#dissolutien

[the-blue-void]

I think i vaguely understand the relation between us and the will at our back

Usually those will give us forces that drive us towards a goal like “show kindness to those beings we love” or “finish this task” and then we either follow those forces or we’re stuck

We usually aren’t that concrete and don’t stay for that long to object anyways so we just do whatever the forces want us to do, which often just feels like what we feel like doing

And like like sometimes when we switch there’s like a brief confusion and then the forces just keep us going. It’s be like “huh whats happening” and then we proceed to keep reading the code and fixing the bug.

And like when those forces aren’t present or aren’t really guiding us we become very lost and chaotic and that’s where we feel the clusterfuck state.

I also know those forces won’t normally fight but I really really hope they don’t fight. That sounds scary. <- thinking if clusterfuck state could be result of this

This also might be the reason we’re dissolutien? Because the overwhelming pressure of forces just weighted over every structure we tried to build?

[dissolutien-culture-is]

Hey all, this is dissolutien culture is

Dissolutien Definition : any formed structures are broken down eventually, can include subsystems, groupings, ways of communications, headmates, etc.

This blog is strictly pro-endo. dissolutien is a term made with schizogenic or other schizospec system experiences in mind. Do not engage if anti endo.

Mod tags:

#mod bluestone : median and dissolutien. i use both i/me and we/us to refer to collective. you/you&/yall all works, please use name in place of 3rd person pronouns. I dont use -genic label, im technically traumagenic but not in a typical way. Absolute fragmented mess. I like to hear various plural experiences.