Emone does not like for people to see her cry. She never has. Growing up, her siblings knew that after an argument they’d be able to find her hiding in the hayloft, where no-one could see her.
The palace doesn’t have a hayloft. There is a stable, but that’s too busy to serve as a secret hideaway. There is always at least one stable-hand on duty, and then there are the nobles fetching their horses or bringing them back... No, Emone can’t hide there.
In between jobs, she’s been knitting a pair of booties for Manon’s baby. If she finishes them before the birth, she had thought she might knit a little hat, and maybe a blanket. She hasn’t told anyone about the pregnancy, except Nicholas. No-one can know. If they can just keep it a secret until the baby is born, it can be put up for adoption, or given away to a family who can take care of it. Emone had hoped she’d be able to find her sister a husband so that they could pretend the baby was his, but Manon is beginning to show now. No man would be so foolish as to fall for it.
The head-maid had approached her while she was working on the booties that evening and said that she had to be gone by the next morning. Out of the palace, with all of her belongings, for good. When she asked why, the woman just shook her head; “Because you’re with child,” she’d said.
And Emone couldn’t say that the booties weren’t for her. Because looking in from the outside, things must look suspicious. Because Emone found it so hard to connect with other women, which meant most of her friends were men. They must think she's sleeping with at least one of them. She's spent so much time with Jonathan recently because he's sweet and he makes her laugh, and she's needed that in her life. But she never stopped to think how it all must look. She should have been more careful.
So she apologised to the head-maid, and promised to be gone without a trace by morning, and then ran out into the gardens still clutching her knitting. There is a place, by the fishpond, where no-one ever goes; except the gardener, and he knows not to disturb her there. She manages to keep herself together until she reaches the little bench, but the moment she sits down she collapses into fits of tears, burying her face in her half-knitted booties and wondering what on earth she’s supposed to do now.