Super, man?
You guys can go and play the chase game,
While I lay here and do me.
During my whole life time, the wind told me how 'I needed a man.'
A SUPER MAN who could save me from the bullies, who could show me how LOVELY I was.
A SUPER MAN who could save me from my trembling past (ha).
My daddy couldn’t be my super man, so I looked for the next best thing.
but every time I looked, I was getting beaten by reality. They tore my clothes, along with my hope and spirit.
….It’s cool it's cool ….seems like I took the wrong turn, so let’s try path B….
What was I searching for, a superman?
What was a superman going to do for me?
I wanted happiness, flawless things, wedding bells, and a happily ever after, like cinderella, sleeping beauty, and …whatever crazy fairytales.
I was in love with the romance, like Romeo and Juliet…except for the killing part (lol).
I was in love with the thought of a man putting me on his throne. Thinking I will forever be his Queen.
What was I Looking for?
A super man..?
To be honest, I was looking for a father figure…or was it love? Maybe I was looking for a father’s love, and maybe I thought I could’ve found it inside these boys’ heart! (Ha)
But little did I know that they didn’t even know what love was.
I got it twisted and turning. I got it loop sided, what am I doing, I was going at it all wrong.
Superman man? …super-man. I wanted a super-man. I wanted him to rescue me, instead he creeped inside my bedroom door and unmasked himself through the darkness…
I wanted to be WANT-ED, instead I was being kept in the..…”shhh, lets keep it a secret.”
Here I am searching for my superman, but little did I know that I had a cape on my own.
who said I could only be saved through a man?
who said my worth& happiness had to be kept in a man's hand?
I did my own saving. I’ve escaped from my own trembling nightmare with me and God alone.
Who said I needed “a him” to be successful. Having a him in your life might help you…
but I am here today without having a him in my life. …..Superman ain’t for everyone.. Sure enough not for me. They are not a requirement nor an oxygen tank. They are just a person to your taste of lifestyle.
Superman not needed, because I can do the saving on my own with Christ. So what else can you do for me, beside love making and sex?