"Have you ever heard of demisexuality?" I ask my husband.
"No, I haven't. What is it?".
"It's where you don't find someone sexually attractive unless you are emotionally close to them. I'm pretty sure I'm demi-sexual, but I never knew it was a thing until today."
"That actually makes a lot of sense, Lovey. I can see that about you."
I explain to my husband that he is the only person I have ever wanted to have sex with. Ever. Because he's the only person I've ever been so close to emotionally. And I didn't realize until today that that wasn't typical. He says that makes him feel special. I tell him, it's because he IS special to me. And then I cry. "What makes sex with ME special?". He tells me that sex with me has more meaning than it would with anyone else. I feel a little better. But mostly, I feel insecure.