Mar 26
I'm still sick, and I'm off work now because of it, and I should be resting, but! I've decided that I need to turn my attic into an actual usable space, and as per usual when I get an idea in my head, all I want to do is spend all day stripping paint and wallpaper up there. Unfortunately this is backbreaking work and will absolutely make me feel physically worse. But because I want to do that I can't think of doing anything else, so while I'm sitting here trying to rest, no rest is being had.
#please brain let me live#why am i like this#anyway i need the attic so I have a space just for me#i have identified in therapy that when i'm in shared space too much i get burnt out#and i can't actually just kick my husband out of the house when that happens#but i can turn the attic into my box room of solitude#it just needs a lot of work first#but it could be so cool! i can put all my sewing stuff up there and lamps#and have it be well lit when i'm doing crafts and soft and cozy when i want to relax#just have to deal with the crumbling plaster and whatever is going on in the eaves#anyway im delaying the inevitable (spending all day up there against my better judgement)#i can set an alarm to remind me to take breaks and eat at least#doingayap#a big fucking yap!!!