When You Can't Sleep Right
Thanksgiving 2013.
It's been a few months since I last wrote, but tonight I'll take advantage of yet another 'play on words'; Maybe the title should read, "When You Can't Sleep, Write."
I had a rough night and anyone who knows me knows that that usually calls for music or a good book. Tonight (in a rarer form) I chose a book…. And the universe brought me an answer once again. I've been reading A LOT about living in the present moment these days, as that is what I'm striving to constantly do, and I came across a chapter about dedicating a song to one's self.
I'm SUPER familiar with dedicating songs to others, or just associating songs with other people, places, or times. I've grown up surrounded by a love of music, so it only comes natural to do so. This, however, is a foreign idea for me. That being said, I'll try ANYTHING once, so I figure…. why not?
I can't help but think of a conversation that my Mama and I had when I was about 17 years old. I was having an argument with my high school sweetheart that I thought was going to lead to a breakup and I was devastated. My Mom told me that 1+1=2. Not 1/2 + 1/2. Not 1/3 +1/5. Just 1+1….. Moral of the story being that until someone is ONE, they cannot be a part of TWO. She went on to say that, if you're lucky, 1+1 might even = 3. Through allllll of my years of education I just recently, by a strike of FATE, realized that that means SYNERGY. (A side-note, but important pertaining to my life right now, none-the-less.)
I finally feel like I AM one. And I'm ready for my 'plus one' to arrive…. In hopes that together we can be more than two. That being said, I've never been so ONE in my life and for that I am proud.
Until more than ONE happens, I'm choosing to keep on keeping on as ME: ONE. WHOLE. CAPABLE. INDEPENDENT. STRONG. And so I'm dedicating THIS song to myself tonight.
So here's to me: May I always have strength when I'm standing. And faith when I fall.
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