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Dear Cassie...

I am writing this today, August 19, 1:38am.

Nagising ako, kasi nakatulog pala ako habang pinapatulog kita. (???) Anyway, hindi pa kasi ako nakakapag-ayos at nkakapag-toothbrush. Kaya bumangon ako nung naalimpungatan ako para makapag-ayos. tapos sympre, since nagising na ako, susulat muna ako.

Pero narealize ko, that maybe, this has been my life and my story so far.

I live for you, now.

I want to be alive, to live longer because of you.

God chose me to be your mother, and i want to do the best that I can to give you the life that God has planned for you.

that is my responsibility now.

He allowed me to be a mother and to have a family, and I want to let Him know how grateful I am by taking care of you and Tatay, and giving my all.

that is how much i love you.

I am so sorry if i have to leave you 8 hours a day for work.

My heart breaks every time i hug and kiss you and wave my goodbye.

If you only know how much I wanted to stay beside you everyday.

But I also need to have a time away from you to be the mother that I have to be. Because I also need to grow too. and i can only learn more and be better if I am able to do some things away from you. That is how adults are. You will understand this someday.

Anyway, I hope you notice that whenever Im home, I give you my full time. Cause I try to make it up to you.

It is the only way I know to make you feel how much I miss you.

And to be honest, I truly love the moment when I hug and kiss you the minute i come home from work, cause I dont feel tired anymore.

Your smile is my medicine.

Hugging you is my reward for the day.

And I want you to know that I always look forward to your stare while you are standing on the main door, extending your head, trying to look after me, as i park the car.

That is my favorite part of going home.

Your feeling of excitement to see me.

And when i open the window, you start to stamp your feet.hehehe

I love how you show your love to me.

Heart-melting.

Cassie. i love you so much.

God. thank You.

#ToGodBeTheGlory

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The eternal struggle of trying to review things: short stuff that exists in a state of limbo but is good so far.

Because this is the beginning of a blog set at the end of the world. And it’s got some neat ideas and a good premise but it’s the format of ‘letters’ that made it stick with me.

Even if it’s currently paused and there are only 6 so far it’s just sweet and sad. Hence the ‘can I even attempt to review this?’ dilemma.

And the answer is no, I can’t review this. But I can point at it and go ‘here is a thing that I am currently enjoying.’

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Welcome Wednesday: Lisa Burstein's Heartbreak

I think everyone wants to believe that the heart once broken can be healed again. As vulnerable as we are to pain, we have to believe that otherwise what is the point in trying again. Why would we bother looking for love once we’ve lost it, or been wounded/broken by someone who was supposed to love us?

I believe as readers and writers we gravitate towards this theme in books because there is something life-affirming about knowing there is something or someone waiting for us at the end of heartbreak. Like a modern fairytale, mending the broken heart is a trope that has resonance in the real world.

In my recent release, DEAR CASSIE, Cassie goes through something pretty horrific at the hands of a boyfriend and it has closed her off from being able to trust anyone. One of the ways she learns to trust again is by learning to love again. I think this is key, learning to love again, not having someone love her. I wrote it that way purposely because I wanted it to be clear that her falling in love with someone new was a choice she was making.

Here's the thing, I've gotten some reviews, some not all, that say that she should have been able to get over her trauma without help from a boy. I believe this statement and I agree with it and so it made me wonder, how do you write a story like this and give your broken female the appearance of strength if she ends up with the boy? Would Cassie choosing to be alone have made her seem stronger? Is that even realistic?

As a teen who had my own traumatic experience at the hands of an ex-boyfriend, very different from Cassie's but just as life-altering, I personally chose instead to be with everyone. That was what being raped by my ex-boyfriend did to me, it made me crave companionship and sex from anywhere I could get it. I was broken like Cassie, but dealt with it in the complete opposite way. I wondered if I had written her this way, if some readers would have had the same complaint.

Cassie for the first 75% of the book pushes everyone including girls and women away. It isn’t just about keeping boys out or letting boys in. She deals with her trauma by closing herself off, by putting up walls. Her choosing to let someone in isn't about him being a boy. It isn't about being rescued. It's about her starting to believe she deserves to be loved, to let people in again, boy or girl. That was my intention anyway.

I suppose in some ways my acting out with boys was the same as Cassie’s walls. I was letting them in, but only sexually, emotionally my barricades were up. By being with them in a physical way, by making it my choiceI suppose I was able to take any power away from them. I was able to decide not to be hurt.

That was what Cassie was doing too and her opening up to someone emotionally was all about illustrating her growth. It was not about being swept off her feet, or saved by some guy. At least that was not what I intended when I wrote it.

I'm not sure what reaction is more authentic? Stronger? I'm not sure it matters. What does matter, or did matter to me was showing that someone can get past heartbreak, past a trauma and be able to let people in again. Whether that's strong or weak, I don't know. I just think it's human.

~Lisa Burstein

Lisa Burstein is a tea seller by day and a writer by night. She received her MFA in Creative Writing from the Inland Northwest Center for Writers at Eastern Washington University. She is the author of Pretty Amy, The Next Forever and Dear Cassie. As well as a contributor to the upcoming essay collection, Break These Rules: 35 YA Authors On Speaking Up, Standing Out, and Being Yourself. She lives in Portland, Oregon with her very patient husband, a neurotic dog and two cats.

What if the last place you should fall in love is the first place that you do?

You’d think getting sent to Turning Pines Wilderness Camp for a month-long rehabilitation “retreat” and being forced to re-live it in this journal would be the worst thing that’s ever happened to me.

You’d be wrong.

There’s the reason I was sent to Turning Pines in the first place: I got arrested. On prom night. With my two best friends, who I haven’t talked to since and probably never will again. And then there’s the real reason I was sent here. The thing I can’t talk about with the guy I can’t even think about.

What if the moment you’ve closed yourself off is the moment you start to break open?

But there’s this guy here. Ben. And the more I swear he won’t—he can’t—the deeper under my skin he’s getting. After the thing that happened, I promised I’d never fall for another boy’s lies.

And yet I can’t help but wonder…what if?

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