#dea rambles

[potterheadlovespotter]

The fact that Rumi and Jinu were canonically in a relationship/situationship, just that netflix denied the whole movie and made them cut it short just annoys the hell out of me!

I needed the whole MOVIE!

[deartys]

This banter takes me out everytime

Note that Sebastian, a Chantry brother who usually as a soft spoken voice, delivers the last line with a cold rage that sends shivers down my spine

[deagrad]

So I kind of missed a few days...when I was all “I’m going to try to update daily!”  Whoops.  I sort of fell into Bullet Journaling, which I thought was something that wouldn’t fit my ADHD brain, but then it turns out the guy who came up with it has ADHD too!  And my ADHD discord group has a Bullet Journal channel and they’ve been so helpful and encouraging about it that I decided to give it a try!

I started messing with it on Wednesday and Thursday, and made an End-of-the-Week spread for this week.  On Monday I think I’m going to do daily spreads until the end of classes, so basically through July.  Then I’m thankfully on vacation for a few weeks until I go back to the US and have to work.  

It’s messy but I don’t mind.  I decided that the Everything Notebook method wasn’t working for me.  It’s a great method, but I do need a bit more order.  I was trying to use those post-it tab sticker things, but they kept on falling off.  I’m still going to try to use them to help be even more organized (and I already have a bunch...), but I’m primarily using the index of my bullet journal to keep track of things now.

On a research front, I have...not come all that much further.  Bad Dea!  I do want to share a quote that ended one of the articles with you all, though.

“But at least I can now take comfort from the fact that if, as an archaeologist, I am uttering a historical heresy, then at least I shall have company when I am metaphorically roasted alive or burnt at the stake."

From Morris, Christopher D. “From Birsay to Brattahlíð: Recent Perspectives on Norse Christianity in Orkney, Shetland, and the North Atlantic Region.”    

[potterheadlovespotter]

Ramble about Rujinu

As much as I love the girls and Polytrix, I think that Rumi is incomplete after the war. The girls accept her, right, but she still remembers their initial fear, confusion...disgust.

Of course, Mira and Zoey wasn't wrong in the slightest. They had seen the most feral part of her - and were scared. They had drawn their weapons in her in self-protection and it killed them internally but Rumi doesn't know about it.

Rumi is awesome at hiding her feelings, and she won't let the girls see that she feels incomplete, but she does.

Why? Because the only person who actually ever embraced her as a whole was not around.

Jinu had protected her when he found out about her demon side. He had supported her through and through about her marks, even advising her to tell the girls.

Of course, it was a plan to manipulate her as it all began, but it turned into something genuine real quick.

Rumi had felt loved.

And even in that scene where Rumi confronts Jinu, when she goes completely feral, Jinu doesn't flinches. He just tells her the truth. Now this may seem as a bad point but it's also very significant. Jinu never asked Rumi to be fake and he didn't backtrace at her being feral.

And then he sacrificed himself for her, and for the Honmoon. I think Rumi would never get over it, never feel complete without him.

(and that's why Jinu should be back in Part 2)

[potterheadlovespotter]

TED TALK ABOUT VOLDEMORT

Guys, I have a theory.

I know we somewhat just ignore the villain's POV sometimes and stuff....

But what if Voldemort was not incapable of love.....he just forgot how to love?

No child is born without the capability of loving someone and every child's first love (not in a romantic sense) is its mother....and father.

Tom Marvolo Riddle lost both. He grew up in a loveless atmosphere where somewhere, he found comfort in power.

Power was his first love.

But I kinda think he cared deeply for Bellatrix. Like - ughhh thousands of his death eaters just died in the wars and the Great Battle of Hogwarts, but when Bellatrix died....he actually screamed. Terribly. So........

And it's not even because Bellatrix was carrying his heir if we consider the cursed child. Bellatrix was not pregnant during the battle or the child won't ever have been born! It wasn't the progeny he cared of when he screamed.....it was...love.

And you may say that Voldemort is incapable of love.....but I say Tom isn't. And he is still Tom.

What if someone....encourages to love...himself first? To recollect all the parts of his soul that he had torn? Someone who is keeping him alive...?

That person would kill Voldemort, yeah, but they would give a rebirth to that Tom who just wanted to be loved.

No one is born evil, they are made evil - by the situation, childhood, and what they see around.

[potterheadlovespotter]

I personally think that Rumi should have gone against Celine and tell Mira and Zoey about her demon side.

I personally think that the reaction she got from actual Mira and Zoey was not of hatred, but of fear.

They saw a completely wrecked demonic form of Rumi, but if they had known about it from before...they won't have been so shocked.

[potterheadlovespotter]

Jinu is just making her feel what he feels all the time.

Being whispered what they regret the most in their ear

[potterheadlovespotter]

Alright but throughout the movie, the number of times Jinu's eyes are/flash golden is crazy. But almost everytime when he looks at Rumi, they turn back to soft dark brown. And those tears at the end? I am obsessed.