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INCOMING: Nonsense
Goddamn it...
I hate that I care so damn much for you. I thought hating you would help. Thought hiding away would push us apart. Physically, perhaps... but at least on my end, mentally, I’m messed.
I hate you. I really do. But that - for some odd reason - doesn’t eliminate the pull.
INCOMING: Nonsense
It's about that time again. Being a new year and all. I'll try not to ramble much. Life has been... less than enjoyable so far. At first, I was so positive about the new year, but now I just keep hitting walls. It's quiet again. And I'm moving around so much that all I seem to do in my free time is sleep. Way too much sleep. I want to paint, I want to talk to the few friends I have, hell I want to find a new job... but I'm tired. Maybe I'll pick this up again later.
INCOMING: Nonsense
Been a bit. Time to update. Things have been slow and - for the most part - quiet. Only recently have I been feeling a bit uneasy, and I still don't know why. It could be a certain someones fault thanks to his lil' news story... Anyway, my paintings have taken a strange turn again. Besides the fact that the majority have come out as just landscapes or backgrounds alone, they are less colorful. More of a black and white focus. It's amazing how much emotion can be put into such simplicity. Also, remember that bookstore I use to work at? Well, I'm back there. I have been in need of some extra (necessary) cash, so... yeah. Round 2, I guess. I'll end it here. Nothing else to really say. Where is everyone, anyway?
INCOMING: Nonsense
Guess a little update is in order.
I’ll start off with a swift Fuck You to having limited internet. Honestly, I didn’t think I’d care enough about it in the beginning, but apparently now I do, so being limited is kind of a bitch. I really shouldn’t complain, but when has that stopped me before?
If anything, the freetime has allowed me to really focus on my art, which has reached an all time high in my opinion. I’m pretty damn proud of that, too. Maybe I’ll start posting some of my pieces here soon. Might as well, right?
As for my social life, it’s… minimal still, but slowly picking up. Talking with old… “friends” if you will. It’s something of an improvement. Again, I shouldn’t complain. There could be worse things, Devi. You’re not a child. Quit it.
And the talking to myself hasn’t changed. Swell. Just when I thought I was returning to some form of normalcy, the foreign concept it is. What is it about life that make some people just lose it? Extreme or not, it can happen out of nowhere. Kind of scary if you think about just how easy it really is.
Anyway, I’ll wrap this up. As always, feel free to say hello and I’ll do what I can to reply. If I’ve missed a message or something, its not because I’m ignoring you. 95% of the time I can’t get on here, so it makes shit difficult. Sorry in advance.
INCOMING: Nonsense
I am in desperate need of a fudge sundae. It's an irrational longing for such a sweet treat, but I could care less. But at least I have Chinese food. Can't be upset with that.
INCOMING: Nonsense
~Ain't it fun living in the real world?~ Been in a singing mood lately. Pretty sure I'm pissing off my neighbors more than usual doing so. (Payback is Sweet!) I've also been getting into the Halloween spirit. I painted a spooky ghost. I'm fucking proud of it, too, so shut up. I wonder where Johnny is... haven't heard from or seen him around in a few months. There goes my old paranoia again. Probably nothing. I require soup. Going now.
INCOMING: Nonsense (cont.)
You know what, scratch that other post. I'm staying. I'll just try something new this time. I guess I can't just wait around for people to say hello. World doesn't work like that. If it did, it'd be like the world was a prepackaged meal or some shit. Wait, what did I just say? Anyway, from now on, it's my turn to say hello. C'mon, Devi, time to be a person once again! You can do it.
INCOMING: Nonsence
So, is this blog even worth keeping anymore? It seems my efforts to reach out has failed me even on the internet. Honestly, feel free to talk to me. I'm actually trying this time. I'm tired of being a shut in, of being paranoid, pessimistic, and generally unpleasant. Hell, I even talk to Johnny occasionally now! I'll stay If you want me to.
