I just might lose my shit, humans... Got my MRI Results from the rest of my spine. Let's add them all together! Collectively I have a full spine riddled with digenerative disc disease. Lots and lots of fun osteoarthritis and angry bones just degenerating, and deseased. Fun! That alone is painful, right? From my cervical spine to my thoracic and my lumbar, each section has DDD. But that's not all! There's fractures and a bone spurs in my cervical spine. My neck is filled with painful, miserable little breaks and bone growths. Fun. Let's move on to the thoracic. There's a schmorls node in my t9-t10 thoracic spine. I had no idea what that was until I googled it, and basically it's a vertical herniated disc. It's a hernia that grows into the marrow of the bone vertically. Sound painful? Well, I can assure you it is. I'm in a LOT of pain all the time. This on top of the degenerative disc disease in all my spine. And last but not least, there's a disc protrusion at my L5-S1 in my lumbar. Which is a fancy fun horizontal herniated disc, pretty much. This one is actually pinching nerves, and wrecking up the place, since it's right where my spine meets my tailbone and it's REALLY painful. There's more jargon I'll Google and look up later, but I was just so overwhelmed by all this fun stuff, I nearly lost my shit. I'm barely holding it together right now, with everything that's going on in my life. With everything that's going on in people's lives I care for, it's just all a bit much. I can't even express it. This was a lot to take in, considering I already have so much going on inside my body. My rheumatoid arthritis has wrecked my joints and made moving my arms and legs miserable, so why not throw in a destroyed spine, right? Sounds cool.. I know there's treatments and options. I'm aware. I look forward to hearing about them. I'm simply scared because I can't even be bitten by a mosquito without ending up looking like a leper right now. I may just lose my shit. BOOM. All of it. Gone. I'm hurting. I'm sad. I'm not ok with this. #fibromyalgia #rheumatoidarthritis #digenerativediscdisease #notcool #imnotok #wtfuniverse #imagoodperson #why (at Mona, Utah)
