university in a nutshell is just learning how to be alone because you start off as new adults and you crave the friendship of other people, being in a new city without your parents/guardians and then two years later everyone is doing their own thing, drowning in their own projects, making new friends, moving in together, starting romantic relationships, having one night stands, drinking, falling apart and it can be so isolating. it’s such a harrowingly lonely experience because there is no singular right way to do it but whatever you are doing just feels wrong and different to what everyone else is doing. like it irks me to think about how university taught me nothing but how to despise everything i do from the moment i wake up to the moment i go to sleep.