Do you know what I was, how I lived? —Louise Glück
It is a goldfinch one of the two
small girls, both daughters
of a friend, sees hit the window
and fall into the fern. No one hears
the small thump but she, the youngest, sees
the flash of gold against the mica sky
as the limp feathered envelope crumples into the green.
How many times in a life will we witness
the very moment of death? She wants a box
and a small towel some kind of comfort
for this soft body that barely fits
in her palm. Its head rolling side to side,
neck broke, eyes still wet and black as seed.
Her sister, now at her side, wears a dress too thin
for the season, white as the winter
only weeks away. She wants me to help,
wants a miracle. Whatever I say now
I know weighs more than the late fall’s
layered sky, the jeweled leaves
of the maple and elm. I know, too,
it is the darkest days I’ve learned to praise —
the calendar packages up time, the days shrink and fold away
until the new season. We clothe, burn,
then bury our dead. I know this;
they do not. So we cover the bird,
story its flight, imagine his beak
singing. They pick the song
and sing it over and over again.
Fall by Didi Jackson











