God I just want to sleep I'd kill for sleep I'm so sick jesus. I haven't slept since I took nyquill a few days ago and any other time I try and sleep it's literally just me closing my eyes and trying to will myself to sleep. I'm so aware of my breathing it's weird it's so labored and wheezy and whenever I try and sleep I'm terrified my breathing will stop. I'm so exhausted this is just rambling and if I don't stop it'll just dissolve into self loathing so ok











