you've been carrying the weight of someone else's mistakes, a problem that may stretch years & include too many people to count. it's a net that has controlled your actions because it felt like "there was no other way". now the fear of continuing those mistakes might have you paralyzed.
to begin change, look at where your own perspective has been clouded by theirs. this will be a deep dive if it goes back years; to the very first conversation. how did they slowly overshadow your own personality? did you look around one day & realize you were around people, but in a bubble?
by examining your own actions & where you allowed boundaries to be overstepped, can you start to balance things out. as you stand up to the person/group trying to keep you low, you'll find that there were other quiet voices waiting for someone to step up.
this is how you'll learn to move forward, even while allowing yourself to feel. you can still grieve the time lost. you can still rest. but you won't wallow indefinitely. only you can decide the right amount of time before moving on. you can also take their ability to slow down your progress.
(this is an old deck i made using stock images from unsplash. will probably need to throw it out soon 🥲)
the page is at the beginning of their journey. you may want to rush ahead, but instead focus that energy into learning all you can. learn from others' wins as well as their missed opportunities. but stay aware. your "newness" can be seen as a threat. this applies to more than just age, but that could potentially be an issue. we're taught to just forget things after a certain amount of time has passed. so someone who should be a mentor is an obstacle instead. their diligence has already paid off in experience, if not a higher position. be careful not to let their opinion of you become your own.
their animosity could be from a real (or even imagined) sense of social isolation. any vitriol they send your way acting as a toxic coping mechanism. "i'll reject you before you can reject me". it isn't your responsibility to fix or shine a spotlight on their wounds. you don't have to back down from them necessarily. you can show that their behavior isn't getting a reaction from you. and if this is also a bid to get any attention, even if it's negative, that would be worse than rising to the bait.
as you grow, you'll exude the self assurance that experience should bring. instead of wearing your insecurities on your sleeve. it will take time to get there. this will be something you'll have to stay fixated on all while people are slamming one door after another. you'll have to keep moving despite no room being made. where you want to go may change but it's more important to know who you are. or someone else will decide for you.
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disclaimer: my readings are not about people who have definitely cut ties & made no attempt to reconnect. and if a reading suggests there is a potential for change, that is not condoning staying in a situation you want to leave (especially if you feel threatened).
