#discard them

[goth-transmasc-demi-omni]

Day 14 on T.

This thought occurred to me. He's always been inside me but now...I think I can hold him back no longer.

Is he rage? Yes.

Is he me? Yes.

Can I tame him?

I'll keep you updated, but so far the answer is no, and I'm not sure I want to.

"Let the masculinity just wash over you" is the mantra I've been living by, and my dudes. Oh my gods, my dudes. It WORKS. Let it just overtake you, and the changes are so fast.

The "How many times have I," and "This one is different...Right?" is about the many times I've killed past versions of myself in favor of the next me.

That's why, when I look at the me that's coming and all the me's I've been...this one is different, right? This time it'll stay, it's not just a passing whim?

Have I done the right thing?

[valencing]

look i’m not a journalist and idk how the new york times decides which stories to really splash out on but what would make most sense to me is if someone with a bad headache went from department to department yesterday looking for some good news and everyone looked up sadly from their desks and shook their head but then some bright-eyed go-getter on the science desk was like “oh! i have something!” and that’s how this ray of hope ended up on the digital front page