#druidium

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❛   maybe that’s what dying does to you.      what if it darkens your soul?  ❜

                          canon dialogue starter   /    @druidium

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@druidium  ♡’d !!

                    ❝ come on. no one DIED, alright ?  look, there may have been a little maiming, okay...                          a little mangling, but no death. that's what I call an important distinction ! ❞

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How does Lydia feel about her father— does she despise him for the fact he's no longer around? Is there hatred there? Or is it more that she just doesn't care?

       i  feel  as  if  lydia  has  some  very  controversial  feelings  about  her  father.  seeing  as  i  headcanon  him  as  being  someone  who  completely  abandoned  her  and  her  mom  for  another  family,  he  even  stopped  giving  them  money,  i  think  she  does  resent  him  and  hate  him.  she  honestly  cannot  wrap  her  mind  around  the  fact  that  he  is  NEVER  around,  especially  after  she  almost  died  so  many  times.  and  she  also  hates  him  for  the  fact  she  was  committed  into  an  asylum  and  he  still  did  not  send  any  financial  help.  she  got  hurt  so  often  in  the  show  and  the  hospital  bills,  along  with  eichen  house’s,  kept  wrecking  natalie’s  bank  account  but  he  did  not  have  the  capacity  of  sending  some  help,  or  even  asking  if  they  needed  it.  

       however  she  also  hates  the  fact  she  thinks  that  way  --  like  they  need  him  to  keep  going,  which  is  one  of  the  main  reasons  why  she  supported  natalie  going  back  to  work,  so  they  wouldn’t  have  to  get  anything  from  him.  so  mostly  she  is  incredibly  hurt  because  he  just  took  off  and  never  looked  back.  (  with  the  exception  of  the  teacher  /  parents’  conference,  which  he  just  attended  to  see  just  how  much  of  a  mess  lydia  and  natalie  were,  and  when  she  was  in  the  hospital  after  the  season  one  dance  ).  she  hates  how  much  him  leaving  impacted  her  and  made  her  have  an  enormous  fear  of  abandonment.  she  hates  how  much  she  still  cares  about  him,  even  though  he  is  gone,  because  she  knows  she  would  not  hate  him  if  she  did  not  care  (  the  opposite  of  love  is  indifference  ).  it  did  not  help  that  her  relationship  with  natalie  was  quite  terrible  up  to  recently  so  yeah.  to  sum  it  up,  she  does  hate  him,  but  she  is  slowly  getting  over  it  and  learning  to  appreciate  the  parent  who  stayed.

@druidium  /  meme  /  accepting.

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