(Names have been changed to protect identities)
Change knelt down beside me in the wilderness, and in the gentlest voice I’ve ever heard, she said "I love being the reason for all of your beginnings". Then she kissed the tears from my eyes, stood up, and reached for my hand.
I never thought I would be writing a letter like this one and as I sit here wondering what the right words to string together are, I feel inadequate. I ask that you forgive me in advance.
There are so many things I wish to say. I believe that people come into our lives for a reason. That we are both teachers and students and if we look at life and others that way, we can actually become wiser and more compassionate towards one another.
You came into my life and the changes began. Vulnerability and the fear of it raised its ugly head. What a barrier to a healthy relationship that one is. In men, and I am not offering an excuse, and it almost always comes with the territory. We are protectors and providers. In the “old” days, that was necessary when out hunting for food. Being vulnerable in the face of danger, vulnerability just didn’t work well.
Eons passed and here we are...
I can see that the very first step to anyone making a change in their lives is awareness that the change needs to occur. While that can often take some time, I believe you taught me well and I saw our relationship as a catalyst for my growth. Without going into the pain that stretching one’s vision entails, I have come out the other end a different person or at least a person with a different perspective on who I want to be...
