#deletelaterlol

[mylesthetreegod]

God I just want to be outside. I spend most of my waking hours in a god forsaken warehouse grocery store where people have no respect for the employees who work there; constantly reaching over and around us like mere objects in their way instead of the people that make this place function. By the time I'm allowed to leave it is dark and cold and I make my way home. I sot and stare at one screen or another till it's late enough for me to justify drugging myself to sleep because insomnia is just something you live with. I want so badly to go outside whole it os bright and warm. To hike the green hillsides of this new place I live but cannot because to live you must work and to work feels like I'm dying

[mylesthetreegod]

Hey just wanna know ho else has gotten to the point is adulthood where you're nearly constantly having an existential crisis because your life is like fucking Groundhogs Day of the same bullshit. I cant get through my day without wanting to punch someone, hysterically crying to music that makes me feel something, and far too much caffeine than what's reasonable.

[mylesthetreegod]

Been thinking about finding a new job lately. Im so burnt out and bored with what I do now but its hard to justify leaving a job that pays pretty well and has a great insurance package. Its hard to find jobs that offer both of those things. I need something that pays well since I just moved and my living expenses are higher now and I need the insurance to keep my prescription cost low and keep the possibility of getting top surgery open. But im so tired.