December 17th 2014
Growing up I was always the shy kid. I've always admired and been jealous of confident people as confidence is a quality I've lacked for most of my life. While I've definitely noticed an improvement over the last couple of years I still get extremely nervous and anxious when it comes to new situations, meeting new people, etc. It's something I want to really work on changing. I often struggle making conversation with people that I'm not super close with and it can interfere with my ability to make friends. While there's nothing wrong with being shy or an introvert, I find that I'm happier once I suck it up and get over my shyness. The main reason I like drinking is because I forget about my anxiety and I just have fun. I am so much more confident and social when I've been drinking and I love it. I will dance and sing and I will talk to people I barely know and I just really want to be that girl even when I'm not drunk.
When I started uni this year I knew nobody in my course and was super nervous about having to make new friends as approaching people I don't know is something I struggle with. On the enrollment day this girl Jess came over to where I was sitting and introduced herself to me and we've been friends ever since. Even though I've now discontinued that course I still talk to her and catch up with her every now and again. I'm so so grateful that she came up to me that day because I don't think I would have and I would have missed out on having a great friend in Jess. Next year I will hopefully be starting a new university course and I hope I can be that girl, like Jess, who approaches others and makes friends.