I had a dream I was on this huge class trip in Key West and there were a lot of people, Johnny, Felix and a couple of other members were there. We were on this boat that was going to another part of key west and Felix had befriended a couple of local kids. And he was sharing his food with them and listening to their stories and it was the cutest thing ever and he had his blonde mullety hair. And one of the little girls who kind of looked like me as a child was telling me all about their life at home. It was so sad. Both me and Felix were on the verge of tears and all I could do was hug her and she didn't want to let me go.
Then we got to this island there was a huge party and we changed into our swimsuits mine was so cute it was like this aqua color and I had a sarong over it and the bra made my boobs look so good. I need to find this swimsuit in real life and we were just sitting at the cabana and there was like a huge buffet and bar like off to the side. I was sitting with a friend, Johnny and Felix. Then Felix jumped up and ran off attack hugging a friend. And they ran to get something to eat. And my friend said "he's too soft. He needs to harden up a little" about Felix. And I said "I hope he stays soft forever. When you've hardened it means something bad happened to you. I don't want something bad to happen to him"
Johnny just kind of stared at me cause he noticed the change in my voice. He scooted closer to me just to where our shoulders touched. And my friend said "but life isn't as kind as he needs it to be" and I said " That's fine. He can get through it but he doesn't need to experience anything harsher. He doesn't need to know *explaining traumatic things including SA*" And This guy I knew walked by and I just averted my eyes from him and Johnny kind of put two and two together and put his arms around me. And I hugged him back and we stayed like that for awhile. Then he left to get us something to eat then he returned just with food for me but he was inconsolably angry. Like he was breathing heavily, his teeth were gritted, his face was red, his fists were clenched and he couldn't stay still in his seat. He would not tell me what happened. And I just held him, he was still tense but he laid in my chest. He was shaking and hot, I have no idea why he was so mad.
Then later we were walking on this dock and Doyoung was wearing a furry hat and snowsuit while stuck in a kayak. Then we went back inland and was at this beach and a guide and a few of the boys had walked into the water to look at sea life while me and a few girls stayed back. And I had noticed there was like a baby alligator well like a child sized alligator and I was like hey hey let's go and they all started to run making the alligator chase us. So I had stepped on it's snout and waited till the guide came back and when he did Bangchan was so impressed by how I trapped the alligator and the guide said I did a great job and took out some tape and taped the gators mouth close and removed it from under my foot. Chan asked if I was okay and I nodded yes. Then while we were going back to the bus these itty bitty baby gators started chasing Changbin and Chan. And I was yelling just kick them or step on them. But they were just yelling and screaming.