Oct 15, 2017
This is our first time meeting in this 7 month relationship
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This is our first time meeting in this 7 month relationship
The time came!!!!
Our vacation together was a blast, I finally got to meet him. More posts to come!!
T minus 3 days!
In 3 days Dawson will be here and he better be prepared for an adventure if a lifetime! It's going to be his birthday week with me and our anniversary fall within that week. Stay tuned for updates on where we travel on this little island we call home.
Insecurities
After looking at countless photos of women on social media, I see how much they've changed since high school and some people I don't even know but they are all beautiful. I get this sense of Jealousy, like I want to be that beautiful, or I wish I could dress that way if my body was a different shape or size, I wish I could do my make up that way. As I say all these things to myself I can hear his voice inside my head telling me how beautiful I am and that he loves me for me. He tells me how he loves my eyes, my hair, curves and all. I realize I love myself. They're all beautiful and I am too. That's what I call secure.
Update on the book I sent him: FedEx reported to me that the package that arrived in Reno was empty...so he just threw it away. I was so upset, how could my package be empty?! So I had to file a claim and what not. I was frustrated for a while trying to figure out how i was going to send him another one but instead he's been reading off pictures with me. We take turns reading and we read at least one chapter per night. First time I've done something like this.
Sweet Nothings
We always whisper to each other sweet nothings when the other one falls asleep. I just did it to him as he's fast asleep on the line, and he woke up. Not sure if he'll remember this but as I was whispering he got up and said, "just remember I love you, I love you, I love you so much, *kisses phone* okay baby girl!?" And that just took my heart. God I love him.
First time I fought so hard with myself, trying not to show emotions.
Tonight he said goodnight but this time he hung up the video call and it felt wrong to not sleep with him on the line. Talk about clingy! I’m in trouble, I am growing more and more attached to this fine, young, gentlemen and I sure as hell can’t hide it.
He knew something was wrong and it was partially because of the way he said goodnight, I made a face. It was like he was in a rush to end the video call that’s why, and he didn’t even say “I love you.” He says it all the time, why would it hurt me when he doesn’t say it?! *clears throat* clingy I tell you.
Solution to it all, he could tell through the text message I sent him and so he ended up calling me to make sure I was okay and I don’t go to bed angry or sad. I’d like to think I was crying because I was sad but I think I was crying because I realized no matter what he always tries to find a way to make me happy. Keep in mind that it’s 8:30 pm here so that’s 11:00 pm there. He should’ve been asleep by this time but instead he decides to call me until I was feeling better. He was very apologetic and said he doesn’t want me to go to bed angry and that he loves me.
**realize how selfish I was for keeping him up? Man I felt bad even if he claims to not be tired**
The first couple times I watched a video of daws singing this song, it brought tears to my eyes. I absolutely love the way my baby sings, his voice is so deep and I love it.