Random Thoughts #39
hello to anyone still lurking around my blog these days. It’s a dead corner of the internet for the most part which makes it a perfect place to start these random thought threads again.
I read through random thoughts #2-38 (#1 is missing!?) and I thought to myself, “I miss writing like this. I need to do it again.” Writing has always been an outlet of mine that has been neglected in the past few years.
If I’m being honest, since transitioning, I’ve been an infinitely more private person, and kept a lot of feelings inside myself. Something something about being strong and manly I guess.
I also think this blog reflects such a younger version of myself. Someone so naive, eager, yet scared to grow up. And then there’s now. Grown up 28 year old me. I started this blog when I was half this old age. It’s so weird to look at the old pictures of me as a girl or the messages I sent my old mutuals or the blog posts I wrote about my many crushes.
There’s really only one person who’s persisted through that all. I hope we’re life long friends and grow closer sometime soon even though we’re so far apart.
I’m finally living parts of the dream I had for myself. I’m a speech therapist, I’m in love, I support myself. I’m happy. I never thought I’d be this happy.
The world is still big and blue and I will continue to live in each moment as they come.
thanks for reading if you did. poop poop poop
x
-Dezmon