#don't redog

[companionwolf]

Having a orientation crisis. Might be acespec (namely aegosexual) biromantic. But I also saw you can experience sexual attraction without wanting to do anything about it. So I'm really not sure rn and it's a little scary.

[companionwolf]

[companionwolf]

I bought this!!! It's mine!!! I don't have name for it yet though :( but it will be here soon!!!! I want it now :( It's a jelly cat bunny!! No jelly or cats on it though is just the name -L

[companionwolf]

Current mood.

-C

[companionwolf]

Weird and kind of gross question under the cut.

Is it normal for a 40 something adult to get in the shower with their 9/10/11 year old child because the adult believes the child can’t brush and wash their hair right?

And then is it normal for the same adult to basically threaten (because she knows the child associates the previous experiences with pain and crying and hurt) the 15/16/17/18 year old child with her coming in to wash the hair because she believes the child still won’t do it right?

And this is the really gross one…is it normal for a 50 something year old to insist to their 18 year old it’s ok the latter is using the toilet right in front of them since its been done so many times before (even tho the child is now suddenly extremely uncomfy about the age gap and the fact the adult is a cis woman while the child is transmasc and thus doesn’t want to be unintentionally predatory?)

[companionwolf]

[companionwolf]

Someone: Oh, you’ve lost weight! Did you mean to? You look so good.

Me, externally: Ha ha, thanks, I guess it’s just happened.

Me, internally: I’m actually developing disordered eating patterns that make me go days without eating, and when I do manage to eat it’s not truly me who’s making the choice and taking the action to put food into my body :)

[companionwolf]

People without trauma don't look back and see themselves as a entirely different person. And I don't mean that in a 'I was so different then' way but a 'that isn't the me that exists now' way. In a 'that person was someone else entirely, the me I am now is not them.' They don't look at that person and feel so convinced that that person is somehow dead. That maybe that person never was really alive in the first place. They don't feel convinced that they carry the coffin on their shoulders. They don't consider the place where shit happened to be the place of that person's metaphorical grave. They don't. They don't. Right?