im seriously just crashing with autistic burnout i feel much much better and more comfortable than i did last year but ive lost quite a lot of skills which is..... okay with me but not with other people but yeah, i stutter constantly around everyone with exception of a few people, i zone out constantly, some days i dont even talk, it's getting harder to walk?? dont ask why idk??, it's a lot harder to process words but yeah anyways, i can tell that all my teachers know im disabled bc its so incredibly obvious now but theyre really nice about it and theyve been good to me (except mrs.tambo; fuck u mrs.tambo y dont u try walking to school every morning with no perception of time so ur constantly late (she hates me)) my sociology teacher is really nice about it (tbh i wouldnt doubt her being autistic either, i just see lots of similarities) my orchestra teacher is really nice ablut it (i suck like... really really badly bc i dont practice, i can barely read music, and my brain just tends to shut down in orchestra but he's really kind to me and tries to help) my physics teacher is really nice about it (she is really funny and she said i was sweet and says hi to me everyday even if i cant say it back) also my us history professor is still rlly cute so yeah,, things are really good at school. except the whole walking thing is really a problem. "you'll get fit from walking to and from school everyday!!" yeah.... alright .... okay.... the stairs i climb everyday to get to where i eat lunch are only one staircase but when i get to the top i cant even breathe.. so yeah that kind of sucks also im angry bc even though we're not supposed to have food in the brand new art building, the teachers let us eat there anyways and it was my quiet space bc the only people that would also eat there were people like me who didnt really have friends and honestly werent that interested in having them so we'd just like... eat lunch and read and now the really preppy all AP classes kids are coming up to eat there in huge groups and theyre so loud snd i hate it!! but ya idk im angry i wanted to talk abt that bc i hate those kids!!! theyre so mean 2 me bc im disabled!! they always have been!! ya, so anyways this was just a little eli update
