Jul 31, 2021
corpses, saint sister | bella swan, twilight saga
#web weaving#twilight#well :)#sorry this song made me start a bella playlist do you still think i'm hot#twilight is about... losing yourself.#erasing yourself...#disappearing#edward and jacob lose themselves to the conditions they're doomed to carry#bella erases herself for both of them#illness.#i cannot stop thinking about the conversation her dad has with her in the middle of new moon#after she's been doing well but continues to have nightmares#and he wakes her and comments on the dreamcatcher jacob gave her and says something like#sometimes you have to learn to like what's good for you#like..... okay#can't believe they just threw that in and never mentioned it again#when it's literally... bella's downfall#in the end she can't let go of the people she's erased herself for#she never figures out how to learn to like what's good for her#/her/ even if it means nobody else#edward's vampirism has basically chipped away at bella until there's nothing left#until she became like him in exactly the way he was terrified she would#and jacob's werewolfism did exactly what he'd been so scared it would do and replaced his own wants with mechanical ones#chosen for him#even if i pretend i do not see it and it does not exist in the correct and right twilight saga that exists in my head <3#:/#writing essays about twilight in the tags under a disturbed web weaving post#bella swan i am obsessed w you and it is encroaching on my daily life#j.jpg
