Individualism vs Community
Throughout the summer, we have been interviewing several different kinds of people from different areas of Baltimore. None of them seem to be connected with each other, but there’s a continual theme that has come up between them and that is a sense of community – of family. Sometimes it feels as though people are pushed to strive to be individuals. There is a fear of being blended into a crowd and being forgotten. One must push themselves to be someone who stands out to avoid being forgotten. In doing so, however, the sense of community dies away. People begin to think only of themselves and are no longer involved in their communities, which leads to the possible death of history.
Today we attended church at Ebenezer AME in south Baltimore’s Sharp-Leadenhall. I haven’t been to church in almost ten years now and I certainly have never been to a church like Ebenezer. It felt very awkward because it felt as though I should be doing certain things throughout the service, but didn’t know what to do so there was this weird ‘should I stand/should I sit’ yo-yo action going on. Something that surprised me a lot was how welcoming the members of the church were. Though I didn’t want to compare to my previous church experience, I found myself doing just that. I remembered when new people would attend service, most people would ogle from a distance and only the ‘outgoing’ members would greet them. Yet in Ebenezer, we were pointed out and welcomed and many members of the church came up and shook our hands.
The woman I got to interview today has been a member of the church seventy years. She talked a lot about the community of the church and the gentrification of the area. She seemed a little stiff when talking to me at first, but when I asked what her favorite memories of the church were she began to relax a bit more and talked about brunches after church with her godmother and other get-togethers. I’ve been working on the transcript to be able to make decent edits and that’s my favorite part of the whole interview.
Yet it still takes me back to think about how communities are becoming less priority to people some times. I was only at Ebenezer AME for one day, but my impression is that the church is in danger of becoming only a written history and no longer an oral history that can be told through those have experienced it.