thinking out loud. “But first, he has to kill you. A little training exercise, don’t you think? A warm-up.”
And then Ultraman attacked.
You had no time to react. His enormous hand closed around your throat and lifted you off the ground. He flew with you, squeezing your airway, crashing you through the hallway walls.
Wall after wall.
Your back hit concrete. Your head struck hard. The pain was immense.
Then he released you.
You dropped to the floor like a rag, groaning, blood running down your forehead. Before you could stand, he lunged again.
But this time, you flew upward, covering your body in green energy to escape. The energy shielded you, strengthened you. You shot through the hallway, but he followed.
He was fast.
Too fast.
He caught you, seized your wrist, and when he lifted his other arm to strike you, your energy stopped him for one second.
Only one.
He shoved you back, and before you could see it coming, he hurled you downward. You gasped as you hit the floor. Something cracked inside you.
A rib, maybe.
Or something worse.
“And one more thing,” Luthor said through the speakers, like a narrator enjoying his own show. “He knows Superman’s movements as well as yours. He studied you just as much as he studied Superman. There are no secrets from him. No tricks.”
You swallowed, staring up.
Ultraman watched you from above, floating in the air with his arms crossed. He was in no hurry.
He knew he was going to win.
You began to attack him. Green spheres of energy shot from your hands straight toward him. Entire walls wrapped in your energy rose from the floor to trap him. But he was strong. Too strong. He broke through everything with his laser vision, like Superman. Like Clark. You fell once. Then again. Then again. Blood dripped from your nose. Your entire body hurt. There were only minutes left before eight. Clark had to be at the restaurant by now. Because whenever you had dates, he always arrived early. Always. It was his way of saying he did not want to lose a single second with you. But this time, you did not even know if you would ever see him again. If you were going to get out of there. If you were going to stay alive.
He threw another massive wall at you. He lifted it from the ground and hurled it in your direction. You stopped it before it could crush you, your hands trembling, your arms on the verge of breaking. The effort was titanic.
You shoved the wall off you with a cry of effort. You stood. You were going to attack him. You were going to give everything you had. But he moved with a speed your eyes could not follow. Everything happened too fast. His hand appeared at your back. He was close to you. For one second, only one second, you looked into his eyes. And you saw Clark’s eyes. The same ones. The same color. The same shape. But empty. Like a broken mirror.
You gasped. He held you still without expression, watching your reaction as if he were barely learning what it meant. As if he did not know what tears were.
You placed your hand over Ultraman’s other one. The same hand where he had buried a dagger. A strange dagger, glowing green and purple at the same time. You looked at him with tears in your eyes. You did not want to cry. But you could not stop it. He drove it in deeper. You trembled. Gasped. You felt the poison entering your blood, spreading through your body like frozen fire.
And then you felt your body move. The dagger was no longer in his hand. It was Lex. Lex Luthor had arrived, had stepped close without you seeing him, and now he held your body and the dagger’s handle in his hand. You looked at him without understanding. Your vision blurred. Everything became hazy.
“I’m sorry, Clark,” you thought. The words formed inside your head like a prayer, like a whisper he would never hear. “I’m sorry I won’t make it to the restaurant. I’m sorry I never told you how much I love you. Not even my first ‘I love you.’ I’m sorry I wasn’t honest. I’m sorry I didn’t tell you everything from the beginning. I’m sorry I lied to you, even if it was through silence. I’m sorry I didn’t kiss you one more time before leaving. I’m sorry I didn’t stay that night. I’m sorry for everything. I’m sorry for everything, Clark. Everything.”
“My sweet, sweet project,” you heard Luthor’s voice pull you back to the present. He caressed your cheek with his cold hand, with a softness that disgusted you more than any blow ever could. His fingers traced your skin as if you were a pet, as if you were something pretty that belonged to him. “Do you know the best part?” he said, leaning close to your ear. His voice was a poisonous whisper, so close you could feel his warm breath against your skin. “How were you supposed to tell the man who was in love with you that sooner or later, you were going to betray him so I could stand face-to-face with Superman? How were you going to look him in the eyes and say, ‘I love you, but I was going to hand you over too’? See? This was better. I did you a favor. I spared you the shame. I spared you from having to see his face when he learned the truth.”
You looked at him in desperation. Your eyes, already fading, tried to throw hatred at him, but only sadness came out. You did not want his words to be true. But something inside you knew he was right. Not because of what you wanted. Because of what you were. Because of what they had made you into. Because you had been created to betray. Created to hurt. And even if you had wanted to change, even if you had wanted to be different, your fate had been written before you were even born.
“Don’t worry,” Luthor continued, straightening up and wiping his hand on his jacket as if he had touched something filthy. “Ultraman can finish your work for you. That dagger was necessary. Created from flowing energy and poisoned kryptonite. I just want you to know...” He paused. He looked at you with his cold eyes, without mercy, without a single trace of humanity. “Just as I created you, I can discard you. You are not the first. You will not be the last. You are only another number, L008L. That is all. You were never anything more.”
Those were his last words. He pulled the dagger out in one brutal motion. Blood spilled from your body, hot, too hot, and yet you felt cold. So cold. Your eyes slowly dimmed. The white ceiling blurred above you. The edges of your vision darkened. You could barely feel the pain anymore. Only an immense exhaustion. A deep sleep calling to you from the very core of your being. Your body fell to the floor with a dull thud. Blood spread beneath you like red wings. Your lips tried to form one word. Just one. The most important one.
Maybe it was not the life I wanted, you thought as the light went out forever. But I will never regret meeting you, Clark. Never. Not one day. Not one second. In the end, you freed me. You made me feel human. You gave me something no one had ever given me before: a reason to want to live. And even though I couldn’t stay... I leave peacefully. Because I had you. Because I felt you. Because for a few months, I was yours. And you were mine.
Maybe in another life, Clark. Maybe in another life I can have a better life. Maybe in another life I can be a real person. Someone who deserves you. Someone who can stay by your side forever. Maybe in another life, when you arrive at the restaurant, I will already be waiting for you with a smile. Maybe in another life I can tell you ‘I love you’ every morning. Maybe in another life, Clark... maybe in another life.
I love you, I love you, Clark...
And then, nothing. Silence. Darkness. Cold. Your heart, the one you believed you did not have, the one Clark had awakened with a touch inside an elevator, stopped. The heartbeats that had leapt with happiness when he kissed you, that had trembled with fear when Luthor caught you, that had cried with sorrow when you thought of never seeing him again... faded. One after another. Until none were left.
You never found out that Clark waited for you with a bouquet of purple and yellow tulips, the ones you liked because you said they looked like little suns. He had chosen them one by one at the flower shop, asking which were the prettiest, which would last the longest. The florist had laughed at him because he kept changing his mind. “They’re for someone special,” Clark had said with flushed cheeks. “For someone very special.”
You never knew that inside a small box lined with blue velvet was the key to his apartment. The one he was going to give you so you could spend more time with him. So you could stay. So you would know his home was yours too. He had gone to the hardware store that very morning, made a copy of his key, and placed it inside the little box as if it were a treasure. “I hope she likes it,” he had told the locksmith, who looked at him strangely. “I’m sure she will,” Clark replied, though he was not sure of anything.
You never knew he had rehearsed again and again in the men’s bathroom at work, standing in front of the mirror with a crumpled paper in his hand. That he had repeated the words until he memorized them, though he had written them down too, just in case. He had locked himself in the bathroom five times that day. His coworkers wondered what was wrong with him. Lois asked if he was sick. “No, no,” Clark said, “I’m just nervous.” “Nervous about what?” Lois asked. “Nothing,” Clark lied. And then he went back to rehearsing.
“I thought I would never meet the love of my life,” he whispered in the bathroom, looking at himself in the mirror, holding the crumpled paper he could barely read anymore after folding and unfolding it so many times. “And then you appeared as if it were nothing. And I thought it was a dream. But I love you. I love you so much that keeping it to myself any longer would be bad for my heart, because I don’t like lying, and lying to you would be not telling you this. So here I am. Here I am, telling you that I love you. That I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you. If you want that, of course. I don’t want to pressure you. But if you want to... I do.”
You never knew that he kept watching every time the restaurant door opened. That his heart jumped at every sound. That he ordered a glass of water just to have something in his hands, because he did not know what to do with his nerves. That he checked the clock every two minutes. That the tulips began to wilt on the table, their yellow and purple petals losing color, falling one by one like silent tears. That the waiter asked if he wanted to order something and he said, “No, not yet. She’s about to arrive.” That the waiter came back half an hour later and said, “Are you sure you don’t want to order something while you wait?” And Clark said, “No, thank you. She’ll be here any minute.” That the waiter walked away with a pitying smile, looking at him with sadness.
You never knew that the hours passed. Seven. Eight. Nine. Ten. The restaurant slowly emptied. Couples left hand in hand. Groups of friends said goodbye while laughing. The lights were turned off one by one. And Clark stayed there, sitting in the same chair, with the wilted tulips and the velvet box in his pocket, warm against his leg because he had touched it a thousand times to make sure it was still there.
You never knew he was the last customer in the restaurant. That the waiter had to tell him, regretfully, that they were closing. That Clark lifted his face, and for one second, the waiter saw something in his eyes he could not explain. An enormous sadness. An emptiness too vast to fit inside one person.
“Sir,” the waiter said gently, “I’m very sorry, but we’re closing now. We’ve actually been closed for an hour. We didn’t want to bother you, but...”
Clark blinked. He looked around. The restaurant was empty. Chairs were stacked on top of tables. The floor had been swept. Almost all the lights were off, except the one above his table. He had been waiting so long that he had not noticed everything slowly going dark around him.
“I’m sorry,” Clark said, his voice hoarse. He stood slowly, as if moving hurt. He took money from his pocket and left it on the table. Much more than necessary. He took the tulips and walked out slowly, aimlessly, with his heart heavier than ever. The streets were empty. The wind blew cold. Clark walked without knowing where he was going. He just walked. And walked. Until he reached the door of your apartment without knowing how.
You never knew that he did not sleep that night. That he called your phone again and again. Once. Ten times. Thirty. A hundred. That the phone rang and rang and no one answered. That he left messages at first, nervous, worried messages. “Hi, it’s me. Are you okay? I got to the restaurant. I waited for you. Did something happen? Please call me.” Then sadder messages. “Hey, it’s already eleven. Where are you? I’m worried because you’re not answering. Please call me when you get this.” Then more desperate ones. “It’s two in the morning. I called everywhere. No one knows where you are. Please, please answer me. Don’t do this to me. Don’t disappear like this. I’m begging you.” And then, near dawn, there was only one blank message. Thirty seconds of silence. Because he no longer had any words left.
You never knew that he went to your apartment and knocked on the door until his hand hurt. That he called the neighbors. That he asked people on the street. That no one had seen anything. That no one knew anything. That he sat on the hallway floor with his back against your door and waited until the sun came up. And when the sun rose, he was still there. With dead tulips in his pocket and the key he never got to give you. And he stayed there for much longer, until the building doorman had to ask him to leave because the neighbors were complaining.
You never knew that Clark returned the next day. And the next. And the next. That he searched hospitals, police stations, everywhere. That he used his powers, his superhero hearing, to listen for your voice somewhere. But he did not hear you. Because you could no longer speak. Because your voice had gone with your blood, with your heart, with your final breath. And Clark, no matter how hard he listened, no matter how much he flew across the city, no matter how many numbers he called... never found you. Because Luthor had erased you. Because the laboratories were hidden. Because the walls were thick and shielded. And because you were no longer anywhere.
You never knew that Clark never found out what happened. He never knew you had a number on your shoulder. He never knew you were a project. He never knew Luthor had created you. He never knew you had been sent to kill him. He never knew you protected him until the end. He never knew you died without telling him the truth. He never knew your final thought was him. He never knew you loved him. Because you never told him. Because you never had time. Because death arrived before your words could.
You never knew that you protected his secret with your soul. That not once, not even when the dagger was inside you, not even when you could feel death so close you could almost touch it, did his name escape your lips. You did not say that Clark was Superman. You did not betray him. You protected him. With your final breath. With your final thought. With the last beat of your heart. You protected him. And he never knew. He never knew that the girl who arrived at the Daily Planet with a false name and a rehearsed smile, the girl who blushed when he held her hand, the girl who kissed as if every kiss might be the last... had saved him. Without him doing anything. Alone. With her silence. With her death.
Maybe in another life, Clark would not have let you go that night. Maybe he would have stayed one more minute. Maybe he would have held you tighter, longer, as if something inside him told him it was the last time. Maybe he would have said, “Don’t go alone,” and walked you to your door. Maybe he would have gone upstairs with you. Maybe he would have been there. Maybe he would have heard Luthor. Maybe he would have seen Ultraman. Maybe he could have done something. Maybe he would have saved you. Maybe everything would have been different.
But this life was not made of maybes. This life was made of pain. Of projects. Of numbers on shoulders. Of owners who create you and discard you as if you were trash. And sometimes, only sometimes, it was made of loves that arrive too late. Loves that arrive right when there is no time left. Loves that teach you what it means to be human just before you stop being one.
And maybe that, even if it hurts more than any dagger, is enough. Maybe for Clark, it will not be. Maybe he will spend the rest of his life wondering what happened, why you left, why you disappeared without saying anything, why you did not answer the phone, why you never arrived at the restaurant, why the tulips wilted alone on the table while he waited for you with a velvet box in his pocket. Maybe he will never find answers. Maybe he will always wonder. Maybe he will always look for you without knowing there is nothing left to find.
Because you are no longer here. Because you left the same way you arrived: in silence, without anyone seeing it, without anyone knowing. Alone. Like a project that stopped working one day. Like a light going out, and no one noticing it was gone.
A nice fanfic because the next one might be a bit too much…
Clark Kent x female reader
Sinopsis: Clark Kent never gets sick. At least, that’s what he always tells you. But after a brutal battle leaves Superman weakened in ways no one expected, you’re suddenly forced to take care of the strongest man in the world through a fever that shakes buildings, freezes floors, and leaves him trembling in your arms.
Warnings: Fluff and romance
WC: 2,900 words approx.
The work trip had only one goal: It was normal that when people transitioned from the spring to the autumn season, they got sick. You, more than anyone, knew that very well. That was why you took care of yourself as best you could, because you hated injections. It was a trauma you'd had since you were a child, due to your weak immune system. They had to give you shots for almost two full weeks, and for a twelve-year-old girl, you had to admit it was a real trauma. So, to avoid going through the same thing again, you took a packet of vitamin C every morning. And there was no problem with that, because that way you managed not to get sick.
Now that you had a boyfriend like Clark, it was clear that you always sought to take care of both of you. Ever since you moved in with him, you kept up your morning vitamin routine. And even before you found out his big secret—that he was Superman and led a double life—Clark took his vitamin with you. So you would prepare two glasses with the dissolved vitamin powder, and he would drink it without complaint. He never said anything, never grumbled. He just smiled and drank it while looking at you affectionately.
That lasted until he told you his secret, in the middle of the living room, sitting together on the sofa. He looked at you with fear, having revealed something so monumental, as if he thought you might get scared or angry. But you just stayed silent for a moment, thinking.
"So you can't get sick?" you asked, staring at him.
Clark smiled, feeling very relieved to be able to tell his secret to the most special person in his life. "No," he said, and very carefully tucked your stray hair behind your ear.
You frowned, a little confused. "And if you can't get sick, why do you take the vitamin I give you to prevent getting sick?" you asked, looking at him curiously.
His cheeks flushed deeply, so much so that he hesitated a bit before answering. "Well… it's a routine I enjoy sharing with you," he admitted with a slightly shy smile.
You smiled too, because you found it very endearing. From that moment on, Clark stopped taking the vitamin, since he truly didn't need it. But that didn't stop you from still taking care of him just the same. If you went out and it started to rain, you would take off your coat and give him his to put on.
"Beautiful, I don't get sick," he would say, laughing a little.
But you would look at him with those eyes he could never refuse. "But we match," you would tell him. And it was true, because you both had blue coats, so he would put it on just to keep you at ease.
In winter, when the cold was too harsh, you would wrap his scarf around his neck before going out. And on sunny days, you would put on your cap and he would do the same, because you had bought an identical one for him. He always told you the same thing: "I can't get sick. I'm strong." But you still weren't entirely sure. To you, he was still Clark, your boyfriend, and you wanted to protect him just as he protected you.
Even so, for several days you had known that the Justice League was facing a very powerful enemy. The news said Superman was having difficulties, and that left you on edge, very nervous. You worked in a call center office, and whenever you could, you checked your phone. But there was no message from Clark. He had gone three days without rest, and you were very worried about his health. When you got home that night, you realized it would be your fourth night without sleeping beside him. You missed him terribly.
You sighed and paced back and forth across the living room, not knowing what to do. The sun set completely and everything went dark. Then you heard a thud at the window. You saw Green Lantern helping Clark inside, stumbling, almost falling.
"Here's your woman, Clark," said Guy Gardner, the Green Lantern, and then he looked at you.
"Guy? What happened?" you asked, running toward Clark, who was moving very slowly, as if struggling to put one foot in front of the other.
"I'm fine," Clark said, but you heard something off in his voice. You noticed he didn't pronounce the letter 'e' correctly.
"You're not fine," Guy said. "His exposure to the enemy—by the way, we already defeated him—weakened him a lot." Guy placed him on the sofa you pointed to. "And you could say, in human terms, he has a fever."
You looked at Clark, who was pale and shaking slightly. You were about to touch him, but Gardner stopped you with his hand. "He's boiling. He can't cool down on his own until the sun rises in about eight hours," he explained.
You nodded, looking at Clark with concern. "I suppose it's like a human cold, right?" you said.
Gardner nodded. Just then, Clark sneezed. It was such a powerful sneeze that the whole apartment shook, and even your crystal vase fell to the floor and shattered.
"Sorry," Clark said, sniffling hard.
"I'll handle it," you told the Green Lantern, your voice firm.
"You sure?" Guy asked. You nodded again. "Anything happens, you know how to contact us. Good luck with your man and his sudden changes," he said, and flew off swiftly through the window.
You closed the window and started thinking. "First, we'll bring your temperature down," you announced, moving quickly. "I'll get the blankets out here, and we'll change your clothes."
"I'm fine," Clark said again, but his voice sounded weak. Then another sneeze shook the air, and this time a picture hanging on the wall fell down, making you jump. "Sorry," he whispered, sniffling again, a small pout on his lips. He looked like a big child who didn't want to cause trouble.
You ran to the bedroom and brought everything to the living room: blankets, a pillow, his pajamas. First, Clark lay down on the sofa with a pillow, with nothing covering him. You placed a large bucket with water and a lot of ice, too much ice. You reached out to touch his forehead, and barely grazing his skin, you had to pull away immediately. It burned as if you had touched a lit stove.
"Oh, Clark," you said, your eyes wide. "You're super hot. I can't even touch you."
He groaned, squeezing his eyes shut. "I know… it hurts," he whispered, and another sneeze made the windows rattle. This time, a glass on the table fell and rolled across the floor, but luckily it didn't break.
You carefully took the cloth, dipped it in the ice water, and brought it close to his skin. The moment the cold cloth touched his forehead, it started to steam slightly. The ice melted instantly. You had to wet the cloth again and again, nonstop. Every time you placed it, he sighed in relief for a second, but then groaned again as the heat returned.
"Again," he asked, his voice broken. "Put it on again, please." And you did, over and over, without tiring. Your hands were already red from constantly plunging them into the icy water, but you didn't care.
Nearly an hour passed like this. Clark sneezed every few minutes, and each sneeze made the furniture shift slightly or caused something to fall. At one point, he sneezed so hard that the ceiling lamp swayed as if an earthquake had hit.
"Sorry, I'm sorry," he said, his eyes teary, pouting again. His lower lip trembled. "I don't want to break anything, love. I don't want to…"
"It's okay," you told him, gently wiping the cloth across his face. "The things don't matter. You're the one who matters."
When the cloth finally started to stay cold on his skin for longer, you felt brave enough to remove his suit. Very carefully, you began taking it off him. He could barely move, so you had to help him by lifting his arms little by little. You left him in just his underwear, and at that moment, his skin changed completely. Suddenly, the heat vanished as if someone had extinguished a fire.
"I'm cold," Clark whispered, and his voice sounded so small it broke your heart. "So cold, love."
He began to tremble uncontrollably. His teeth chattered together, making a tiny sound. His lips turned purple, and his face became as pale as snow. You touched him, and this time it was like touching a block of ice. You were a little frightened, but you remembered what Guy had told you: sudden changes.
"I'm coming, I'm coming," you said, rushing to get more blankets. You grabbed every single one you had in the closet, even the oldest and thinnest. You piled them on him one by one. First one, then another, then another. Clark was still shivering, so you added two more. You lay down beside him on the sofa and held him tight, rubbing his arms and back to warm him up.
"Don't let go," he said, his voice breaking. "Please, don't let me go."
"I won't let you go," you promised, squeezing him tighter.
Several minutes passed until he finally stopped trembling. He sighed deeply and buried his face in your neck. "Stay with me," he whispered. And you stroked his hair, kissing his head every so often.
Suddenly, Clark coughed. It was a dry, harsh cough, and as he coughed, a blast of icy wind came from his mouth, freezing a patch of the floor. You looked at the ice, then at him. His eyes were wide, frightened.
"I'm so sorry," he said, and again he made that pout with his lips, like a child who has just accidentally broken something. "I don't want to hurt anything."
"It's nothing, Clark," you told him with a calm smile. "I'm going to make you soup and tea for the cough. But first, I need you to blow your nose."
You handed him a clean cloth, and he blew his nose. It was a very loud sound, like a trumpet, and as he did, another sneeze shook the living room. This time, the vase on the shelf fell and shattered into a thousand pieces.
"Oh no," Clark moaned, and a tear escaped down his cheek. "Everything breaks. I'm a wreck when I'm sick, and the neighbors are going to come and complain to you."
You knelt in front of him and wiped the tear away with your finger. "Hey, look at me," you said, affectionate but firm. "You take care of everyone, all the time. Now it's my turn to take care of you. If things break, that's fine. If the neighbors complain, I'll find an excuse. Do you understand?"
Clark nodded, but he was still pouting. "Do you still love me even if I break all your things?"
"I love you even if you break the whole building," you told him, and he let out a weak laugh that ended in another cough.
You went to the kitchen and prepared a hot soup and some tea. When you returned with the bowl and the cup on the small table, Clark was calmer, but still very weak. You helped him sit up a little, placing a pillow behind his back.
"Here, eat slowly," you told him, bringing the spoon closer.
He ate very slowly. Every other spoonful, he would sneeze or cough, and you already had the cloth ready to cover his mouth or wipe his nose. At one point, while eating, he started talking to himself, his eyes half-closed.
"My mom… my mom makes soup like this," he murmured, and then smiled goofily. "But you make it better… don't tell her."
You smiled, knowing he was delirious again. "I won't tell her," you whispered.
"And flowers… you like yellow flowers," he continued, moving his head from side to side. "I'm going to buy you a whole field of them. An entire field just for you. Would you like that?"
"I would love that," you replied, giving him another spoonful of soup.
"And peaches," he added, his eyes glossy and unfocused. "You like peaches. I'm going to bring you peaches from space. The peaches from Krypton are the best… though I don't know if there are peaches on Krypton." He paused, confused. "I don't think there are. But I'll get you some anyway."
You couldn't help but laugh softly. He was so adorable, talking in his sleep. He finished the soup and drank all the tea. Then you used your last remedy: two packets of vitamin C. He took them whole, and as he swallowed them, he made a face like a child given bad-tasting medicine.
"Disgusting," he protested, frowning. "Why do I have to take this if I'm already getting better?"
"Because I said so," you answered, and he made another pout, but this time softer, more like a pretend one.
Finally, he managed to half-open his eyes. They were teary and blue, and they looked at you weakly. He was very depleted. You had never seen him like this, so sick.
"I never get sick because I'm strong," you repeated what he always said, but this time with tenderness.
He sniffled, and that made you smile. "When the sun rises, you'll get better," you whispered, stroking his cheek again.
"I hate being like this," he said in a small voice. "I hate not being able to hug you tight because my arms are shaking. I hate sneezing and breaking things. I hate you seeing me so weak."
"You're not weak," you told him, taking his hand in yours. "You're sick. It's different. And I don't mind seeing you like this, because I've looked like this many times myself, and you never left me alone."
Clark looked at you with his big, wet eyes. "Will you stay with me until the sun comes out?"
"I'll stay," you said without hesitation.
"And do you still love me even when I pout?"
You smiled and touched his nose with your finger. "I love you more when you pout."
He smiled weakly and then yawned. "Take the vitamins again," you said confidently, leaving no room for doubt.
"I just need a little sunlight," he replied, shaking his head slightly, but without letting go of your hand.
"And vitamins," you said, and then yawned without being able to stop it.
"Go to sleep, you're tired," he said, his tone a little ashamed.
You shook your head. "You're here. I've spent three days alone in the bedroom. I want to be with you," you admitted, looking into his eyes.
He nodded, understanding. Then you stayed by his side, curled up next to him on the sofa, one hand on his chest to feel his breathing. Clark sneezed two more times, but they were softer now, and you wiped the cloth without saying anything, just kissing his shoulder. He made a small pout each time, as if apologizing, and you just smiled at him.
The hours passed like that, until four-thirty in the morning, when he finally managed to fall asleep. You fell asleep on the small sofa, with a blanket over you, but without letting go of his hand.
When you woke up, you turned over and felt that you were in your bed. You opened your eyes and sat up immediately, so fast that you felt a little dizzy. You looked at the clock: it was eight-thirty in the morning. You had barely slept four hours. You blinked, trying to wake up properly, and walked to the kitchen. Things were already prepared: bread, juice, everything tidy. Then you turned and saw Clark sitting on a chair, looking out the window. The sun was shining directly on his face, and he looked rested.
You smiled and approached without making a sound. You placed yourself behind him, without moving him. He tilted his head back to see you, and you kissed his forehead. It was normal, no fever.
"Did I wake you?" he whispered, his voice calm.
"No, I just got up and you weren't in the living room anymore," you said, wrapping your arms around him.
"As soon as the sun came up, I carried you to bed and came here to recharge. I didn't want you to sleep badly," he explained. He pulled back slightly and stood up to come closer to you. "Let's go sleep. Yesterday was a very long night for you," he said as his thumb gently traced the dark circles under your eyes. "Thank you for taking care of me," he added, holding your cheeks in his large, warm hands.
You smiled, your cheeks squished by his hands. "I would do it my whole life," you admitted without hesitation.
He smiled and kissed you softly. "Now you have to listen to me when it rains or gets cold, and always take your vitamins," you said, pointing to the spot where the vase and the pictures used to be, which were gone now because they had broken. "Otherwise, next time you'll end up destroying the whole apartment."
"Yes, sorry," he said, laughing softly as he took your hand and led you toward the bedroom.
They lay down together, and he hugged you tightly. You closed your eyes, feeling at peace, and the two of you slept again, finally resting.
Sinopsis: After disappearing without a trace for thirty-one days, the woman Clark Kent loves becomes nothing more than a ghost haunting every corner of his life.
Thirty days since the last time he saw her. Thirty days since he was left alone.
Thirty sleepless nights. Or almost sleepless. Sometimes he closed his eyes out of exhaustion, out of pure physical fatigue, because the human body had limits and his, even if it was stronger than anyone else’s, had them too. But sleeping was not resting. Sleeping was dreaming of her again. Sleeping was waking up with her name on his lips and an emptiness in his chest. Sleeping was worse than being awake.
Thirty dawns in which Clark opened his eyes and, for one second, just one, he did not remember what had happened. He did not remember that she was gone. He did not remember the night at the restaurant. He did not remember the hours spent waiting. He did not remember the unanswered messages. For one second, just one, the world was still the same as before. The world where she existed. The world where she was going to arrive at the restaurant with that shy smile, as if she were not used to smiling. The world where he was going to give her the key to his apartment and say those words he had rehearsed so many times in the men’s bathroom.
And then everything came crashing down on him like a wave of cement. His chest caved in. His throat closed up. And he had to remember how to breathe again. Every morning. As if it were the first time he was learning. As if his lungs had forgotten how air worked. He inhaled deeply. Exhaled slowly. And again. And again. Until the knot in his throat loosened a little. Until he could get out of bed. Until he could look at himself in the mirror and see his red, swollen eyes, and not recognize himself.
Your memory was branded into him like a hot iron. In every corner of his apartment. In every street you had walked together. In every coffee you had shared. In every laugh, in every kiss. He could not get rid of you. And the worst part was that he did not want to. Because if he got rid of your memory, he would have nothing left. Because you were everything he had. Because without you, without the hope that you would come back, he did not know who he was.
It was strange. Clark thought about it many times, during those long hours before dawn when he could not sleep and simply stared at the ceiling, his empty hands resting over his chest. It was strange because when a person says goodbye to you, when they sit in front of you and say, “It’s over,” “I’m leaving,” “I don’t want to continue,” it hurts. It hurts a lot. But at least you understand. At least you know what happened. At least you have an explanation, even if it is a bad one. And then you slowly walk away, healing with time, learning to live without that person. It hurts, but it is possible. You can go on.
But what happens when someone leaves without saying anything? What happens when one day they are there and the next they are not? What happens when you never knew what you did wrong, or whether you did anything wrong at all, or whether she was okay, or whether something happened to her, or whether she simply decided she no longer wanted anything to do with you? How do you heal from that? How do you close a wound that has no shape? How do you bury someone when you do not know if they are dead or alive?
Clark went over everything he had lived with you, day and night. He could not help it. It was as if his brain were trapped in a circle he could not escape. The things you said to him. The things he said to you. The times you laughed. The times you looked sad and he did not know why. The times your eyes drifted into emptiness and he thought you were only tired. The times your smile faltered for one second and he did not ask anything because he did not want to make you uncomfortable.
Had something about him disappointed you? Had he said something wrong? Had he done something wrong? Had he failed you somehow without realizing it? Had he not given you enough attention? Had he not told you enough that he loved you? Why had you not told him? Why had you said nothing? Why had you left him like that, without a word, without an explanation, without a goodbye? Did he deserve that? Had he done something so terrible that it justified you disappearing without a trace?
Those were the questions circling his mind as he looked out the window of his apartment, watching the city lights, watching how people continued with their lives while his had stopped completely. Or while he remained suspended above the city, so high the cold sank into his bones, so high he could barely breathe, sharpening his hearing, his super hearing, the one that could hear a sigh from miles away, the one that could distinguish one heartbeat among millions. He listened for something, anything, something he recognized, something that belonged to you. Your laugh. Your voice. Your heart beating. Something. Anything.
But he heard nothing. Only the noise of the city. Only other people’s lives. Only the silence of not finding you.
He was waiting for you. Even though he knew nothing about you, even though he had not heard from you in a month, even though every day he woke up hoping that this would be the day and every day he went to bed with the same disappointment, he was waiting for you. He searched for you in every face, in every person as he walked to or from home. He looked at women who resembled you in the way they walked, in the way they wore their hair, in the way they lowered their gaze when someone looked at them. But it was not you. It was never you. You were not there. There was nothing of you. As if you had vanished. As if you had never existed.
At the Daily Planet, things continued as usual. That was the cruelest part of all. That the world kept turning when yours had shattered. People worked, laughed, published new articles, complained about the coffee, talked about politics, sports, the weather. Everything was the same. Everything kept going the same way. But to Clark, everything looked different. The colors were duller, as if someone had lowered the brightness of the world. The lights dimmer, as if it were always night. The voices crossing his ears, the ones that once seemed interesting or amusing or annoying, now sounded so distant, as if he were behind thick glass he could not break. As if he were inside a bubble and the rest of the world were outside, and he could not get out, and no one could come in.
His gaze never went farther than his desk and your desk. Empty. The things that belonged to you were no longer there. The company had removed them, stored them in an inventory box as if they were ownerless objects. Well, almost all of them. There was still a star-shaped coaster you had used so many times. You had left it there one afternoon, after he brought you coffee, and you never took it with you. Clark had it on his desk. It was yours. And that was the little that remained of you in that place where you had once worked together, where you used to look at each other over the screens, where you used to pass handwritten notes in secret, where he used to steal kisses from you when no one was watching.
Now only a coaster remained. A cardboard circle with a star drawn on it. And Clark looked at it sometimes, touched it, turned it between his fingers, as if he could still feel your warmth. As if he could find you in its worn edges.
Perry called him into his office a week after you disappeared without a trace. Clark entered with slumped shoulders, lost eyes, a little unkempt. He had not shaved that day. Nor the day before. Nor the day before that. His shirt was badly ironed, his hair messy, the dark circles beneath his eyes so marked they looked like bruises. Perry looked at him in silence for a moment, with those eyes of his that had seen everything in this newspaper, and something in his gaze softened. But he said nothing. It was not his style.
“Clark, sit down,” Perry said, pointing to the chair in front of him.
Clark sat. He said nothing. He could not. He felt that if he opened his mouth, a sound would come out that he did not want anyone to hear. A moan. A whimper. A contained sob he had been keeping to himself for days, for the lonely nights, for when no one could see him. So he only nodded and waited.
Perry took a white envelope from his desk and placed it in front of Clark. It was a normal envelope, the kind used in offices, with no decoration, no return name. Only the recipient: Daily Planet. Attention: Perry White.
“Kent, this arrived a few days ago,” Perry said, his voice grave, serious. “No return address. Nothing. Just the envelope and what was inside. It’s a resignation letter.”
Clark lifted his gaze. His eyes, which had not shone in days, opened a little wider. The resignation letter. Your resignation letter. So you had resigned. So you were not planning to come back. So it was official. It was not only that you had not arrived at the restaurant. It was that you had left. Forever.
“The problem is that I tried calling the number we had for her in her file,” Perry continued, taking off his glasses and cleaning them with his tie, a nervous gesture Clark knew well. “No one answered. I tried several times. Different days, different hours. No one ever answered. As if that number didn’t exist. As if she had never existed.”
Clark stared at him without understanding. Or understanding too much. Because you did not answer him either. Because he had also tried calling you. Hundreds of times. Thousands. From his phone. From other phones, just in case you had blocked his. And never, not once, did you answer. Never. Not a message. Not a sign of life.
“She doesn’t answer you either?” Clark asked, and his voice sounded hoarse, as if he had not used it in days. Because yes, he had gone days without talking to anyone. Without wanting to talk to anyone. Without having anything to say.
Perry shook his head. “No. So we closed her file. It’s protocol. No return address, no way to contact her... there’s nothing else we can do. I’m sorry, Kent. I know you and she... well, I know you were close.”
Close. What a small word to describe what you felt for her. Close was nothing. Close was not staying awake all night thinking about her. Close was not searching for her in every face. Close was not crying in the shower so no one would hear you. Close was not feeling empty inside because someone had taken a part of you that you did not know how to recover.
Clark left Perry’s office slowly that day. His feet barely touched the floor. His mind was somewhere else. And as he passed by what used to be your desk, he saw Sarah, the intern, a young girl with brown hair and a frightened face, gathering your things. The last ones left. The pens. The paper clips. A spiral notebook. Some colored sticky notes. Sarah was placing them carefully into a cardboard box, as if handling something fragile. And when she looked up and saw Clark, she froze.
“Mr. Kent,” Sarah whispered. Her hands trembled a little. She did not know whether what she was about to do was right or wrong. “I... Miss Lane told me that before sending all of this to the inventory box, I should... I should stop by your desk.”
Clark looked at the box. A brown cardboard box, the kind they used for filing documents. Inside were the remains of your life at the Daily Planet. The little that was left of you in that building. He nodded with a lopsided smile. It was not his usual one. It was not that wide, warm smile he had once shown with pride, the one that revealed the two dimples in his cheeks and made everyone feel welcome. No. It was only a lopsided, sad, tired smile. The smile of someone who has lost something and does not know how to get it back.
Sarah stepped away a little, pretending to organize the empty desk, though in reality she was glancing over, worried. Everyone at the newspaper knew Clark was not okay. Everyone had noticed. But no one knew what to say to him. No one knew how to help him.
Clark took the box and carried it to his desk. He sat down slowly, as if it were hard for him to remain standing. And he began to empty it, object by object, like someone unearthing a memory.
First he found a small brown wallet. It was leather, worn at the corners, with a metal clasp that did not close all the way. He opened it with trembling fingers. Inside was your ID badge to enter the Planet. The photo was the one they had taken of you on your first day, when you arrived with that serious expression of someone who was not used to having their picture taken. You must have left it that night. That night he walked you to your apartment. That night that was the last time he saw you alive, though he did not know it.
Then he found small papers, interview notes you had both made together. He recognized his own handwriting on some of them. On others, yours. Tight, tiny handwriting, as if you wanted to take up as little space as possible. As if you were afraid of bothering anyone. There were lists of questions. There were badly written addresses. There were doodles in the margins, small drawings you made when you were bored. Stars. Many stars. Like the one on the coaster.
And then, at the bottom of the wallet, behind the Planet badge, he found a photo. Carefully kept, like a treasure. Like something you never wanted to lose.
He recognized it instantly.
It was your face. Not the badge photo, serious and formal. The real you. Smiling. But not at the camera. At him.
He remembered that time. He had invited you to the movies, one of your first dates, when you were still getting to know each other, when he still did not know he was going to fall in love with you down to the bone. As you left, you saw a photo booth, one of those in shopping malls, with the red curtain and the flash that blinded you.
“I don’t have pictures of myself,” you said, looking at the booth, and he noticed something in your voice. It was not just an observation. It was a confession. As if you were saying that no one had ever wanted to take a picture of you.
Clark smiled, that smile you liked so much. “Then let’s go,” he said, taking your hand. And you looked at him with those eyes that sometimes drifted into emptiness, but that at that moment were filled with something close to hope. “We should have pictures of us from now on,” he suggested. And you nodded, holding his hand. The hand you always held. The hand he believed you loved holding because it made you feel safe.
There was the photo. He was holding the popcorn with one hand, and with the other he had his arm around your waist, pulling you close to him. At first, you were looking at the camera, posing, serious. But the photographer, a young impatient girl, pressed the button too soon. Without giving you time to pose. Maybe Clark did have time. He was smiling at the camera, happy, carefree, with that enormous smile everyone liked so much. But you... you were not looking at the camera. You were looking at him. With a smile that remained captured in the photo forever. A smile he did not remember ever seeing on you before. A smile that said “I love you” without using words. A smile that now, one month later, broke his heart into a thousand pieces.
Then why? Why, if you seemed so happy, had you left him? Why was there no farewell voicemail from you, crying and telling him not to look for you anymore? Why had you not shown up at his apartment one night, knocked on the door, sat in front of him, and said, “I don’t want to continue,” “Don’t look for me anymore,” “This is over”? Why had you not given him that chance? Why had you not allowed him at least to say goodbye? Why had you left him with so many questions? Why was his last memory of you that smile in the photo, and not a farewell? Why was his last memory a happy one, and why did that make everything hurt even more?
Clark sighed. A long, deep sigh that rose from the very bottom of his chest. And he placed the little he had of you back into the box. The wallet. The notes. The photo. The badge. Everything. He stored it carefully, like someone guarding a treasure. Then he closed the box and placed it beneath his desk. He could not take it home. Not yet. Because if he took it home, it would be real. It would mean accepting that you would not come back. And he was not ready for that.
Maybe that was why he stopped searching. Not completely, never completely. But he did stop calling. He did stop going to your apartment every night. He did stop asking the neighbors, the doormen, the people on the street. Because he believed it was for the best. Because he thought you must be better off that way. Because he did not want to bother you. Because if you had left without saying anything, maybe it was because you did not want him to find you. Maybe it was because you had decided he was no longer part of your life. And even if it hurt more than anything, even if he felt like he was dying inside, he had to respect it. He had to let you go.
But even so, he could not stop looking for you. He could not stop sharpening his hearing at night, when the city fell asleep and the silence grew deeper, just in case he heard something of yours. He could not stop looking at blonde women on the street, just in case one of them was you. He could not stop dreaming of you and waking up with his heart broken.
How do you stop looking for the woman you love? How do you stop waiting for the person you long to have by your side? How do you tell your heart to be quiet, to stop crying, to stop hoping, to stop dreaming? How do you do that when the love you feel is so great it does not fit inside you?
He did not know. Maybe he would never know. Maybe he would spend the rest of his life looking for you. Maybe he would grow old with the hope of finding you on some corner, in some café, in some place where you had once been happy. Maybe he would never stop wondering why you left. Maybe he would never get an answer.
That day, he came home after work. The silence in his home was so vast he could hear it, as if the walls had learned not to make noise so they would not disturb him. He took off his jacket and let it fall over the back of a chair, without the strength to hang it where it belonged. He did not even turn on the lights. He preferred the gloom, that gray light coming through the windows that did not demand he see clearly. He preferred to sit on the sofa, in the same place where so many nights he had sat with you, with your head resting on his shoulder, with your legs tangled around his, with your soft breathing brushing against his neck. Now it was only him. Alone. Empty. Like a building from which all the furniture had been removed, leaving only bare walls.
He stayed there, staring at the wall in front of him without seeing it, for minutes that felt like hours. He did not know how much time passed. He had lost track of time weeks ago. The days blended into one another like wet paint, without edges, without differences. They were all the same. They were all gray.
Until the doorbell rang.
The sound struck him like a whip. He blinked, confused, as if he had been sleeping with his eyes open. He stood slowly, his legs numb from being still for so long, and walked toward the door. He opened it.
Lois and Jimmy were there.
They both looked at him with eyes full of something Clark already knew too well: concern. They had been so worried about him throughout that entire month. Lois had left him messages, brought him food he did not eat, sat beside him at work without saying anything, just to keep him company. Jimmy had tried to take him out for drinks, to see a movie, to do anything that might distract him. But Clark always said no. Always. Because going out meant facing a world where she was not there. Because distracting himself felt like betraying the memory. Because he did not want to forget even one second of what he had felt.
When his friends looked at him from the doorway, Clark said nothing. He only stepped away and returned to the sofa. He did not invite them in. He did not ask why they had come. He simply sat down again, in the same place, and went back to staring at the wall. As if they were not there. As if nothing mattered.
Lois and Jimmy exchanged glances. That kind of glance that says everything without words. The he’s worse than we thought. The we have to do something. The if we don’t help him now, he’ll never get out of this.
They entered without waiting for an invitation. Lois closed the door behind her. Jimmy remained standing, not knowing where to place himself, playing with the car keys in his pocket. Lois, on the other hand, went straight to him. She sat in front of Clark, on the coffee table, lowering herself to his level. She looked into his eyes, those eyes that once shone with a warm light and now looked like two stagnant pools of water.
“Clark,” Lois said carefully, with that soft voice she used very rarely, the one she saved for truly difficult moments. “I know you probably don’t want to talk about... her.”
Clark raised his gaze. Just a little. Just enough to meet Lois’s eyes, which watched him with a tenderness he felt ashamed to receive.
“We’re sorry to reopen your wound,” Lois continued, and her voice trembled slightly, because it hurt her too to see him like this. Lois Lane did not like watching the people she loved suffer. And Clark was one of the people she loved most. “But it’s just... it’s not normal, Clark. There’s... there’s nothing about her.”
Clark frowned. What did she mean, there was nothing about her?
Lois shifted on the coffee table, crossing her arms. “I asked Perry for her file. I wanted to see where she had worked before, what she had studied, where she came from. Jimmy got the numbers of the newsrooms where she supposedly worked. He called all of them.”
Jimmy nodded, taking a step forward. “We wanted you to at least have one final explanation so you could move on, Clark. Something. A clue. An address. A friend to call. Anything.”
“And every number,” Lois continued, “was either wrong, or no one answered, or they simply said no one with that name had ever worked there. We showed them the photo from her badge. The Planet one. The one they took on her first day. Do you know what happened? Nothing. There’s nothing. No one recognizes her. No one knows who she is. Doesn’t that seem strange to you?”
Clark blinked. Strange. Yes, it was strange. But until that moment, he had been so busy suffering, so busy wondering why you had left, that he had not stopped to think about those things. About the details. About the inconsistencies.
“Besides,” Jimmy added, moving a little closer, his hands in his pockets, “I also checked universities. Where she was supposed to have studied, according to her résumé. There’s nothing. No classmates who knew her from the year she supposedly graduated. It’s like... I don’t know, like she didn’t exist before coming to the Planet.”
Clark looked at them. First at Lois. Then at Jimmy. Then back into the emptiness. His lips moved, but at first no sound came out. He had to make an effort, gather the little strength he had left, to speak.
“I don’t know,” he said in a whisper. His voice came out hoarse, broken. Like someone who had been screaming in silence for a long time.
Lois leaned toward him, closing the distance. “I know you think she left you because she didn’t love you anymore,” she said, and Clark looked at her with wet eyes. “But I’m sure she loves you. Even now. Wherever she is.”
Jimmy nodded fervently. “You can tell when someone is in love, Clark. And she gave herself away with her eyes every time she looked at you. Leaving just like that, without a word, without a fight, without anything... doesn’t that seem odd to you? Doesn’t it seem like something was wrong?”
Lois gently placed a hand on Clark’s knee. “Clark, did she ever say anything strange to you? Did she ever mention being afraid of something? Of someone?”
Clark looked at them. And then, for the first time in a month, his mind began to work differently. It stopped repeating the same questions over and over, and started remembering. Truly remembering. Remembering the details he had let pass because, at the time, they had not seemed important.
He went over everything he had lived with you. There were so many things. The times you often looked out the window, as if expecting to see someone who should not be there. The times when, walking down the street, you turned your head to look behind you, as if afraid someone was following you. The times your smile faltered, only for one second, and then you smiled again as if nothing had happened. The times you suddenly went quiet, your eyes lost somewhere he could not see.
There were so many things. So many small moments that now, seen from another perspective, formed a pattern. A pattern he did not like.
Then he thought of you. He thought that maybe he had not searched enough. That he had given up too soon, carried away by sadness and self-pity. That he had never entered your apartment to look for some sign, some paper, some clue as to where you might be. He had to go in, didn’t he? Even if it was illegal. Even if it was not right. He had to know.
But the last time he went to your building, your apartment already had a “For Rent” sign taped to the door. The windows were empty. The curtains had disappeared. There was nothing. As if you had never lived there. As if everything had been a dream.
Then he thought of the neighbors. Where had your things gone? Who had taken them? Had someone kept them? Or had they simply... disappeared, like you?
Clark stood immediately. The movement was so abrupt that Lois had to move aside to keep from falling off the coffee table. Jimmy took a step back, startled.
“Clark?” Lois asked. “What is it?”
But Clark did not answer. He could not. The words crashed together in his throat. He only knew he had to go. He had to go now. He could not wait another minute.
He ran out of the apartment, leaving Lois and Jimmy in the middle of the living room, staring at each other without understanding what had happened. He heard Lois shout his name, heard Jimmy say, “Should we follow him?” but he no longer cared. He no longer listened. He only felt an enormous urgency, a fire in his chest he had not felt in weeks.
He ran to the roof of the building. The afternoon air struck his face, cold and sharp. He stopped for a second, looking at the horizon, searching among the buildings for the one that had been yours. He found it. He always found it. It was a gray, ordinary building, the kind there were hundreds of in the city. But he knew which one it was. He had stood in front of its door so many nights. He had waited there for so many hours.
And then he flew.
He rose between the buildings with a stealth only he could possess. He did not want anyone to see him. He did not want explanations. He did not want to be Superman. He only wanted to be Clark. The man who had loved you. The man who needed answers.
Landed on the rooftop of your building. They would no longer let him in through the main entrance. He had gone so many times, called the doorman so many times, asked the neighbors so many times, that in the end they had forbidden him from entering. “She doesn’t live here anymore, young man,” they would tell him. “Let it go. You’re going to get in trouble with the police.” And he would leave, with his tail between his legs, feeling like a stalker. But not now. Now he did not care. Now he needed to know.
He went down the stairs carefully, keeping close to the walls, moving through the shadows. He did not want anyone to see him. He did not want to have to explain why he had come back. He heard a neighbor’s television, a baby crying, someone’s footsteps moving down the hallway. He waited. Held his breath. And when the hallway was empty, he moved forward.
Then he stopped.
In front of your door.
The door where he had left you so many times. Where he had said goodbye to you so many times with a kiss on the lips and a “see you tomorrow.” Where he had seen you smile so many times before closing the door. Where he had stayed a few seconds longer so many times, only to listen as you walked inside, turned on the light, and began that nighttime life of yours he never saw.
He had left you there so many times. Why had he not done it that night? Why had he not insisted on staying a little longer? Why had he not gone upstairs with you? Why had he not made sure you were okay before leaving?
He stayed there for a moment with his hand against the wood, as if he could feel you on the other side. As if something of you still remained inside those empty walls. He tried to open it. It was locked. With his vision, he looked through the door and into the apartment. Empty. Just like the first week he had gone to see you, to see if you could talk, to see if you had come back, to see if there was any trace of you. Bare walls. Naked floor. Curtainless windows. But it was strange. Because if you had left of your own free will, if you had decided to disappear from his life, why was everything so clean? Why were there no old pieces of furniture, broken things, remnants proving someone had once lived there? It looked as if someone had erased your existence on purpose.
“She’s not in there.”
A woman’s voice sounded behind him. Clark turned quickly, his heart leaping in his chest. A neighbor. An older woman, the kind who sees everything from behind the curtains. She was peeking out from her doorway, wearing a floral robe and her hair tied in a messy bun. She looked at him with tired eyes, but also with fear. As if she were doing something she should not.
“Don’t look here,” she said, her voice a whisper. “You’re the boyfriend, aren’t you? The one who came so many times. The one who knocked on her door late at night.”
Clark kept staring at the door of your apartment, but his ears were attentive to every word the woman said.
“They’re watching me,” the neighbor said, her eyes moving toward the stairs, toward the windows, toward any place danger might come from. “I shouldn’t be talking to you. They told me to keep quiet. That if I spoke, something bad would happen. But... the girl was good. She never bothered anyone. She always said hello. And you...” She paused, looking at him. “You looked so desperate those nights. Knocking and knocking. Calling and calling. I felt sorry for you. So I’m going to tell you something, but after this, you don’t know me, understood?”
Clark nodded. He could barely breathe.
“A month ago,” the neighbor continued, lowering her voice until it was nothing more than a thread, “I heard noises. It was around ten at night, more or less. A loud crash. Like something had hit the wall. And then footsteps. A lot of footsteps. And when I looked through the peephole, I saw a man. A big man, very big, carrying a woman in his arms. The woman wasn’t moving. Her head was hanging down, her arms were hanging down. I don’t know if she was... I don’t know if...”
She fell silent. Swallowed.
Clark clenched his fists. So tightly that his nails dug into his palms. They had hurt you. Someone had hurt you. They had carried you like a sack. And he had not been there. He had not been able to protect you.
“Do you know where she is?” Clark asked in a whisper. His voice trembled. All of him trembled.
“No,” the neighbor said. “But I know who that man was. I’ve seen him in pictures, on the news. His face stayed with me. It was Lex Luthor. I’m sure. It was him. The one who came out of her door. The one giving orders. Then, the next day, they came to threaten me. Men in suits came and told me that if I said anything, I’d regret it. That they knew where my daughter lived. That they knew where my grandchildren lived. That’s why I said nothing. That’s why I kept quiet. That’s why, when you came asking, I told you I didn’t know anything. But... but you looked so desperate. So...”
The neighbor took one step closer. She looked from side to side, terrified, as if someone could appear at any moment.
“On the first floor,” she said, “there’s a locker for each resident. To keep valuables, documents, whatever. When the girl moved in, the woman who rented the apartment to her told me she had asked to use the locker. That if something happened to her, if one day she didn’t come back, someone should go there. That she had stored something inside. I don’t know what it is. I didn’t open the locker. I didn’t want to get involved. But you... you probably need it more than I do. The password is 2902. That’s what the landlady told me before leaving. She said the girl gave it to her like that, with those numbers. Good luck.”
And the neighbor slammed the door shut. Clark heard her lock it. Heard her walk away. Heard her disappear.
He stood in the hallway for one second, his heart beating so hard he could barely hear anything else. 2902. His birthday. February 29th. A day that only existed every four years. A day he hated as a child because the other kids made fun of him. A day only you had celebrated with him as if it were special. You remembered his birthday. You remembered it. If you remembered it that much, then you had not left because you wanted to. Then someone had forced you to leave. Someone had torn you away from his side.
He moved his feet. He went down the stairs quickly, no longer caring if he made noise. He passed by the doorman, who opened his mouth to say something, but Clark ignored him. He walked straight to the lockers. They were in a narrow hallway in the back, beside the mailboxes. Small gray metal lockers, numbered. He looked for yours. The one from your floor. The one that matched your apartment number. It was there. Closed with a combination lock.
With trembling fingers, Clark turned the wheels. 2. 9. 0. 2. The lock clicked. It opened.
His heart sped up even more. If you remembered him that much, if you had used his birthday as the password, then you had not left because you wanted to. Then something had happened to you. Someone had hurt you. And he had not been there. He had not been able to protect you.
He opened the locker. Inside, there were two things. An old laptop, one of those large, heavy ones, with a scratched casing and stickers on the lid. And envelopes. Several yellow manila envelopes, the kind used to store important documents. He took them out immediately, his hands shaking. He pressed them against his chest. Closed the locker. And without looking back, without greeting the doorman, without thinking of anything else, he went back up the stairs, reached the rooftop, and flew.
That was the sign. That was the precise moment when he arrived at his apartment and opened everything. When he looked at your file. When he realized your life had been spent surrounded by people who studied you, who looked at you as if you were some strange creature, who measured and weighed you and injected you and wrote everything down in cold notebooks, without names, only numbers. Everything you had gathered from Luthor while you went to see him to give him your “progress.” But you never gave him anything real. Clark saw it in your notes. In the reports you wrote for Luthor but never delivered. Page after page of carefully constructed lies. False dates. False locations. Invented conversations. You lied to Luthor. For months. You lied to protect him. So he would not know that Clark Kent was not just a journalist. So he would not know that the man you were supposed to spy on was the same man who kissed you in apartment doorways.
And there were also the recordings you had recovered from your training sessions. Clark played them on the laptop, one by one, with frozen fingers and a constricted heart. He saw images of you when you were little. So little. A girl with wide, frightened eyes, standing in the middle of a white room, surrounded by men in white coats who spoke to you as if you did not understand. They hit you. Injected you. Made you cry. And then, when you grew older, the recordings became darker. More violent. They put you against other people. Made you fight. Forced you to use your powers until your nose bled, until you fell to the floor, until you could not lift your arms. And always, at the end of each recording, the same voice. Luthor’s voice. Saying, “Again,” “Do better,” “You’re useless.”
Clark could not watch them all. He had to stop several times. He had to close the laptop, press his forehead against the table, breathe deeply, very deeply, so he would not break something. So he would not fly out at that very moment and kill Luthor with his own hands. Lois placed a hand on his shoulder. She said nothing. No words were necessary. Jimmy was pale, his fists clenched, biting his lips so he would not cry.
And then, at the bottom of one of the envelopes, he found the note. A sheet of paper folded in four, wrinkled at the edges, as if you had carried it with you for a long time. He opened it carefully, fearfully, as if there were something inside that could hurt him more than he was already hurt.
Your handwriting. Small. Tight. Trembling in some letters, as if you had cried while writing.
“If I am in the right hands, then I only want you to know that I know your secret. That is why I kept it as if it were my own. Thank you for teaching me what seemed impossible to live.”
That was all. There was nothing else. It did not say where you were going. It did not say why you were leaving. It did not say whether you planned to come back. Only that. A thank you. An I love you disguised in simple words. An “I know who you are, and I am protecting you.”
Clark trembled. His entire body trembled. They had done something to you. Someone had hurt you. You had not left of your own will. Someone had torn you from his side. And he had done nothing. He had spent a month crying, grieving, blaming himself, when what he should have done was search. Investigate. Fight. Find you.
He rose from the chair so quickly that it fell backward. Lois took a step back, startled. Jimmy opened his mouth to say something, but Clark was already gone. He had shot toward the window, toward the balcony, toward the sky. He flew with such force that the air whistled around him, that the windows of nearby buildings trembled in his wake. He did not think. He did not plan. He only flew. Straight to Luthor.
That was his mistake. Acting on impulse. Not thinking. Not waiting. Not gathering more evidence. Only allowing rage, fear, and desperation to guide him. Because when you love someone, when that person is everything to you, when you have lost them and finally have a clue as to where they might be, you do not think. You simply act. And Clark acted.
He put on the suit midair, with that movement he had done thousands of times. The cape billowing behind him. The red crest on his chest. But inside, he did not feel like Superman. Inside, he felt like a frightened man. A man who had failed the only person who truly mattered.
He reached Luthor’s tower in less than a minute. He did not knock on the door. He did not ask permission. He shattered the entrance window with his shoulders, feeling the glass burst into a thousand pieces around him, feeling the alarms begin to blare. He walked through the hallways with firm steps, his gaze fixed ahead, his fists clenched. The guards tried to stop him. He pushed them aside effortlessly, without even looking at them. He was not there for them. He was there for Luthor. To find out where you were. To bring you back.
Luthor received him in his office. He was sitting behind his enormous dark wooden desk, his hands clasped on the surface, a victorious smile on his lips. He did not stand when Superman entered. He did not flinch when the glass door shattered into pieces. He only looked at him, with those cold eyes, with that false calm Clark hated so much. The way inside was imposing, full of technology, blinking lights, screens showing graphics and maps and things Clark could not quite understand. But Lex was not afraid. That was the worst part. That he was not afraid. That he had been waiting. That all of this was part of his plan.
“So Clark Kent finally managed to get you to come,” Lex said, tilting his head as if admiring a work of art. “Surely it was because of the project he himself made me discard, wasn’t it? How ironic. She, who was my best creation, my masterpiece, ruined by a shitty journalist. By a man who did not even know what he had in his hands.”
Clark looked at him. If she knew his secret, if she knew he was Superman, then that meant she had revealed nothing to Luthor. Despite everything, despite the orders, despite the years of training, despite the punishments and the injections and the nights of pain, she had not betrayed him. She had protected him. The way you protect something fragile. The way you protect something worth more than your own life.
He kept staring at Luthor, saying nothing, waiting. The alarms were still blaring in the distance, but here, in this office, there was only silence and Lex’s ugly smile.
“What did you do to her?” Clark asked. His voice sounded deep, hoarse, as if it came from the bottom of a well. He took one step closer. Luthor did not move. “Where is she?”
Desperation trembled in his voice. He tried to hide it, tried to wear the face of a hero, of Superman, of someone who was not afraid.
“Where she always should have been,” Lex said, his voice calm, as if he were talking about the weather. “It was difficult, I won’t deny it. Getting rid of what I created with so much effort... it hurts, you know? Like losing a child. But sometimes it has to be done. Sometimes children become rebellious. They forget who they are. They forget who they owe everything to.”
Clark clenched his fists. “Where is she, Luthor?”
Lex lifted one hand, calm. “If you do anything to me, I won’t tell you. And you’ll gain nothing. You can kill me, Superman. You can break my bones one by one. You can do whatever you want to me. But if you do that, you’ll never know where she is. You’ll never know whether she’s alive or dead. And you’ll live with that for the rest of your life. Is it worth it?”
Clark stopped. Rage burned through his insides, but Luthor was right. He could not do anything to him. Not until he knew where you were.
Lex smiled, satisfied. He continued speaking as if he were telling a story. “She was the best. They raised her well. Obedient. Strong. She never asked questions. Never complained. She did what she was told and stayed silent. She was perfect. But her mistake was remembering she had a heart. She was not supposed to love. I designed her so she couldn’t. Love is a weakness, Superman. You know that better than anyone. Love makes you weak. It makes you make mistakes. It makes you forget who you are. And she fell in love. With him. With Clark Kent. With that useless friend of yours. She dared to love, and that is wrong, isn’t it? Isn’t it wrong when something that belongs to you forgets that it is yours?”
Lex stood slowly, walked around the desk, and approached Superman without fear. He knew he would not hurt him. Not until he spoke.
“In the end, she said nothing. She lied to me. She lied to the man who gave her a home. Who gave her a reason to exist. Do you know how much time I invested in her? How much money? How many resources? And she repaid me by lying to me. And I knew, Superman. I knew because she can read minds. Because it was easy to fool that idiot Kent, she could read him like an open book. But she did not want to. She preferred lying to me over hurting him. Is that love? Is that what you call love? Betraying the one who created you for someone you met five minutes ago?”
“Where is she, Luthor?” Superman asked again. His voice was louder now. More dangerous. The lights in the office flickered. The windowpanes trembled.
Lex smiled. And pointed to the side. Toward a corner of the office where Clark had not seen anything before. But now he saw it. A portal. A metal cube suspended in the air, surrounded by green and purple lights, with a surface that looked liquid and solid at the same time. Vibrant. Threatening.
“There,” Lex said, pointing with a long, pale finger. “Go ahead, Superman. You’re strong. If you go in there, no one will hurt you. Because you’re the strongest of all, aren’t you? The invincible hero. The one who never falls. The one who always wins. Go in. Go look for her. If she’s still alive, of course.”
Clark looked at him, doubtful. It was a trap. It had to be a trap. But you were there. Or you could be. And he could not just stand there with his arms crossed.
“Go ahead,” Lex repeated, arms open. “Don’t be afraid. Is Superman afraid? Does the Man of Steel hesitate? Go in. It’s only a portal. It will take you to her. Or maybe it won’t. Maybe it will take you somewhere else. You won’t know until you enter. Will you risk it? Or would you rather stay here with me, listening to me talk about her?”
Clark did not think any longer. He flew toward the portal. He could not help it. It was his only clue. His only chance. He had to find you. He had to know if you were all right. He had to bring you back.
“Honestly,” Lex said when Superman entered and the cube closed behind him with a deep, metallic, definitive sound. “A stupid alien. Just like all the rest. And do you know what the funniest part is?”
Lex stood in front of the cube, looking through the glass surrounding it, hands in his pockets, with a wide, happy smile, like a child who had just broken a toy he did not like.
“You know, she was excellent,” he said, speaking as if Superman could hear him. As if he were enjoying every word. “She had everything she needed to be the best. She had fought so much. So much. Since she was a child. I broke her bones, made her cry, lifted her back up, broke her again. I made her strong. I made her perfect. And your friend, that Clark Kent, that stupid shitty journalist, decided to turn her into a failure. He filled her head with foolish ideas. With love. With freedom. With things that do not exist. And she believed them. Like an idiot. Like all of you.”
Lex sighed, as if he were tired. Tired of having to explain the obvious.
“But don’t worry. This time no one died because of Superman. No, no. This time was different. This time it was because of his friend. Because of Clark Kent. That useless man who does not even know what he lost. Because of him, she died. Because if she had not fallen in love with him, if she had not tried to protect him, if she had not lied to her owner... she would still be here. Obeying. Being useful. Being my perfect project. But no. Your friend made her weak. And weak things break. And broken things get thrown in the trash.”
Lex moved closer to the glass. Superman was inside, on his knees, panting, struggling to breathe. The cube glowed. Something moved in the gloom.
“Do you know the best part?” Lex said, almost whispering. “She never told him who she was. Clark Kent never knew the truth. He never knew she was a weapon. He never knew they were spying on him. He never knew she could read his mind. He never knew anything. And now, she’s gone. And he was left with no answers. No goodbye. Nothing. Because that’s what happens when you fall in love with a monster, Superman. You end up empty. And you don’t even know why.”
Superman lifted his gaze. From inside the cube, he could see Lex on the other side of the glass, smiling. He wanted to strike it. Wanted to break it. But something was happening. His body felt weak. So weak. As if he had suddenly lost all his strength. His legs trembled. His arms felt heavy. He fell to his knees with a dull thud, panting, struggling to breathe, as if the air had suddenly become too thick to inhale. As if the power inside him had vanished. As if he were no longer Superman. Only a man on his knees, trembling, afraid.
Lex approached the glass, looking at him from the other side, with that blood-chilling smile.
“By the way,” he said, as if remembering something important, “meet Metamorpho. That hideous thing you see in there with you. A metahuman. He has the ability to transform his body into anything. Even kryptonite. So enjoy your stay, Superman. Because you are not getting out of there. And she... well, she didn’t get out either.”
Clark looked at the man. Metamorpho was sitting inside the cube too, in the corner, his gaze lost on the floor, as if he did not want to see what was in front of him. He did not look at him. He avoided him. As if he were ashamed. As if he knew what he was doing was wrong, but had no other choice. Lex Luthor watched from outside, arms crossed, that wide, ugly smile still plastered across his face. He was enjoying every second. Seeing Superman weak, trapped, unable to do anything, was his greatest pleasure.
Superman stared at him. At Metamorpho. At that being who could become anything, any weapon, any poison. And for a moment, for an instant, Metamorpho lifted his eyes. He looked at him. And there was no hatred in his eyes. No desire to fight. Only exhaustion.
“Even so, she fought,” Lex said from outside, in a singsong voice, as if narrating a film. “Really. She fought. I don’t know if it was to protect Kent or to protect you. Maybe both. Maybe she wanted to save everyone. How foolish. How stupid. Don’t you think? Giving your life for people who don’t even know you exist.”
Lex touched something on a floating panel beside him, and an enormous screen appeared in the air, inside the cube, in front of Superman. A floating screen that began to play a recording. The battle from that day. Superman watched weakly, his chest tight, his breath cut short by the kryptonite Metamorpho released unintentionally, or perhaps intentionally.
He saw you fight. He saw you fall. He saw you throw green balls of energy, raise walls from the ground, try to protect yourself. He saw that man whose face he could not make out, that monster called Ultraman, attack you again and again. He saw how you fell to the ground. How you bled. How you got back up, even though you could barely do it anymore. How you fell again. How you kept fighting. How you did not give up. How, even when you had no strength left, even when blood ran from your nose and mouth, you kept fighting.
Tears welled in his eyes. He could not stop them. They were hot, heavy, and rolled down his cheeks as he watched the screen. Maybe while he had been on his way to the restaurant, tulips in his hand and the velvet box in his pocket, rehearsing the words he was going to say to you, you had been there. Somewhere dark. In some cold laboratory. Fighting for your life. For his. To protect his secret. So he could keep being Superman. So Clark could keep being Clark.
He saw Ultraman drive the dagger into you. How your body shuddered. How your eyes widened in pain. How Luthor approached, caressed your cheek, whispered something in your ear. How he pulled out the dagger. How the blood spilled out. How you fell. How you went still. How you went silent. How you stayed...
And then Luthor stopped the recording. The screen went dark. The cube returned to gloom. Only Metamorpho’s green glow remained, Superman’s ragged breathing, and Lex’s smile on the other side of the glass.
“Dying was probably the best thing for her, don’t you think?” Lex said, tilting his head as if asking an honest question. “Clark Kent would have hated her if he had found out. If he knew she was a weapon. If he knew they were spying on him at first. If he knew she could read his mind. Do you think he would have forgiven her? Do you think he would have kept loving her after knowing everything was a lie? No. He would have hated her. He would have left her. He would have made her feel worse than she already did. So yes, death was the best thing. That way she spared herself all of that. That way she left without having to see the disgust on Kent’s face when he learned the truth.”
No.
Clark knew it. From inside the cube, with his body weak, with almost no strength left, he knew it. He would not have hated her. Never. Not even when she stood him up at the restaurant. Not even when he stopped receiving messages from her. Not even when his calls went unanswered. Not even when he found out everything she was. Her number. Her past. The recordings. The lies. Everything.
He did not hate her. He never hated her. The only person he hated was himself. For not having seen the signs. For not having asked. For not having stayed that night. For not having protected her. For being so blind. So stupid. So trusting.
If he could go back, if he could have her here, in front of him, he only wanted to tell her one thing. Just one. That it would be all right. That he could take care of her. That he could accept her. That he did not care where she came from, or what she had done, or what had been done to her. That only she mattered to him. That he wanted to heal every scar life had left on her. That he wanted to erase the number on her shoulder with kisses. That he wanted to give her a home. A real home. Not a laboratory. Not a cell. Not a cage. A home. With him. With his smile. With his arms. With his kisses on her forehead.
But he could not. Because she was no longer there. Because he had arrived too late. Because while he was going to the restaurant with tulips in his hand, she was dying. And he could not save her. He could not even say goodbye.
Superman lowered his gaze. He could no longer look at Lex. He could no longer look at Metamorpho. He could only look at the floor of the cube, cold and gray, and feel the tears continue to fall, silent, hot, endless.
Lex enjoyed it. It showed in his posture. In the way he leaned back in his chair, in the way he crossed his legs, in the way he placed his hands behind his head. He did not know Superman was Clark. He did not know that the man crying inside that cube was the same journalist you had kissed. To him, Superman was only an alien. A hero. Someone who always hated not being able to save someone. And seeing him suffer, seeing him cry, seeing him crumble... that was better than any victory.
“Metamorpho will watch over you while I decide what to do with you,” Lex said with a low, amused laugh. “Don’t get bored, all right? We have plenty of time. I can wait. So can you. After all, she’s in no hurry anymore. She has nothing anymore.”
He stood, adjusted his jacket, and walked toward the door of his office. Before leaving, he looked back one last time and smiled.
“Enjoy the company,” he said. “Metamorpho is very quiet, but he doesn’t bite. Well, sometimes he does. But don’t worry. The kryptonite he gives off isn’t enough to kill you. Only enough to make you feel... the way she felt. Weak. Alone. Afraid. You know? I think that’s fair.”
And he left. The door closed behind him. The office lights went out, one by one, until only the green glow of the cube and the breathing of two trapped men remained. Two projects. Two weapons. Two beings who never asked to be what they were.
The cube remained floating in the middle of the room, suspended in the air, turning slowly. Metamorpho did not move. He said nothing. He only stayed in his corner, his gaze lowered, his hands on his knees, like a domesticated animal that no longer remembers what it is to be free.
And Clark finally let the tears fall. He did not hold them back anymore. He did not pretend anymore. He let them all come out. One after another. Hot, fast, endless. He trembled slightly, his shoulders hunched, his head bowed, his hands shaking on his legs. He made no sound. He did not cry out loud. He did not scream. He only cried in silence, the way you had learned to cry when you were little. He only cried, because he had nothing else left.
He had finally realized he had arrived too late. That she had been alone. That she had been afraid. That she had tried to tell him, maybe, but had not been able to. Or had not wanted to. Or had not found the right moment. And he had not been there. He could not save her. He could not protect her. He could not do anything.
But she had protected him. Protected his secret. That was what hurt the most. That she, who had suffered so much, who had been used and beaten and discarded, who had every reason in the world to hate, to betray, to seek revenge... she had protected him. She had given her life for him. For Clark.
And he had not been able to do the same. He had not been able to protect her. He had not been able to save her. He had arrived too late.
Clark finally mourned your death. That was what hurt the most. That you were dead. That you would not come back. That you would never smile at him again, or take his hand, or say “see you tomorrow.” That he would never again feel your lips, your laughter, your gaze. That you were gone forever. And he had not been able to say goodbye.
Thinking about it sent chills through him. More than the kryptonite did. Because the kryptonite took away his strength, burned in his blood, hurt him. But thinking about you, about the fact that you would not return, that there was nothing he could do to bring you back... that was worse. That broke his soul. That made him want to stop existing.
It did not matter that someone else was there. It did not matter that Metamorpho watched him out of the corner of his eye, that he saw him crying and said nothing, that maybe he also wanted to cry but no longer remembered how. It did not matter that Lex might be watching from some camera, enjoying every tear. Nothing mattered. He cried because he could feel you. Because somewhere, in some corner of his heart, you were still there. He still felt you. He still loved you. And he wanted you back. He wanted to hold you. He wanted to tell you everything was going to be all right. He wanted to heal your wounds. He wanted to give you the key to his apartment. He wanted to tell you he loved you. He wanted to spend the rest of his life with you.
But he could not. Because you were gone. Because you had died. Because he had arrived too late. And now all he had left was to cry inside a floating cube, surrounded by kryptonite, with a killer beside him, while the man who had killed you went home calmly to have dinner.
“I’m sorry,” Clark whispered through his tears, even though he knew you could not hear him. Even though he knew you were dead. Even though he knew you would never hear his voice again. “I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have let you go. I shouldn’t have left that night. I shouldn’t have... I shouldn’t have...”
The words drowned in his throat. He lowered his head. Closed his eyes. And kept crying. In silence. In the dark. In the center of that cube that was his own tomb, because without you, without your smile, without your hand, without your love... what was the point of still being Superman? What was the point of still being Clark?
Because there is nothing sadder than a hero who arrives too late. There is nothing sadder than a love that is not enough. There is nothing sadder than a life that goes out in silence, with no one to say goodbye to it, with no one to say “I love you” one last time.
Clark heard the voice. Weak, trembling, as if every word required an enormous effort. It came from the opposite corner of the cube, where Metamorpho was still sitting, his gaze lowered, his hands twisting over his knees. He was not looking at him. He was looking at the floor. As if speaking to him were already a crime. As if saying those words put him in danger.
“Was she your friend?” Metamorpho asked.
Clark was on the floor, his back against the wall of the cube, his legs stretched out and his arms hanging limply. He stared at nothing. At the gray emptiness before him. He was no longer crying. He had run out of tears. But inside, he was destroyed. Shattered. As if someone had taken his heart and squeezed it until it broke into pieces. He did not answer. He could not. Saying “yes” would have been too much. Saying “she was more than my friend” would have been worse. So he remained silent, his gaze lost, his breathing slow and heavy because of the kryptonite still floating in the air.
Metamorpho glanced at him from the corner of his eye. He saw his red eyes. Saw his wet cheeks. Saw how his hands trembled. And something inside him moved. Something Luthor had not been able to tear out completely.
“I heard about her,” Metamorpho continued, looking toward the door, toward the sides, as if someone could appear at any moment. “Everyone heard and... I shouldn’t talk about it. I shouldn’t. But... I... I’m sorry. I’m so sorry. My son is here. He’s in this place. And I don’t want them to hurt him. That’s why I do what they tell me. That’s why I am this. That’s why I turn into... into this. So they won’t touch him.”
Clark lifted his gaze heavily. The kryptonite made even his eyelids hurt. But he listened. He listened to every word.
“They’re studying her,” Metamorpho whispered, his voice dropping even lower. Almost inaudible. “Her. The girl. I saw her. I saw her when they brought her in. She was so pale... so still... I thought she was dead. But no. That white light you can see from here, do you see it? That light glowing in the distance. That’s the laboratory. Luthor has laboratories inside the pocket universe. In there, everything floats, but it has real floors, real walls, everything is real. But no one knows it exists. No one knows it’s there. It’s like a secret. A secret Luthor keeps only for himself. So no one finds out what he does.”
Clark blinked. The white light. Yes, he had seen it. At the end of the corridor, beyond the walls of the cube, beyond the glass and the armored doors. A faint, constant light, like a beacon in the middle of the darkness. She was there. Somewhere inside that light. Somewhere inside that hidden laboratory.
“They say they healed her, but that isn’t true,” Metamorpho continued, and his voice trembled a little. “They say her heartbeat is strong. That her body doesn’t want to die. That it’s holding on. Luthor wants to reboot her. Like a machine. Like all his projects. He wants to erase everything she feels, everything she remembers, everything she learned. He wants to make her new again. With no humanity left. Without the love she felt for... for that journalist. Without fear. Without rage. Without anything. Only obedience. Only orders. Only an empty weapon.”
Clark felt a shiver run through him. Not from cold. From horror. From rage. From desperation.
“But they say she protected her memories well,” Metamorpho said, and for the first time, his eyes met Clark’s. There was something in them. Something almost like hope. “They’ve tried to wake her. Many times. Every time they try to open her up to operate on her, to experiment on her brain, to erase her memory... something happens. Something throws them back. As if she had put up a barrier. As if her own mind had protected itself without realizing it. They don’t know how she does it. But they can’t get in. They can’t touch her memories. It’s like she’s asleep, but fighting. Dreaming, but struggling.”
Clark’s hands trembled. Not because of the kryptonite. Because of the emotion. Because of the hope beginning to bloom in his chest, small, fragile, but alive.
“They say she’s regenerated,” Metamorpho continued, looking toward the door again, afraid. “That her body is healing on its own. That the dagger they stabbed her with... that poisoned kryptonite dagger... didn’t kill her completely. It left her on the edge, but it didn’t kill her. And now her body is healing. Little by little. Luthor knows that if she regenerates completely, she’ll be stronger than before. That’s why he’s in a hurry. That’s why he wants to erase her memory before she wakes up. Because if she wakes up and remembers everything... if she remembers who she is and who she loves... they won’t be able to control her. Never again.”
Metamorpho paused. Swallowed. He seemed to be making a decision. A decision that could cost him everything.
“If I help you,” he said, his voice barely a whisper now, “if I help you get out of here, if I help you reach her... will you get my son back? Will you help me get him out of this place? I don’t want them to put their hands on him. I just want him to be safe. Can you do that? Can you promise me?”
Clark looked at him. He saw the monster, yes. He saw the shining skin, the strange eyes, the shape that was not entirely human. But he also saw a father. A man who would do anything for his son. Just as he would do anything for her.
“Yes,” Clark whispered. His voice sounded weak, broken, but firm. “I promise you. Where is she? Where is she?”
Metamorpho nodded. And then, with a gesture that seemed to cost him an enormous effort, the kryptonite began to disappear from his hand. The green light started fading, retreating like an ebbing tide. Clark felt air enter his lungs again, felt his muscles stop burning, felt strength return to his veins. Not all of it. Not all. But enough. Enough to fight.
“She’s in the next room,” Metamorpho said, pointing toward the white light. “Where she is. My son is there too. In a cell. They haven’t done anything to him yet. They haven’t experimented on him. But Luthor threatened to. He told me that if I didn’t obey, if I didn’t become what he wanted, he would do the same thing to him that he did to her. That’s why I do this. That’s why I am this. I don’t have another choice.”
Clark stood. His legs trembled, but he remained upright.
“I’m sure she’s there,” Metamorpho said, and his voice sounded almost human. “Alive. Fighting. Like always. Like her whole life. She doesn’t give up. She never gives up. She learned that somewhere. Maybe from you. Maybe from your friend. I don’t know. But she doesn’t give up. And neither should you.”
Clark looked at the white light. If he still had a chance to get you back, to see you one last time, to tell you everything he had not told you... he was going to do it. He was going to fight. He was going to reach you. Even if it cost him his life.
Then Metamorpho did something. Something Clark did not expect. He raised his hand, the one that no longer glowed green, and concentrated his energy. Not into kryptonite. Into light. Into heat. Into something like the sun. A replica. Weak, small, but real. A miniature sun that shone inside the cube and bathed Clark in its glow. It was not enough. Not enough for him to fully recover. But it was something. A little strength. A little hope.
Clark breathed deeply. He felt the warmth enter through his skin, felt his cells awaken, felt his body respond. He was not at one hundred percent. Far from it. But he could move. He could fight. He could try.
He rose from the floor. Took a step toward the wall of the cube. The kryptonite was gone. Metamorpho had absorbed it, or dissolved it, or pushed it away. It did not matter how. What mattered was that it no longer burned him. What mattered was that he could.
Clark struck the glass, and the crystal shattered into a thousand pieces. No alarms sounded. Metamorpho had disabled something, or he knew how to move without being detected. It did not matter. Clark stepped out of the cube, staggering, his head spinning, his vision blurred. He landed on the floor of Luthor’s office, stumbled, and grabbed onto a table so he would not fall. He shook his head, trying to clear it. Trying to focus.
Metamorpho floated beside him, half of his body turned into something like a cloud, something translucent, something that did not seem solid. He looked at him with those sad eyes, waiting.
“My son is here,” Metamorpho said, pointing to a door at the end of the hallway. “In that room. Please. Get him out. Take him far away from here. Somewhere Luthor can’t find him.”
Clark nodded. He walked toward the door. Inside, there was only one guard, a large armed man, who turned when he saw him enter. He did not even manage to lift his weapon. Clark knocked him out with a single blow, quick, clean, silent. And there, in a small crib, wrapped in a blue blanket, was Metamorpho’s son. A baby barely a year old. Big-headed, with wide frightened eyes, his little arms trembling.
Clark picked him up carefully, his hands shaking, his heart tight. He pressed him against his chest, feeling his warmth, his fragility. He was so small. So defenseless. Just like you when you were little. Just like all of Luthor’s projects.
He left the room and handed the baby to Metamorpho. The man received him with open arms, tears in his eyes, a sob he could barely contain. He hugged him tightly, so tightly, as if he would never let him go.
“Wait for me here,” Clark said. “I’m going for her. When I come back, I’ll get all of you out. I promise.”
Metamorpho nodded, holding his son against his chest. Clark walked toward the other door. The one that led to the laboratory. The one separating your cold body from his arms.
It was restricted. Locked with codes, with bolts, with technology no ordinary human could open. But Clark was not an ordinary human. With one pull, he tore the door from its hinges. Threw it aside. Entered.
There were no alarms. It seemed like the people inside could not hear anything. Or maybe Luthor had disconnected everything out of his own arrogance. But Clark could hear. He heard the doctors’ voices through the walls. Heard their conversations. Heard their plans. Heard the machine marking your heartbeat. Slow, but firm.
“Prepared for the operation,” one of them said, the lead doctor, a bald man with round glasses and a white coat.
“Attempt number ten of the day,” a tired woman reminded him, with dark circles under her eyes and fingers stained with something Clark did not want to identify. “We haven’t been able to access her, not in the previous attempts either. I think the tools aren’t working. That’s what Mr. Luthor said.”
The lead doctor nodded, looking at the inert body on the operating table. Your body. Clark saw it from the entrance, and his heart stopped for a second. You were there. Pale. Still. With your arms at your sides, wearing a white gown that covered you down to your feet. Wires came out of your chest, your arms, your head, connected to machines that beeped and blinked. The heartbeat monitor marked something weak, almost imperceptible, but there. Still there.
“I’ve been thinking,” the doctor said, touching his chin, “and maybe they’re right. Maybe what she needs is a powerful laser. Like Ultraman’s. To get inside her. To break that barrier she has. To reach her brain and erase everything.”
The woman smiled. An ugly, tired smile, without joy. “Good idea. That way we can get in and eliminate everything to leave her like new. She won’t cause any more trouble. She’ll be useful again. Like before. Like when she was good.”
“That’s not going to happen,” Clark said.
Everyone turned. Their faces filled with fear. The doctor took a step back. The woman dropped the tool in her hand. The others, the assistants, the nurses, pressed themselves against the walls as if they wanted to disappear.
“It’s Superman,” one whispered.
“How did he get in?” another asked.
But before they could do anything, green energy burst from your body. A bright, intense layer that covered you completely and expanded outward like ripples in water. The energy seized all the doctors. Lifted them into the air, shook them, made them scream. The woman pressed a panic button, but it was too late. The alarm sounded, yes, but the energy already had them. The doctors twisted, kicked, begged for help no one was going to give them. And at the same time, Clark saw it. Your heartbeat on the machine grew stronger. Faster. Your color improved. Your cheeks, once pale as wax, now had a faint rosy tone. The green energy was giving you life. It was draining their strength to give it to you.
The doctors fell to the floor, unconscious, trembling. The green energy retreated back into your body, like a tide returning to the sea. And then, a blow. Hard. Brutal. Clark felt something hit him in the back and send him flying, crashing into the opposite wall. The infamous Ultraman had appeared.
Clark had not fully recovered from the kryptonite. He could barely stay on his feet. His muscles trembled, his breathing was short and ragged, and every movement required an enormous effort. But he saw you there, on the table, pale and still, and that gave him strength. He had to reach you. He had to get you out of there.
Ultraman launched himself at him again. Blow after blow. Direct, merciless, relentless. Clark dodged the first ones, but the third hit him in the stomach and folded him in two. The fourth grazed his jaw. The fifth struck his chest and sent him into the wall. The impact was so strong that the glass on the medical equipment shattered, and the pieces flew through the air like blades.
Clark fell to the floor, panting, his head spinning. He spat blood. He got up again, bracing himself on his knees, his arms shaking. He tried to move toward you, but Ultraman was already on him. He grabbed him by the throat and lifted him into the air. Clark struggled, kicked, but his strength was not enough. Ultraman threw him against a stone column, and the impact echoed throughout the laboratory. Debris fell over him. The column cracked. Clark felt something crunch in his back, felt pain run down his spine like a lash. He gasped, coughed, spat more blood.
He tried to stand. Again. Always again. But Ultraman gave him no time. He grabbed him by the hair and lifted him from the floor, then began to hit him. Once. Twice. Three times. Four. Each blow drove Clark deeper into the ground, each blow stole a little more air from him, each blow blurred his vision more. Ultraman’s fists were like hammers, hard, cold, relentless. And Clark could not defend himself. Could not fight back. Only take it. Only endure. Only stay alive.
Ultraman let him fall to the floor. Clark lay on his back, staring at the ceiling, his arms spread open, blood running down his forehead and along his temples. He could not even lift his arms to protect himself. Ultraman raised his fist. One more. One more and maybe he would not get up again. One more and maybe everything would end there.
But something stopped him.
Green energy. Bright. Intense. It wrapped around Ultraman’s fist and froze it in the air. Ultraman struggled, but he could not move. The energy surrounded him, squeezed him, suspended him like a fly in a web.
“We have an unfinished fight, don’t we?” a voice asked behind Ultraman. Your voice. Clark recognized it instantly. He had heard it in dreams, in memories, during sleepless nights where he repeated over and over the things he had said to you and the things he never got to say. It was your voice. You were alive. You were speaking. You sounded tired, yes, but firm. Like someone who had returned from death and was not willing to leave again.
Ultraman flew backward. Your energy had thrown him as if he were a rag doll. Clark lifted his head with effort, looking toward the room you had come out of. The wall was broken, shattered into pieces, and through the opening he saw you. There you were. Standing. In the white hospital gown, barefoot, your hair loose and disheveled. Your gaze moved around the place, confused, as if you did not fully understand what was happening. As if you had just awakened from a very long dream and the world looked blurry, strange, out of focus.
But then you looked at Ultraman. You saw him heading straight toward you, fists clenched, with the clear intention of hurting you. And something changed in your face. Your eyes hardened. You pushed yourself forward, flying, and your fist, covered in green energy, met Ultraman’s chest. The impact was so strong that he fell to the floor, dragging across it, coughing. He had not expected you to have so much strength. No one had.
Your hands moved toward him. Green energy poured from your palms like rivers of light, wrapping around him, draining his strength. The same thing you had done to the doctors. You were absorbing his energy, Ultraman’s energy, the energy of everyone who had hurt you. And as you did, your eyes grew brighter, more luminous, like two small suns. The white gown billowed around you. You looked like an avenging angel. Or something else. Something Luthor had never anticipated.
“Clark, we have to go.”
Metamorpho’s voice sounded behind Clark, who was still on the floor, barely conscious. Metamorpho stood at the door with his son in his arms, looking everywhere, frightened. His son cried softly, clinging to his neck. “More guards are coming. I can hear their footsteps. If we don’t leave now, we’ll never get out.”
You stopped. The green energy went out in your hands. You lowered your trembling arms and looked at Metamorpho. Then at Clark. And then, in the middle of the chaos, the rubble, the alarms ringing in the distance, your eyes found his.
Clark was leaning against the wall, barely holding himself up. Blood ran down his forehead, from the corner of his lips. The red suit was torn, dirty, covered in dust. But he was looking at you. Only at you. And in his eyes, there was a question he did not dare ask out loud.
Did you remember him?
You had protected your mind and your body. For him. For Clark. For the man who had taught you what love was. That was why, even after death, you protected him. Your body had created a barrier, a shield, something neither Luthor nor his scientists had been able to break. But what if that protection had done something else? What if it had pushed you out of your own mind? What if you had lost your memories in order to protect them? What if you did not even remember his name?
Clark swallowed. His heart beat hard, not because of fear, but because of hope. Fear that you would look at him like a stranger. Fear that you would ask who he was. Fear that everything you had lived together had been erased from you forever.
You approached him. You walked slowly, staggering a little, as if your legs were not responding well. The white gown was too big on you. Your bare feet left prints on the dust-covered floor. You stopped in front of him. Looked at him.
And then, something happened. Something Clark felt in the deepest part of his being. His mind opened. Like that first time you kissed him in the office, when his memories flowed toward you without him being able to stop them. But now you were the one opening the door for him. Now you were the one who wanted him to see. Not only your heart. Your entire soul.
“Of course I remember you, Clark,” you said.
Your voice was a whisper. But to him, it was like a scream. Like thunder. Like the most beautiful thing he had ever heard in his life. Because there was no confusion in your eyes. No emptiness. There was memory. There was love. There were all the days you had spent together, all the laughter, all the silences, all the kisses at apartment doors. It was all there. You had forgotten nothing. Your mind had clung to him the way a castaway clings to a life preserver. Even when your body was dying, even when your blood was slipping away, even when the darkness wanted to swallow you, your mind had kept him. Him. Clark. His name. His face. His smile.
Clark smiled. His lips were split, his face covered in blood, his eyes swollen from crying so much. But he smiled. A trembling, fragile smile, like someone who had recovered something he believed lost forever. He smiled because you remembered him. Because you tilted your head as you looked at him, the way you always did, as if you were trying to understand something that did not quite make sense, as if you thought this was a dream you would wake up from at any moment.
But it was not a dream. It was real. You were there. Alive. In front of him.
And he smiled too because he felt your heart beat when you saw him. He heard it. That heartbeat the machine had marked as weak, almost extinguished, was now strong, fast, full of life. Your heart beat for him. Even after everything. Even after death. Even after they drove a poisoned dagger into you and left you lying on the cold floor. Your heart was still beating for him. Because you loved him. Because despite everything, despite him thinking that you had left him, that you no longer loved him, that you did not care... your body and your heart said otherwise.
And after a month of being unable to breathe, after entire nights without sleeping, after gray and empty days, Clark was finally able to breathe. He inhaled deeply. Air filled his lungs. He did not care about the dust, the blood, the smell of burning. He breathed because you were there. Because you were in front of him. Because you had not left.
He moved closer to you. Or rather, he let himself fall toward you. His arms wrapped around you and pressed you against his chest. It was an awkward hug, trembling, messy. He was not the invincible hero. He was not Superman. He was only a man who had spent an entire month mourning the woman he loved and suddenly had her in his arms again. He held you without hurting you, but tightly, as if he were afraid you would disappear. As if you were made of smoke and one wrong movement could make you vanish.
Your face rested against his chest. Right where you could hear his heart. And you hugged him too. Your arms wrapped around his waist and held him. You closed your eyes. Felt his pulse. Felt his warmth. Felt life returning to you, not because of the energy you had absorbed from the doctors, but because of him. Because he was your energy. He always had been.
“I’m sorry I didn’t make it to the restaurant on time,” you whispered.
Your voice sounded distant, as if your consciousness had remained trapped in that day. The day you left. The day Luthor took you. The day you locked yourself inside your mind to protect yourself. The day you begged to live a little longer, just a little longer, to see him again. The day your powers yielded to you, covered you like a blanket, and protected you from the cold of death. The day Luthor left you lying on the floor as your blood slipped away, but your blood returned to you, as if it had mercy, as if it also knew you could not die without saying goodbye.
You had thought only a few days had passed. A handful of days. That time had stopped while your body healed. You did not know a month had gone by. You did not know Clark had cried for you for thirty nights. You did not know he had stopped eating, stopped sleeping, stopped living. The first thing you saw when you woke up was him. The first thing you remembered was your date. The date you thought about until your last breath. The date when you were going to tell him you loved him. And your first thought, the first one after coming back from death, was him. Always him.
Clark held you tighter. But without hurting you. Always carefully. Always afraid of breaking you.
“No, no, it’s okay,” he said. His voice broke. He was choking on his own tears. “It’s okay. It doesn’t matter. The restaurant doesn’t matter. Nothing matters. The only thing that matters is that you’re here. That you’re alive.”
He pulled back a little to look into your eyes. He was afraid. Afraid of what you were going to say. Afraid that you would blame him. Afraid that you would hate him for not being there.
“You don’t hate me, do you?” he asked. His voice was small, fragile. Like a child asking for forgiveness without knowing what he had done wrong.
You tilted your head. You smiled. That smile of yours, the one he loved so much. The one that appeared suddenly, without warning, and brightened his entire day. There it was. It had not gone away. It was still with you, on your face, in your eyes.
“Hate you?” you asked, as if the idea were ridiculous. You raised your hand and caressed his cheek. Your hand was cold, trembling, but it was your hand. Your touch. After a month of emptiness, after a month of feeling nothing, you were finally touching him again. “How could I hate you when I wanted so badly to see you just to tell you how much I love you?”
Clark smiled. Cried. Both at the same time. And he leaned toward you. He kissed you.
The kiss was soft at first, almost shy, as if you were both afraid of breaking something fragile. As if you were not sure it was real. As if at any moment you would wake up in your beds, alone, with emptiness in your chests. But then it became firmer. More certain. Because it was real. Because you were there. Because after a month of thinking you would never see each other again, you had each other. And nothing else mattered.
“I know I shouldn’t interrupt because you’re having your moment,” Metamorpho said from the doorway, his son in his arms, his eyes shining with hope. “But we have to leave or they’re going to catch us.”
Clark nodded. He reluctantly pulled his lips away from yours. But when he tried to take a step, his body failed him. His legs trembled. He staggered. He would have almost fallen to the floor if you had not held him.
You looked at him, not understanding. Then you looked at Metamorpho. Then back at Clark.
“The kryptonite affected him,” Metamorpho said, lowering his head. “I’m sorry. I... I didn’t want to. They forced me. But he helped me with my son. He gave me a chance. And now... now I want to help him. But he’s weak. Very weak. He can’t fly properly. He can’t fight. He needs to get out of here before...”
He did not finish the sentence. He did not need to.
You pressed your lips together. Your eyes traveled over Clark’s body. You saw everything. The wounds. The blood. The dark circles beneath his eyes. The way he could barely stand. Something ignited inside you. Something that was not only love. It was protection. It was rage. It was the same force that had made your body heal itself, that had created a shield around your mind, that had thrown Ultraman through the air.
Leaving was easy. Your powers, though weakened by everything you had endured, still answered your call. You opened every door with a movement of your hand, making the locks burst, bending metal as if it were paper. Even the door separating the world from the pocket universe, that invisible border Luthor had created to hide his nightmares, opened before you as if it recognized you, as if it knew you no longer belonged in that place. You stepped out unharmed. The fresh night air struck your face and, for a moment, you closed your eyes, breathing deeply, feeling that you were finally outside. Metamorpho came out with you, his son pressed to his chest, his eyes wide, looking at the sky for the first time without knowing that this was freedom. He said goodbye with a gesture, a nod, and ran off between the shadows, disappearing into the empty streets of Metropolis. You did not know if you would ever see him again. But you had given him a chance. And that was more than he had ever had.
You left with Clark. You carried him in your arms, flying low, close to the rooftops, hiding from the lights, from the cameras, from any eyes that might see you. He was heavy. Not because of his body, but because he was weak, because the kryptonite was still running through his veins, because he could barely stay conscious. But you held him. You did not let him go. You were never going to let him go again.
Luthor would look for you. You knew that. His best project had come back to life. The one he had discarded, the one he had given up for dead, the one he had left lying on the cold floor of his laboratory like a dirty rag, had returned. And worse, you would join the battle. He knew you had already chosen a side. And that side was not his. That side was Superman. It was Clark. It was everything Luthor hated. And that would make him more dangerous. But you no longer cared. You were no longer afraid. Because now you had something worth being afraid for, and at the same time, something worth being brave for.
You arrived at Clark’s apartment. Your body trembled, not from cold, but from exhaustion, from the energy you had spent, from everything you had absorbed to heal and escape. But you laid him carefully on the sofa, as if he were made of glass, as if any sudden movement could break him. You sat him down, adjusted his head on a cushion, and then looked around.
You saw the sheets. The papers. The videos. Your laptop was open on the table, with the recordings you had saved, with the files you had stolen, with all the evidence you thought no one would ever see. Clark had found everything. He had seen your past. He had seen the recordings from when you were little, the training sessions, the blows, the injections. He had read your false reports, the lies you wrote to Luthor to protect him. He had seen the photo booth picture, the one you kept in your wallet, the one you looked at every night before sleeping. He had seen everything. And still, even after knowing who you truly were, even after discovering that you had been a weapon, that you had been created to destroy, that at first you had been spying on him... he had looked for you. He had not hated you. He had looked for you.
Then you knew. You knew he had searched for you. For days. While you were there, unconscious, floating between life and death, he had been out there, knocking on your door, calling your phone, asking everyone, losing his mind with worry. And a question formed on your lips before you could stop it.
“Don’t leave,” Clark said. His voice was a whisper, fragile, like someone who had cried until he had no tears left. “I’ve already spent thirty-one days without you. One more day... I couldn’t bear one more day.”
You looked at him. Thirty-one days. An entire month. You had been dead to him for an entire month. Or not dead, but gone. He had lived a month without knowing anything about you. A month thinking you had left him. A month blaming himself, wondering what he had done wrong. And still, he had not stopped looking for you. He had not stopped loving you.
“Thirty-one,” you whispered, lowering your gaze. Guilt weighed on your shoulders. It was not your fault, you knew that. It had been Luthor. It had been Ultraman. It had been that damned laboratory. But he had suffered. He had suffered because of you. And that broke your heart.
You raised your hand and placed it on his cheek. His skin was cold, dirty, stained with dried blood. But it was him. It was Clark. It was your home.
“I’m not going to leave, Clark,” you said, and your voice trembled a little, but not from fear. From emotion. From something you did not know how to name but that filled your chest until it nearly burst. “Never again. I don’t want to be away from you again. I don’t want to wake up without knowing if you’re okay. I don’t want to spend a single day without seeing you again. Never again, Clark. Never again.”
Clark hugged you. He did not have the strength to hold you tightly, but he hugged you. He buried his face in your neck, and you felt his lips tremble, felt his wet lashes against your skin, felt his whole body relax, as if he had been tense for thirty-one days and only now, only in your arms, could he finally release all the air he had been holding.
He settled you onto the sofa, the two of you together, wrapped around each other. He did not want to let you go. Not even to look at your face. He held you as if you were a dream, as if he were afraid that if he opened his eyes, you would disappear. And you held him because it felt as if life had given you what you had begged for so desperately. For years. For your entire existence. You had pleaded in silence, in the cold nights of the laboratory, in the moments when the blows would not stop and the pain would not let you sleep. You had begged for someone to see you. For someone to love you. For someone to save you. And now, here, in Clark’s arms, you understood that your plea had been heard. Not by a god. Not by fate. By him. By Clark. By the man who had taught you that you were not a project, that you were a person, that you deserved to be loved.
Luthor no longer mattered. You would defeat him. You knew you would. It would take time, but you would. Because now you were not alone. Because now you had Clark. Because now there were no secrets between you. He knew everything. He knew where you came from, knew what you had done, knew the lies you had told, knew the number on your shoulder, knew you could read minds, knew that at first you had been a weapon. And still, he had searched for you. And still, he had waited for you. And still, he loved you.
You could be free. For the first time in your life, you could be free. You did not have to hide. You did not have to pretend. You did not have to be afraid of someone discovering your past, because he already knew it and did not care. You could defeat them all with Clark by your side. You could fight. You could win. You could live.
At last, you could have a happy ending. That ending you had never believed you deserved. That ending you thought was only for real people, for those who had families, for those who did not have numbers tattooed on their shoulders. That ending was yours now. And you were not going to let it slip away.
Clark knew it. He confirmed it as he held you tighter, as he felt your heart beating against his, as he breathed in your scent and convinced himself it was not a dream. He knew it because he felt it. Because in that embrace, in that shared silence, the two of you understood that everything was going to be all right. That it had been difficult, that it had hurt, that it had almost destroyed you both, but in the end, you were together. And that was all that mattered.
Of course, you defeated Luthor. It was not easy. It took months. There were fights, entire sleepless nights, moments when you thought you would not make it. Luthor was cunning, he had resources, allies, other creations like Ultraman and Metamorpho. But you were no longer the same. You were no longer afraid. You no longer hesitated. And Clark was no longer alone. You fought together. Superman and you. You flew together, fought together, fell together, and rose together. And in the end, Luthor fell. His laboratories were discovered. His crimes came to light. And he, the man who believed himself owner of the world, ended up in a cell. A real cell. Not the kind he built for others. A cell he could not escape. And for the first time in his life, he learned what it felt like to be locked away. For the first time, he learned what it felt like to be a project. And you, from the outside, looked at him one last time. And you felt nothing. No hatred. No rage. Not even pity. Only peace. Because you no longer belonged to him. Because you were already free.
You returned to your name. Not to the number they had tattooed on your shoulder, not to the false name you used at the Daily Planet. You returned to yourself. To the story you already had, but with one difference. The difference was that now Clark walked beside you. That now your work was real. That you were no longer pretending to be a writer, you were one. You had learned it, lived it, worked for it. You earned that position. You earned that name. You earned that life.
Your loneliness had been replaced. In the morning, when you woke up, you were no longer alone. Clark was there, sleeping beside you, with messy hair, his mouth slightly open, one hand stretched out searching for you even while he slept. There were no longer two apartments. There was one. His. Yours. You had brought your things, which were not many, and placed them beside his. The books on the same shelves. The plates in the same cabinets. The laughter on the same walls.
There were no secrets. You did not have to hide anything. If a nightmare woke you in the night, Clark was there to hold you. If he had to leave as Superman, you knew, and you waited, and when he came back, you asked him how it had gone, and he told you everything. Because there were no more lies. Because there was no more fear. Because finally, after so long, you could both be yourselves.
There were shared mugs. Two mugs in the sink every morning, one red and one blue, side by side, like two people who had found each other after being lost. There were two scarves on the coat rack by the entrance, yours and his, sometimes tangled together as if they were embracing. There were two coats hanging by the door, the large one and the small one, the one that kept you warm and the one that kept him warm. There were two keys. One in his pocket, one in yours. The same door. The same home.
At last, you had everything you never believed you deserved. At last, you had a family. At last, you had a place where you belonged. At last, you had love. Real love. The kind that does not hurt. The kind that is not paid for with blows. The kind that makes you stronger, not weaker.
And one night, while you were having dinner together on the sofa, watching a movie neither of you was really watching, Clark rested his head on your shoulder and whispered something you could barely hear.
“Thank you for coming back.”
Your eyes filled with tears. But they were not sad tears. They were the kind you wipe away while smiling.
“Thank you for waiting for me,” you answered.
Because in the end, after everything, broken souls can heal too. Those born in hell can also walk out of the fire. And villains, those who never had a chance, those who were created to be bad... can also have a happy ending.
You deserved it. You always deserved it.
And Clark, your Clark, the man who found you among the shadows and taught you there was light, proved it to you every day. With every hug. With every kiss. With every morning you woke up beside him and he smiled at you as if it were the first day.
At last, after so long... at last, you were alive. Truly alive. And there was nothing, and no one, that could change that.