Aug 12, 2023
putting my phone down for the 30th time tonight only to pick it back up as if somehow anything will change.
I'm so tired.
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putting my phone down for the 30th time tonight only to pick it back up as if somehow anything will change.
I'm so tired.
biggest contributor to my being perpetually tired as of late has been just how racist some of my former spaces have been. I used to love my hobbies, I used to love going out of my way to meet people who shared similar passions, now it's a hassle, and never worth the risk.
I'm so tired.
discarded a post that was way more angry sounding than I intended it to be. I just want something healthy in my life for once.
bone crushing, soul grinding, skin flaying sadness on this fine night.
Idk when I get to stop making the rookie mistake of opening the notes on popular posts, but I hope it's soon. I'm tired of seeing stupid people be confidently wrong in the name of winning an internet pissing contest. Shit's pathetic.
"Was it ever real? Did I make you up?" thanks half-alive.
experiencing existential dread I can't even begin to describe. It's like yearning mixed with every negative feeling possible. Two days in a row is a bit much.
login to xiv > literally walk 5 steps > close game
i am fucking joyless today.