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[littleprincefan]

would it be wrong to say they give me a similar vibe

[ellisonoswaltstruecrimes-blog]

Goodnight Kids. I Love You.

Last night I burned the midnight oil again. I write best in the early hours, when there's calm and fewer distractions. I isolate myself.

Mid-evening, my wife told me she was putting the children to bed. I hollered after her to kiss them goodnight from me and got my head straight back into the work.

Later it occurred to me. How little effort would it have been to just get up and kiss them good night myself. In twenty years time, they won't remember the amazing book I wrote, they'll just recall that I was a ghost. Half here, always stuck in another room they could never enter, typing unceasingly and never looking up. Barely making contact. Always distracted.

I have to ask myself, have I done the right thing by coming here? Could I not have just settled for regular work and the love of my children instead?