Before reading this book, what would you have said were the primary sources of your unhappiness?
My past experiences in life.
Still stewing about my incapacity to stand up for myself and feeling tremendously angry at myself when I was sexually molested and abused by dad as a kid for almost 10 years and not having mom there for support.
Having lied about having a boyfriend in college who raped me because I believe that I let it happen and I didn’t tell anyone especially my family because I wasn’t allowed to have a boyfriend
Reflecting and believing that arguments and fights with my ex-husband and other ex-boyfriends that escalated to them hitting me were caused by me majority of the time
Being manipulated by past relationships to give into having sex because I felt it was a way I can deserve love and affection.
My current feelings about myself.
Constantly feeling I am subpar and not owning up to what I owe to life because of the aforementioned events in my life I still play the victim card for.
Feeling like I owe something to life and my existence is a burden onto the universe in itself because I am supposed to be doing something right but I feel completely opposite
Seeing there’s too many things to be done to fix
Seeing all the possible pathways to finding solutions
Not seeing the reasons for wanting to choose them…
Not wanting to fix myself because I don’t see how I can do it alone– not with the knowledge and thinking I currently possess
Not deserving to have people around me to show me they want to be friends
Not even deserving to be seen most of the time by potentially kind people
Not wanting to waste their time
Not knowing what my purpose in life.. Even less feeling like I am capable of fulfilling them
Not knowing what my gifts are
Even if I know about them, not accepting them as unique or special
