Wowie!!! It's been 61 whole days since we fell in love and i'm fuckign ecstatic!!! On August 2nd, 2017 I confessed to the love of my l i f e @fell-goth-22 and y'all might be thinking 'Two months ain't that long the fuck' but it is to me because all my partners have lasted literally like at max two weeks. But Jay is special!!! He is the most important thing in my life and dear god I love him so much!!! Every single day is so much better and happier and brighter with him around. And, sure, we've been through some pretty terrible shit, both of us. We've faced hardships in these two months. We faced fears, and our own personal problems. We faced emotions neither of us have really faced before. Love, heartbreak, fear at it's purest form. We've faced a lot of things. But we've always come back okay. We've come back stronger, we were torn apart just to be put back together even stronger than we were before. I've been stuck in a storm all of my life. Lost in the dark, pouring rain. Struggling to see and struggling to stand. There were times I've collapsed into the mud and given up, ready to let the wet and cold consume me. But ever since he's come into my life... The rain has softened up, day by day. It's no longer cold. Now I can see the sun, shining brighter than ever, through the dark, monochrome clouds. I feel warmth, and happiness. And I can see a rainbow through the clouds. Jay is that rainbow. He is the best thing to ever happen to me. He makes me feel wanted and loved. He puts me at the highest I've ever been... He makes me feel like I actually matter. Thank you for sticking with me through these two months, Jay. Thank you for always being here and for loving me even when you've seen me at my worst. Thank you so, so much. I love you. And I will always love you. From now, until the end of time. I love you.
