instead of saying ins*ne, you could have used 'seriously mentally ill.' i get that you think it doesn't matter, but it's like saying the f slur or the t slur instead of just saying gay or transgender. when something you say upsets people, hear them out.
You’re right, I could have but I didn’t. I was in a state of extreme emotional stress and exhaustion and I used the words that came to MY mind that were associated with MY feelings. It wasn’t a post for anyone and I wasn’t posting it to generalize anyone or make anyone feel put down.
I have been hearing them out, but I’m sorry.. I’m not going to walk on eggshells because every single little thing I say could get taken the wrong way as some kind of slur or offense. This is getting ridiculous at this point. I feel like I can’t say ANYTHING and this is supposed to be my safe place. This is supposed to be the place where I can express myself and get my feelings out without being made to feel like a piece of SHIT for it. It’s incredibly unfair. I am hearing you guys out and I understand what you’re saying, but you also have to realize that the world isn’t going to conform to your preferences out there in real life. On tumblr, sure. You can try to educate people on your opinions/views and make them see it your way, but that’s not going to be anywhere near as common in the real world. You can’t be constantly offended by people saying things that they don’t MEAN any offense by.
People express their emotions in MANY different ways, and yes some of the language they use may upset you, and yes you are more than welcome (and I encourage it) to let that person know that their verbiage makes you uncomfortable, but you also have to realize that some people are in VERY serious situations with VERY strong emotions and a huge amount at stake.. and they’re not always going to use the language you would prefer. I am sorry if I upset you, and anyone else I may have upset, but this is a real fucking issue for me. My LIFE is FALLING APART. I am LITERALLY hanging on by a thread here. (trigger warning) I think about suicide every day just to get out of this unbearable mess my family and I are in.
I’m SORRY for upsetting you and anyone else. I’m a fucking mess, I don’t deny that at all. I am a DISASTER right now. My mom is screaming right now, telling me I don’t deserve to live in this house and that I’m not even a part of the family anymore. It’s fucking horrible. I barely leave home because I’m so anxious. I’m not making excuses, I’m just explaining what’s going on right now. I’m truly sorry to anyone I upset, but I cannot deal with this kind of stuff right now. I appreciate you being kind and respectful though in your message, unlike the other messages I’ve gotten.
I feel like this place isn’t safe for me anymore, because every time I try to express my feelings, someone jumps on me and either says “why do you hate” so and so, or “why are you transphobic” or “you’re being homophobic” and all this fucking SHIT and it’s just ridiculous. I think I’m probably going to have to delete this tumblr and just start all over from scratch where nobody knows me except my friends on here. I can’t deal with this much pressure all the time when I’m literally just trying to cope by getting my feelings out instead of hurting myself in some way.
