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one of those posts

I always say that this is my "personal blog"... not because i say where i am from, but because i say how i am feeling.

And this post isn't a positive one (to start with).

So, last week (tuesday 18th march to be exact) i got a phone to say that my brother in law had died. My sister's husband. someone i was close to. the first time i ever experienced someone dying.

"How are you feeling" i hear you ask. well, i don't know. right now i go from feeling down, crying too... to then feeling like it never happened. 

I live in leeds, a separate city to where all this is happening. and i feel like i'm watching a film. Experiencing the emotions, but not experiencing it with people. 

a friend of mine said i'm pretty much 2 people right now. one that is coming to terms with this loss, the other is experiencing life as normal. 

i think my time with my sister and parents will sort this out. I don't know, i've never done this whole LOSS thing before. 

I don't know how to end this post i had more things to say but... so ahhh... yeah

[feyland]

didihearacat replied to your post “I can’t watch this Canada-USA women’s gold medal hockey game it’s too...”

if you lose this game then at least you got gold in Curling!

I'M V HAPPY ABOUT THAT BUT HOCKEY IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING HERE OKAY