#diamondmeadow talks

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Okay, so I decided to post this here because what the heck.

I’ve been trying to pick up drawing again. Used to draw a lot as a teenager, but I’m terrible at drawing people. Which is exactly what I want to be able to do. Sadness.

But recently I got my hands on an iPad, so I decided to buy myself a stylus pencil and try the digital thing. Obviously, it’s going horribly. If anyone has any good tips for anatomy resources, I would appreciate it. There is a lot online and I have tried so much (though mostly with a pencil and paper and digital stuff feels somewhat different), so maybe it would be nice hearing what worked for people as they practiced.

Also if anyone here has worked with Sketchbook, any tips? Even though procreate is rather cheap, I’m not sure if I want to invest in something I might give up later (because I know myself and how when I get frustrated with things, I just drop them). So in the meantime, I’m using Sketchbook and god, brushes are hard. Wtf I’m doing?

In any case, I’ve been trying tracing these days, since I know some artists do it to speed up their process or to get poses right etc, as well as it might be some sort of practice anyway, so here is the thing I did tonight and I don’t entirely hate it. James Potter of sorts? I dunno. But what are colours!!!! (And how does one use them!!!) (Also Christ, how do you even draw hair?!?!!)

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today as i was doomscrolling on tiktok, i saw a sentence that made me want to exorcise my brain. i'm usually pretty good at not reading comments and just scrolling until i find content i like. but there was a text post where someone claimed that wolfstar is no longer popular, and i was like "christ, in what universe!" but i was interested in whether people agreed or not, and i clicked the comments. and it was a natural mix of people who like and dislike wolfstar, which is obviously fine, but what killed me was one of them saying:

"i don't get why people pair remus with sirius, when remus could literally have anyone he wanted."

EXCUSE ME

EXCUSE ME

some people truly really have not ever touched and will never touch the canon, will they?

can we even get any further from these characters?

dear sir or madam, have you ACTUALLY "seen" sirius black?

DEAR SIR OR MADAM REMUS LUPIN IS A FUCKEN WEREWOLF AND NOT THE FUN ROMANTASY KIND DEAR SIR OR MADAM

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Yesterday (more like last night since I couldn’t put it down and finished at 3am) I read an amazing fic called The Weather Inside by earlybloomingparentheses ( @ebp-brain ) which just reminded me how much I love canon-based wolfstar.

They are unbearable.

I often keep thinking how I want to write canon wolfstar tropes but I always end up going for aus because I just cannot bear the reality of canon. But no matter what, the tragedy of these two truly is the best expressed in their canon setting.

In any case, one day, my idea list is expanding by day, so hopefully the time when I gather enough courage to break my own heart will come.

Either way, I dunno what I wanted to say by this little wolfstar ramble, but it definitely is a fic rec for you. Go read something gorgeous and heart-wrenching (and yes, it is HEA, within the limits of canon, but the smut might make you cry, it did make me)

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I’ve just had a terrible night… probably the worst night of sleep due to the environment ever in my life. Living in a 600-hundred-year-old European house when the temperature climbs to 39/40 for 3 days is not for the weak. It keeps all the heat it… really wonderful in winter, the one-meter-thick walls, but fuck I wanted to off myself tonight (the temp went to 30 inside the house.) We’ve got one fan and well, not even Dyson can save you, let me tell you.

Pushing the days with my eyes. Just two more days and then there’s a bit of respite. But Christ. I’m the generation that remembers the original summers here… and by that I mean 25 on average even in August and if it ever climbed to 30 we were all dying.

God, somewhere here in this ramble, there’s a primal scream to do something. Plant trees and ride a fucking bus and train instead of a car. There is more internal screaming at the world’s governments because you can only do so much in countries without good bus and train infrastructures. Not to mention other industries we have only a very little influence over.

But Christ, people, for the love of god, wherever you live, read political programs and go to elections. That we can do. Or we will burn here. We are already and actually have been burning for decades now.

In the meantime stay safe, drink water, use those fans and AC if you have access. Condolences if any of you suffering has to work outside. Hats and breaks.

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THREE THINGS TO BE HAPPY ABOUT THIS LAST WEEK

tagged by @thistlecatfics

I'm perpetually unhappy about everything, but let's try this anyway.

had the lovliest vc with @lovelymasks and i managed to reply to our merman sirius prongsfoot rp after like a year, so here's to hoping we can keep going.

had a fun dnd session yesterday.

went for my dry needling treatment on wednesday which always brings relief (even if temporary) to my stupid sciatica.

No pressure tag for @lovelymasks, @mycupofrum @plecotusauritus @sorenphelps @lalunavinoalafragua @euripidestrousers

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Also today I just want to scream into the tumblr void about how impossibly stupidly hot all my versions of James Potter (both in my fics and rps) are and what do I even do with this. I’m beside myself. Aaaaaah!

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10:30 in the morning and I needed to ran here because finally after well over a year of looking at it from afar, finally, finally, I read four thousand holes by the most amazing @steelycunt and oh my god.

I had to make it so I rewatched Pride right before, that was the only way to go about it. I love the movie so much and it had been yeaaaaars since I had watched it the last time, so this weekend… and then I felt confident enough to get ruined by the author’s writing, because that’s what it does from my previous experience.

It did not disappoint.

If you haven’t read anything by aeridi0nis on ao3, please do yourself a favour.

Especially if you like wolfstar. Though maybe it’s just me but with the fanon taking over, this was the kind of thing I needed right now. A breath of fresh air (that had me choked up because nothing is ever fucking easy between R and S, they are two broken men in whatever universe you throw them in, if you do it correctly; sorry at this point I’m convinced there is only one correct way about it haha though I understand it is highly subjective in fandom, that’s alright that’s alright).

Anyway, sorry, I’m rambling. This is a fic rec concealed as an emotional word vomit that you will have to bear with. Just go read the fic. And watch the movie. Both too excellent to be put into words. And if you are prone to it, you will be left in tears and maybe even with a bit of an existential crisis because it’s 2026 and the world is burning and the world is divided, but hey, at the same time, it’s the thing to make you feel better, that you are in one of the last spaces where it truly shouldn’t matter at all.

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“You said you didn’t hear,” says Sirius. “Earlier. You said you didn’t hear what LGSM stood for, when we spoke over the phone. You had no idea we were a gay organisation.”

“I did say that,” Remus agrees.

“We both mentioned it, though. James and I. Multiple times, we said it. And the connection wasn’t that bad. So that…you were lying, weren’t you?”

Remus does not flinch. Out onstage, Frank continues, “what I’d really like to say to you tonight, is thank you. If you’re one of the people that’s put money in these buckets, if you’ve supported LGSM…”

“Yes,” says Remus. “I was lying.”

or:

Britain, 1984. During the Miners’ Strike, a group of gay activists start raising money for a mining community in South Wales. Sirius meets Remus, the son of a miner. There is power in a union.

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what is even adult life? i don’t want to go to sleep because i’ve got work tomorrow. i want to continue reading medieval sirry until wee hours of night without having to worry about being dead tired the next day. i still have well over 70k left. what do you mean i have to go educate minds tomorrow? no one listens anyway. i want my age gap smut and drunk lord black and harry being harry.

that said i only have less than 6 hours of sleep left, so i better go. i’ll be dead anyway. maybe i will at least get a chance to dissociate at work and think about sirry while a bunch of 13 year olds ignore my instruction.