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I have a specific learning disability in mathematics (AKA dyscalculia.) I wanted to be a biology major in college. I couldn't pass chemistry. Yes, I had accommodations, but the accommodations were extended time on tests and being allowed to use a calculator (which we were allowed anyway.) That... doesn't just magically erase the problem in my brain. People will still tell me, "oh but if you really tried, you could have! You must not have wanted it badly enough." And that's the painful part is that I did want it and I did try, multiple times, but the thing about having a disability is that sometimes it's disabling and that sucks. You have to accept that you can't do the thing and find a way to move on with your life. It is what it is.

I have NVLD and when I say "I can't do big city driving," everyone confidently says "sure you can!" And like... okay yeah sure I could, and the end result would be someone getting seriously hurt. My visual processing could not handle that level of chaos and I would quickly get overwhelmed and not know what to do and end up doing something dangerous. So I don't. There are certain places I just don't drive, because I know it would be dangerous for everyone involved. Why everyone thinks they know my capabilities better than me, who has lived in this brain my whole life, I don't know.

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As someone with a visual spatial disorder AND a math/numbers disorder. Nobody understands how much of a process it is for me to sit down and add a bunch of things to my calendar.

#I sit down thinking oh this won't take long #an hour and a half later “oh shit I really need to start on dinner”#nvld #dyscalculia #nonverbal learning disability #developmental visual spatial disorder

Story time.

I have NVLD and it causes a lot of issues with visual spatial things. I CAN drive and am an extremely careful driver and have never gotten into an accident. I do get confused sometimes and have done things that... weren't THAT bad but also not great a couple of times. I would just not drive, but I live in rural USA and not driving = being homebound (a life I've lived before due to not driving, and never want to live again.)

One time I was driving around in an unfamiliar place that was a lot more urban than I'm used to, and it was dark, and it started raining heavily which made the visibility pretty bad. I missed my exit and ended up in a part of town with confusing intersections, ended up sitting at one for a long time trying to figure out if it was a drive all the way to the other side of that barrier situation or not, to the point where the very kind gentlemen behind me got out of his car and told me it was okay to go. The only thing I could blurt out was that I was so sorry and I was from the country and not used to driving somewhere like this. (Seeing as it wasn't a CITY city, I have no idea where he must have thought I was from, I probably gave him the impression that I had come out of the most back country section of rural Kentucky or something LOL, which, like I said, I AM rural but not quite that rural.) I proceeded to try to get on the interstate several times and miss my exit every time because of confusing road markings and poor visibility, and ended up in the parking lot of a store, crying and calling one of my brothers, who fortunately lived very close to there. He and a friend mercifully came and picked me up, and he took me back to the hotel where I was staying. It was really embarrassing and I cried a lot and felt very, very stupid.

If you struggle with driving, and have ever done something that made you think "I'm so stupid, NOBODY does this." It's me 🙋 I do too.

#before someone comes at me and says I'm not fit to drive #the psychologist who tested me said I was #and I normally don't drive in places or situations I know I can't handle #but my mom was in the hospital and that's the only reason I was out driving in an unfamiliar place on a dark rainy night #at the end of the day I'd much rather NOT drive #that's USAmerica for you #nvld #actually NVLD #nonverbal learning disability #nonverbal learning disorder #developmental visual spatial disorder #surprisingly iron original #surprisingly iron personal

I have a general idea of what people find "conventionally attractive" - I think - but I just don't think of people in those terms as I don't experience attraction. But it also kind of goes deeper than that. I don't even know if I know what beautiful or ugly are in relation to people? Like I might find someone cute and endearing, impressive, intimidating, etc. but it's all based on their mannerisms. Someone might have unique features that make me go "huh that's unique" but I don't think about it in terms of being "pretty" or "ugly." People who I like and who are familiar to me always look "good" to me, I always feel positive emotions when I look at them. That's why I find it so hard when a friend is like "do I look good in this," like bestie I don't know, you always look good to me, that's not me being sappy it's just you're under the "friend" category in my brain and it just goes "Good! Nice!" whenever I look at you, regardless of what you're wearing. People I don't know are just... I don't know, they're just people, I don't really think anything about the way they look. I also find "fashion" incredibly hard to understand, I don't understand what makes an outfit look "good" or "bad," I'm not color blind so I understand colors "clashing" but beyond that no. I just don't notice what people are wearing unless it's a graphic T-shirt with something funny on it or depicting a show I'm a fan of or something. I don't say this to brag about being some non judgemental higher being, I just wonder whether this is due to being aroace or because of my visual processing disorder or some combination of the two?

#musings #aroace #developmental visual spatial disorder #nvld #surprisingly iron original #surprisingly iron personal