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[ik1tt3n]

I need to explain something

I can't really say right now how I know this...well, I could...but I won't. Not yet. But I thought that I should explain something to you Lizzy.

I can't really say why or how this all happened the way it did. I can only speculate about your mother's motives. I won't get into the details just yet, but I'll say what I can. This is really hard, and I know that I shouldn't care about making your mother look bad, most anybody wouldn't...but I can't do that, I'm not like that. I'll just say that it's very complicated, but the man on your birth certificate is not your dad. I don't know what your mother told you, that your dad abandoned you when you were one year old...that's partly true, as the man on your birth certificate did leave. I only wish I had been given the opportunity, but I believe I was lied to. And I've spent the last 12 years looking for you Lizzy. I would NEVER abandon you! Just the thought of it breaks my heart...which isn't hard to do these days. ;__;

I truly hope that I'm not being too confusing. There's so much I want to tell you, but at the same time...I still respect your mother, despite all we've been through.

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Broken Heart Memories

I had a really nice post about half finished, quit app and gone. u__u' I'll try and remember what I wrote. It's essentially the same thing I think about all the time...my daughter. Oh! Now I remember...but beings that I'm a nice guy, oh yes the irony...it's delicious, this is best saved for another time. Which leaves me with less to say I suppose. Grrr! Elizabeth Maurice Djurnevec, Lizzy, emojidonuts, Nerdy Pumpi, I'm still looking! But...

I'll be honest here, not that I'm not always honest...I'll be painfully honest here I suppose, I worry that you won't like me. That you'll hate me. See, I don't know what you know. I know some. But I don't know what you have been told. I don't know if you've been been told about me. Do you even know I exist? Oh God, I truly, truly wish I could describe accurately what it is exactly I am feeling, because it feels like emptiness. It just breaks my heart. All those memories that I'll never have, that we will never have. It gets so hard some days to even wake up. Because I'm thinking about you as I wake up. It kills me that I wasn't there to protect you. I wish I could hold you and tell you that everything will be alright. Because it will Lizzy. I'm living proof of that. Yup...that's right.... u__u

But here I am! Sad and crying, but stronger than ever! I'll never stop looking for you Elizabeth. I never have. Thankfully with today's technology, and luckily or unluckily...depending on how you look at it, you're old enough to be using these very same technologies. So I'll continue filling the internet with my prayers to find my daughter.