okay i decided to write my best friend carley this long post so if you aren't her and you are going to read this anyways then oh okay that's cool. do your thang girlfriend.
okay carley this is me being serious because when you're always serious with me i sent you some funny picture or something along the lines of that. i also attached our song and this will forever be our song. but you're seriously my best friend sister from anotha mother and i have no idea what i would do without you. you were there for me when i was depressed and self-harmed whenever i felt the urge to do it you were always right there. i feel like if you never came into my life i never would have stopped and i would still be struggling with it till this day. but thanks to you i have been 7 months clean and blades are somewhere else in the world. i know i always talk about how idols have saved my life well you have also saved my life so you're one of the idols and i want you to know that. you know me better then anybody else i see on a daily bases and you even know my deepest darkest secrets. we always laugh at the stupidest things but i love that. i love that i can be myself around you and you won't judge me for absolutely anything. i love how i can text you pictures of myself on the toilet and how there is no limit to our friendship. i know you have a rough time at home but i will always be here for you like i honestly don't know what i would do if i ever lost you. i would be so lost myself. you're my other half and i couldn't bare living without you in this fucked up world. you're my rock. you keep my life in balance. when we go one day without talking it's really weird for me. talking to you is a daily part of my life and i can't wake up and not ever do that again. i love how we love the same things and somehow we always end up liking different members in a band which hey i am not complaining. i just love you so much my little potato. please don't ever leave my life. i can't wait to finally meet you one day and for us to live together. but i am stopping this now because i am shaking and crying. i love you so so so so so much carley.
