Misfits… I call myself a misfit because wherever I go, I don’t seem to find belongingness. I’m still young but why do I feel so tired? Like all my energy is stolen from me or it's natural to just lose your spark when you are in your 20s. Is it natural to feel depression and anxiety at this age or do people just mold us into like this? This society promotes a proud life, where you should be successful and have a good title. I never understand why everyone is telling me how I should live my life and in the end, I feel lost because of too much noise. When I graduated, I never thought that I would be thrown into this reality where everyone expects too much from me. Like they expect me to be a robot, to be successful overnight, to figure life out. As a result of that, I started applying for jobs, getting interviewed, and getting rejected for the first time. Pressure is not something that I like, it is suffocating. I tried my best but no one ever told me that when I made a mistake in my 20s, everyone would mock me, laugh at me, and humiliate me. I look at myself in the mirror and I gasp, because I no longer know myself. She loses her spark and her ability to dream. Instead of walking proudly, I isolate myself, scared of what other people will say about me. Everyone gave their opinion, no one asked me if I was okay. No one showed me understanding and kindness. Nobody wants to help, they just want to criticize. Did I live to prove myself to everyone? Why do I feel like I owe them an explanation every time that I will fail in my life? No one listens, they don't understand the pressure and the guilt that eats you when you fail everyone in your life.