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[gayestcousinastrius]

I've noticed this thing for a while now- and I'm speaking this from someone who isn't active on the meichae side of the fandom and only knows the side on a sort of chest deep level. Is the side there really not as, uh, how do I put this... Not as insane? Wild? As the ones in the Sodani side?

I feel like from what I've seen around Meichae side, those would've been things that Sodani side would've gone insane over. Like I mean people talking about it and making things about it kind of loud. Sodani could literally just be right beside each other & stuff and there would be more edits about it (I've seen a lot... Not complaining tho). But Meichae could literally be doing or revealing the gayest things ever and there's sometimes a delayed response- I mean I still do see them going crazy, but yeah. Or are they actually just as active and I'm the delayed one-

Sorry, this just popped up in my head while I was scrolling through your blog and I thought you'd be a good person to ask about this lol.

-- D.S.

Well you have come to the right place!!! Honestly, the lore is so deep that even I, as someone who has an increasingly concerning obsession, can’t keep track of everything. The other day I was catching up my cousin (I will refer to her as twinn in the future cuz I’m 100% sure we did mitosis or wtv) on last months meichae lore and it turned out to be a 10 min worth of voice note 💀💀 FAHH

Idk from matching underwear to yoonchae wearing Megan’s outfits, it’s too deep. As far as I’m aware when it was January, we were having an overflow of meichae fics. like you know whether it be smut or whatever, but like right now when we are actually getting content, there’s nothing which is pretty concerning. nothing, we can do about it unfortunately. I mean, obviously, I cannot force a writer by saying “WE NEED NEED FICS THEY’RE PRACTICALLY KISSING IRL!!!”. I mean, I could write but that shit is not for me (this reminds me I need to finish my fic). I swear these lesbians are on tumblr and ao3 and whenever they see a drought, they go “time to feed our eyekons” and proceed to make out on live. Oh well, I’m content. Honestly, whenever I remember that meichae will probably never happen irl, I cry lol. Anyways, in the wise words of meimei:

[digitalsigils]

Why do all you post is the sigil commissions? What happened to posting actual schedules?

I’m going to assume you meant ‘actual sigils’.

Why do I post the commission post? I mentioned before I posted the commission sheet for the first time that I am in a financial situation that is less than ideal. That is why.

And I’m a little mad, and a little hurt by this message because I have done everything I can to make sure that me trying to garner commissions is as unobtrusive as possible.

I have tagged every post with a personal/unique tag that people who do not wish to see the post can use to block it from their dashboard. ‘ds self promotion’ -- in case you aren’t the sort to read tags or announcement posts.

I have deleted every previous reblog, so that no one who is browsing through my the blog has to scrolls through more than two of the commission post before getting to the sigils. And so on the off chance that if someone doesn’t follow a lot of people, that their dashboard wouldn’t be swamped by the same post.

I was very careful when I made it to condense the information into 3 images and two text sections at the bottom, so that the post wouldn’t be enormous. 

And when all is said and done, my blog is over half requests. Doing requests for those who cannot commission me and who like my sigils is important to me and I will continue to do requests when I can. 

But I will not feel shame for trying to find people who would be interested in purchasing a commission from me when it would greatly help me pay bills.

[gayestcousinastrius]

If functionality is your goal, I found that sleeping more after or before sleep deprivation days would ease up the brain somewhat. If health? Yeah you need at least 8 hours apparently if you're not like. 20+?

How did you get to the point of becoming friends with her again 😭?

He has never pulled another one ever since I told him that lmao. He's definitely been better since then.

Gurl. I thought he was past tense. He needs to get the hint, do you need a billboard for him to see? (You're getting old. After tech struggles, you'll be soon experiencing back pain)

Ope, it's not just a tea, it's an entire kettle 👀.

-- D.S.

lol my sleep schedule is a free style atp 😔

I became friends w D (let’s call her that as she is important later) cuz I thought she changed but haha I’m dumb so

So basically here’s the thing:

This guy, K, was a classmate two years ago(2024). I found out through my bsf that he likes me. So fast forward half a year and we’re friends. We talk on insta and everything. Then he confesses. I say that I can’t be in a relationship cuz of academics but tell him maybe some time in the future. Now please note that though I found out I was bi a year prior to this (2023) but I was (and still am) confused if I’m attracted to men romantically. So I didn’t know if I liked him or not.

Then some months pass by and we are in a situationship unfortunately. Flirting, texting everyday to the point that one day I left him on seen the whole day, he started apologising and all that stuff (which tbf I was like 🤭🤭 but let’s not go there).

One day he tells me that D tried to flirt/make a move on him during my bsf’s fairwell. He said that she basically went “astrius doesnt have to find out yk. She doesn’t like you anyway”. An interesting thing to note is that D hated him from day one. So i knew that that wasn’t possible. But I confirmed w my bsf who said that D and her went home together and that D was never alone w K. So I told D about this and she confronted him at school. Later I asked him what was he on about and he said that he has insomnia and insomnia meds make him hallucinate and shit. I was so damn skeptical but I told him that I can’t trust him from now on and he was fine w it.

So some time passes and it’s 2025. Note that we are not dating and I have said multiple times that we aren’t dating to anyone who asks. One day, two of my popular friends say that I’m dating him to which I say no. But they say that K said that we are dating. This pmo. I asked him about it and he denied. But my friends said dates and shit of when we started “dating” so I knew he was lying. So anyway I cut him off after that and havent spoken much to him since. We did talk a bit after that but nothing serious just classmates thing. But anyway we’re not in touch anymore.

So recently our finals results came out and I did pretty well. We have this unofficial class group where everyone shared their marks. Anyways, this guy, who has always gotten lower marks than me, says he got 97% at first I was hurt cuz I kinda knew I could’ve done better. Later when our results get posted everywhere, guess how much this guy actually got. 91%. Idk where he got the extra 6% from but 😭😭 and then my current bsf (whos in top 10 in the whole grade) asks him what happened and he said his maths grade got considered instead of IT (final grade calculation is based on top 4 subjects you’ve scored highest in plus English. In Total there are six subjects). Later I ask two seniors and they say it’s not possible as maths is not a compulsory subject to consider unlike English. So yes. I got way higher than him and my ego is thriving.

So in short, this guy lies like it’s the Olympics. Lwk dodged a bullet but eh idc anymore. Seeing him pmo but I can’t do anything. Also I might delete this after you reply. Haha thats all tho. Kinda sad that he was lwk my type (not considering facecard he is chopped). lol trauma dumped on you.

[gayestcousinastrius]

Now for some stories 👀

I went to a concert of a very well known and loved boy group here. And as a very wlw woman who needs months for me to actually like and actively look for their stuff, I'd still say the concert is definitely more than worth it. Lots of stuff to be happy about, but you best believe I enjoyed it specifically because of women 👀 here's the thing, they haven't made their debut but wow are they so ???? I can say they definitely went on their senior's level of performance. And they are impressive! Imagine my surprise to know about a new group lol. Their Debut is on May 15. And lemme tell you, I love them already. So I highly recommend checking them out! The girl group is named Xonara (I hope I spelled that right). And I love love LOVE the one with the short hair, Eurekah. If you check them out do tell me what you think!

For some stuff that happened this week- this is all within two days- So I was up waiting around for a project thing, and this woman 💀 well let's just say she's so much of an odd ball that even the most patient woman around got to reacting lol. This woman deadass be biting her lips and stuff. All jokes of course but what is with this specific straight woman? We have no idea. We all have to take a step back when she does a thing. Took a photo with me and commented something, then started lip biting again. I was near the door, I was about to go out.

Next was during an exercise, my group was talking about food. I was sleep deprived, but this group of friends, well one of them asked what would I think being shipped with someone? I was definitely going uh oh because I try to avoid them. People tend to be very hopeful (?) I can't translate that right. And girl asked what would I feel if it was the girl beside me (who's their friend) I had to pretend to not hear or understand it right. I told them to pretty much not tell my sleep deprived ahh shite because I won't get it.

I need to add this other anecdote, I don't know why there's always a feeling of unsettlement for me during this period. Because there's this other girl who keeps on trying to be near me, which typically I don't mind, but this one specifically just gives me discomfort? While not every time, it just happens on Tuesdays specifically for some reason 😭 she had clinged on my arm (I was trying to go somewhere) while talking to someone trying to claim me (I was nawt fine ma'am 😭 I can take a lot, but with this one? It is not it-). I try to avoid being near her, so I try to occupy myself. Don't know why the next moment she's suddenly either right beside me or just near me during exercises. I forgot to put in the context of this girl along with another one has told me that I'm their girl crush. But the other one does not feel very invasive.

-- D.S.

lol I will check them out when I can!!

Shes lwk very weird ngl even by pick me straight girl standards. Lip biting? In 2026? What the- lwk that “sleep deprived” thing was such a save. Imma use that if the situation arises (it won’t).

The other girl is bold to say the least. Also why Tuesdays? My neurodivergent ahh could never keep track of ts. hg is suffering from success 😭😭

This reminds me of a similar(?) experience with a guy. So this guy (call him A) in my class was rumoured to have a crush on me. The first time we interacted was during the end of last year when we played table tennis together. For context, I have a tendency to apologise a lot especially when I not close to someone. So, I did that with the people I was playing with cuz that was my first time playing and they knew how to play. Anyways then days later he texts me asking why I kept apologising. I was like “ok? Weird but whatever” and I replied and we texted for a bit. I was dry-texting because a) didnt wanna feed into the rumours b) I was wary because of a past situationship (I might tell you about it if you want me to). Anyways A asked about that situationship and I went “ew fuck off asshole”. Not that it is a sore subject, it’s just annoying. So long story short, I ghosted him and eventually blocked him.

So days later, I check my school Microsoft Teams for work and guess what? He texted me on there. I didnt reply. Then during finals, I check my personal email and guess what? He fucking emailed me. On my personal email which none of my school friends have (as far as ik). That was very weird. So anyways, we don’t irl so it’s fine. Hes not my classmate anymore.

[gayestcousinastrius]

Hi Astrius!

Wow it felt like weeks since I last sent an ask. Got really busy. I've returned with a story or two-

But first, congratulations on releasing your first fic!!! And gurl I hope you've been getting some sleep 😭

Unfortunate that you guys don't have wall climbing as a prominent sport. It's fun to watch people do it lol. The screaming and aftermaths are funny. Ahemplusifyouseeastrongwomaneasingherwayup

I'd like to also add that even if it's cause of good lighting you still have le muscles. You've got to have something for it to look enhanced. Which actually speaking of, what are your top muscles? What do we think of the back 👀

-- D.S.

Haha I was wondering where you were!!

Thanks!! Hope it was a fun read. And yes, I am trying to fix my sleep schedule 😭😭

lol yes I have seen some clips so 🤭🤭

I think my most built muscles are my triceps and delts or well, my arm in general. I always try to get arm workouts in every session so maybe that’s why. Lwk I have this weird thing going w my veins where they randomly become prominent and most of the time it not even during workouts 😭😭

Oh gods. I’ve been trying to develop back muscles for eons atp 😭😔 I swear to god they’re just so 😩😩 I like them because they’re such a flex (and also a good canvas- Who said that?)

[gayestcousinastrius]

I swear it'll get better over time. I can be more casual soon™ though I'm kinda like Dani, a bit of a dry texter (trying not to be). If it's something, I have never used the word "youngins" till that 😭

Though may have missed out on that aspect, you are going through the family and attire expression aspect of being a fruitcake. Which, if you don't mind me asking, how would you want to dress without those two?

Huh, now that you put it that way, it does lol.

And quite the contrary actually! I haven't gotten much particular specifications, so it's harder to guess (plus I suck at geography, I will get lost). But if I were to put hints together- you're likely around SEA area. Your family sounds conservative, but your friends aren't, clothing wise anyway. And taking into account the new info, the timezones align around Thailand, India, Indonesia, etc. I'm was trying not to cross out pH, but from the sound of it timeline wise you're probably not from here. So, maybe Thailand? No solid guesses unfortunately, just being under the assumption of you likely being asian.

-- D.S.

Please never use youngins. You sound like a ww2 veteran.

Wait l have a pics.

I would however wear sleeveless shirts to show my built arms like a slut. Theres more but this is all I can find.

You are very close. Want a hint? It’s in my playlist ;)

[gayestcousinastrius]

That's peak friendship goals fr.

Please do! Teach me the ways of how youngins speak these days (Plus y'all are really funny lol).

It sucks that society is that judgemental for something normal. In a way you are, but I for one am glad to hear you didn't have to go through an existential dread that it often comes along. It sounds like you're happy and content with who you are (be who you are for your pride-)

Why does it feel like you're actually Futch and don't realize it lmao. That sound like my wardrobe too. Do you perchance have long hair?

I really do huh 😭 that's how I chat with most of my friends. Maybe it's another phenomenon thing going on. Just collectively adapting each other's lingo.

And yes, I am from there! But what gave that away- Can I ask where you're from?

-- D.S.

Haha I’d love to lol. You sound like my father 💀💀 we really need to work on that.

I suppose i am glad however I feel like I missed out on something everyone in my community is in on 😔 ik I sound ungrateful but yes.

Haha idk maybe time will tell. I think I need to look into it more. I can’t dress how I want to because: 1) family. 2) “insecurity’s a mess~”

I don’t have long hair actually but I am growing it out rn. My hair’s the longest it’s been rn (a bit longer than shoulder length).

It’s kind of obvious when you think about it. Firstly, your asks always come around midnight (for me) but you said you’re sleep-deprived so that means your time zone is close to mine. So I assumed it’s a few hours ahead. And also some other asks you send during the day (like this one) is a bit before I come home. And you mentioned a science workbook before so that means you probably go to college (not sure). Hence assuming you come at around the same time as me, we have a 2-3 hour time difference. So I initially had two guesses—Vietnam and Philippines (I had their time zone things added in my clock app cuz of meichaeland). Then you saw my playlist and asked me if I wanted more Filipino music so ig that was a confirmation.

Ykw I feel like being a bratty lil bitch so imma ask you to guess. I suppose it’s gonna be easy but idk

[gayestcousinastrius]

Lmao maybe. Your obsession with Meichae comes close to my obsession with Sodani if that's something.

Wait I like those- you know what, can I steal that red flag sexual? I think I could use that on my friend when concerns need to be raised.

Oh.

Ohhh. Ok, yeah- I see what you mean by I text like a 30 year old LMAO I sound like I'm speaking casual corporate.

Also, having internalized homophobia is practically a canon event for every fruitcake. You're good lol.

They're really awesome with their tellings and with the amount of research they put! But oh, how much of the film derived from the book? Cause now I'm kinda curious to what and how it's written.

It's basically a mix of being feminine and masculine, both in looks and behavior. Like imagine Yoonchae and Sophia (maybe even a bit of Dani too?). Billie Eilish is a good example of a Futch. If you managed to pull off the Billie cosplaying (lol) then hey, what's stopping you from trying futch era?

Maybe I should give you the hint that I'm as old as one of the Katseye members 😭 it's definitely the way I text. I don't use slang as much (I use them, just not as often, when I do? It's random) and my format doesn't help my case, your honor. And yeah, you really do chat like people I see on TikTok do. Chaotic with the limbo lingo. Oh yeah, she does sound older than she is if that's the case. Not too surprised but also kinda surprising? (Idek if I'm making sense, I'm currently more sleep deprived lol) And oh, good luck with the harem(?) y'all are definitely within prime wlw plot lines. -- D.S.

You obsessing over sodani 🤝 me obsessing over meichae. lol friendship goals 😭🫶

lol by all means, do use them!! Ik I do haha if you want more lmk

lol I don’t even think that was internalized homophobia if you go by the definition. It was homophobia in general. Can’t even blame myself, I was smol and yk the society here isnt as accepting. However, I think I got over that shit pretty quickly after reading about it. I think where my experience diverges from that of a “regular” experience is the fact that by the time I realized I was bi, idgaf 😭😭 I was like “oh I like this girl. Ok then I’m bi now” there was NO instance of me being unaccepting of myself. I realised and moved on 💀✌️ it wasn’t until fanfics and other media that I realised that people who are allies struggle with accepting themselves. I suppose I’m lucky in that way!!

I’ll check them out and lyk !! Haven’t watched them in quite a bit

Oh…uh idk man Pinterest threw me off but I suppose If thats futch what the fuck is a masc dressing style?? My wardrobe consists of button up shirts and pants (formal and informal). I do stick out like a sore thumb when I’m out w my friends and their crop tops and shit. I’m just too insecure to wear stuff like that 😐🫡

Haha I’m definitely assuming you’re around dani and Sophia (lol) if not older. You text like we’re co-workers 😭😭 haha I do text like a tiktoker but I’m my defence my closet moots and my twin talk like that collectively so 🫶✌️ haha what hare- *gets shot*

P.S. can I guess where you’re from?? Cuz I’m thinking of Philippines 🙃