#date talk

[tyrannysaurusfloof]

Tbh reading those stories about terrible dates makes me happy to be dating @authorsathenaeum

On what could be considered our first “date”, we hugged for ages in the airport, drove to a McDonalds and ate a lot of food despite the fact I had eaten about five meals on the plane. We then got a little lost on the 3 and a half hour drive to San Diego and I’m sure I slept a few times and then when we got to the hotel her suitcase wheel disintergrated all over reception and I nearly peed laughing

Good times

[sunyoonandstars]

About the whole date thing, maybe they don’t really take pity. I think they really see how much you’ve overcome and been through and want to be involved in your life, they want to be part of such a strong person. Even though guys suck give him a chance, better to try than to regret. Right?

Well, you COULD be right. But he kept telling me that I’m the first girl/person with a mental illness and self-harm history he’d ever gotten to know. So he kept asking curious questions and telling me how he didn’t find it appalling but fascinating and stuff like that.

So I feel like he just needs to be needed. And even though I told him that I didn’t want or need him to ‘fix’ me, I can’t lose the feeling that that’s EXACTLY what he’s trying to do, consciously or not …. 😕

[sunyoonandstars]

do u think there'll be a second date tho??

Haha well. He wanted to meet again TODAY in the afternoon. Like, on our way to the train that would take me home from our FIRST date at 03:00 am he was literally making plans already for our NEXT date that would take place the same day in less than 12 hours. 😶 THAT was a first for me. 😶 ‘Fortunately’, though, a colleague surprisingly asked me to take on her shift tonight because she just couldn’t find anyone else to do it, so I’ll be working tonight. 😪

Lmao. See!? The first date is barely in the past and already I’m avoiding him. 😂😂 Typically me, when things move to fast …… it scares the hell out of me.

[sunyoonandstars]

Aw, darling! This guy seems interesting, but that moved waaay too fast for comfort. Dating is hard! Take all the chances that you want, IF you want. No matter what, we still love and appreciate you 😘💚

Exactly. That moved waaaaayyy too fast. 😶 Like, sure, I can be open and open-minded if I want to. But talking about getting serious on the very first date?? And literally WHISPERING all kinds of promises into my ear?? 😳 K. Bye. 💨

But thank you so much for your supportive words. 😌💕 They mean and help a lot. You guys are the best. 💖💖💖

[sunyoonandstars]

The ones who gives such promises in a short time of knowing you are usually the ones to break it first! I’m both speaking from others and mine experience💓

Exactly. I didn’t even take them seriously, tbh. 🙈😂 I figured it was kinda sweet that he wanted to help, but I just nodded and smiled while thinking to myself in a sarcastic granny voice ‘Sure, sure, boy, sure thing.’. 😂😂

Of course I’ll call him whenever I feel like harming myself. And tell him all my thoughts whenever I feel like dying. Hell, he already told me he’d buy me a bracelet, because I don’t have a lot of jewelry (and I bought all of it for myself). Like, SLOW DOWN BOY. It’s not our one year anniversary but our FIRST FREAKING DATE. 😳

[sunyoonandstars]

How was date? I hope you spend good time 💕

To be honest ... the date itself went rather well. He was sweet and a nice guy as well as an interesting person. And he kept telling me how beautiful I was which kinda got me flustered. 🙈 And we had wine and talked and were surprisingly open with one another. We even ended up kissing. And I have a feeling he’s kinda into me. But for me, there was just no spark. Like, he’s nice and all, but I don’t see us going out. Maybe as friends, but nothing more.

Too bad I’m never attracted to the good guys. Or the ones I could actually ‘have’ lol. 🙈😅

[sunyoonandstars]

Hey love, how was your date??

Ugh. I wish I had better news. 🙈

I don’t know if you had a look at my blog today 😅 But … it went … weird. Not in a good way. I don’t think I’ll be seeing that guy again. Things moved way too fast 😣 and he was pretty intense. 

But thanks for asking. ☺️ How was your day? I love your new icon btw. ☺️💞