I literally love Damon so much.
That was probably a terrible use of the word "literally", but whatever. My brain is still tired from the Playlist Plague. Also lack of sleep.
He's so wonderful and sweet and caring. I feel so protective of him. Maybe because I used to think he was younger than me. Or maybe it's because his own insecurities and mindset remind me of the captivity and loneliness of my own mind when I was younger.
The problem with damaged people is that they never realize their worth. (Definitely not calling Damon "damaged". He's beautiful exactly how he is.) Actually, another tragedy is when people overestimate their own worth.
I don't know where I'm going with that thought. Ah, I'm so tired. I need to go to sleep, because I'm driving a bunch of people to my church's huge Easter celebration tomorrow morning at the arena in town. I wish I could take Damon along and just show him comfort and love. In a pure, positive, friendly, helpful way.
One thing I've learned in life is that the best way to cope with my own insecurity, dissatisfaction, and unhappiness in life, is to help others and spread love to everyone I can. I think that's the true reason I feel so personally connected to Damon - because I can tell that's his motivation in a lot of things he does, too.
I don't know what I'm trying to prove with this post, or what point I'm trying to make. I've realized though, that I don't want to be a "fan", I want to be a friend. I don't want my relationship with Damon to be one sided, where he posts content and I watch/read it, and take something from the relationship as he gets nothing from me.
I don't really see a friendship forming between us today or tomorrow or any time soon, (although that sure would be nice,) so for now I will just pray for him and his well being each day and hope for a day where I can give him some of the happiness that he's given me.