#elilal

[puppyboyjonathanfenrir]

Oooo this mother fucker, he only claims Reggie, Crox, and Rex to gain so called power and try to make me weak. >[ Ooo I see the damn shit he did to me, back in 2022, 2023, goddamn brat, trying to say I wasn't Reggie back then and I fucking backpedaled, tried to say I wasn't Crox, tried to say I wasn't Rex and then tried to fucking claim them, when I know damn well, I am 100% them. (Had to re-read messages)

And this motherfucker witch bitch, Gabriel, Lucifer fucker legit was the one that brainwashed me against my own fucking souls and made me hate parts of myself. >[ Ooo little fucker. Goddamn it pisses me off to no fucking end, the little brat. He was mad that I was loving myself back then instead of hating myself like he does. >[ Saying I wasn't acting like Reggie, Crox, or even Rex when I damn well was sometimes, especially under control. Even fucking said he fuzed with Crox, Reggie/etc.. and ooo it pisses me off so damn bad, I see it now, and even described what I have been feeling in astral when I so called "rape" him, where it feels like I am not in full control and don't want to fucking do it >[

Fucking damn brat (how I want to legit beat the living shit out of him for doing this shit, but that would just be an endless loop that I can't do..)

I am beyond pissed at him, at how he turned me against my fucking souls. (It was all the witch and Gabriel, Gabriel is the false God, Gabriel is the one that steals bodies, the witch does too, they both do.) Oooo *gator/Crox growls* *reptile noises*

*cat noises* *angelic screams* *demonic noises* the fucking brat made me hate myself, like he did.

Fuck.. I still love him and forgive him though, but my anger and rage is through the roof at fucking him, and even what he did to my boy Emmanuel. And lied on Emmanuel's name.

Fucking bitch, he doesn't truly accept Gabriel either, he just thinks Gabriel is this pure ass creature when he isn't, Gabriel is more like how I used to be then fucking anything the little brat. >[

[puppyboyjonathanfenrir]

You can't kill me, Boy. I won't go down easily or be controlled like how I was in 2021, 2022, 2023, 2024, I will not stop speaking my truth, I will not back down on who I am.

I am Elilal Grim Asherah, and the rest of my souls. Don't believe me, IDC, I don't need other people's beliefs to prove to me who I am when I know from my own experiences and memories.

[puppyboyjonathanfenrir]

Like I said me and my shadow are very close friends, guardians, and more. No one will make me hate my Shadow. I love my shadow so damn much. Thank you. 🧿

[puppyboyjonathanfenrir]

Look at me now. They want me to quit, they want me gone, I am everything they said I couldn't have.

They laughed as I spoke my truth.

I feel so liberated, and free, no matter if people believe me or not, I don't care, I know who I am and why I am here.

No one is stopping me or dragging me back to their hell. ;)

They gave me the key and now it's MINE!!!!!!

I rose and ascended, and will keep moving forward.

[puppyboyjonathanfenrir]

I release you Lucifer/Gabriel/The Witch, I wish you healing, and growing, I may call you a brat, but.. I still love you and understand why you are the way you are, but it isn't my job to fix you.. we even talked about how it's not the parents job to fix the pain, you now have to fix the pain yourself and I hope you do and accept yourself fully, I wish you love, and to love yourself fully.

I take back my own power and move forward, I cut all ties from you.. I'm sorry, and hope one day you can forgive me, but I won't be looking for that. I will be with my own souls, loving myself and figuring out my own path, doing my mission here. I love you, I really do.

But.. you never believed it, I release YOU.

I won't carry the heavy weight anymore, I take back my clarity, my voice, and so much much more.

I take back my truth, my future and more. My godly gifts/etc.

I forgive you and wish you well.

[puppyboyjonathanfenrir]

Me: Zeus cleanse the world

*ends up having a flood watch*

👀 Goddamnit Zeus, well at least I feel this rain is cleansing in a way. Knew all of it was going to happen.

I love myself

[puppyboyjonathanfenrir]

Imagine being so mad that someone is loving themselves that you attack their lower forms of themselves, that you try to do anything to attack them and make them think their the ones that stink and so much more.. yeah no.

Look within yourself, like I have, integrate your damn souls and love yourself fully, stop taking out your hate on yourself on me and my souls just because we did shit in the past. I won't stand for that anymore.

[puppyboyjonathanfenrir]

This makes me think of parts of me tied up/etc.. and so much more.. 👀