February 23, 2013 ♥ :)
Justin, MJ, MD and I went to Enchanted Kingdom last Saturday. Everything went well between the four of us. Not much awkwardness was felt. We stayed at MJ's house for that night. We watched Pitch Perfect and had some midnight snacks. HE brought out the letter I gave to him last year and I felt like I've been reliving those moments when we were still together. Damn. I hate that feeling, eh. :( When he went to the bathroom to take a shower, I got the chance to take the letter in his bag. After playing cards, MJ and I went to the bedroom to sleep. I got the letter with me. I can't sleep even if it's already 3am in the morning. So I decided to read For One More Day. After reading it, I took out the letter from my bag and read it again. I felt sad. </3 Because I know I will never be able to write him letters as his girlfriend again. I have written another letter to him at the back page of the paper. But that letter was a bit more different than the first letter. No more sweetness like when he was still my boyfriend. I just told him sorry for the two months of no communication with him. I apologized for not inviting him during my birthday celebration. I was sorry for everything. I also told him to be more mature and to study well. I reminded him of the message he sent me before our graduation where he said, "Isabel, promise ko sayo mag-aaral na kong mabuti sa college. Para pag nagreunion tayo, may maipagmamalaki ako." Lastly, I told him that I am one of the people whom he can call when he needs a FRIEND. After writing the letter, I texted Justin and said, "Panay, paakyatin mo dito si MD. May ibibigay ako sa knya. Hahaha." Then there he was. I handed him the letter and he said, "Bakit nasayo to? Alam mo bang bawal magbasa ng letter na hindi naman sayo? Hahaha." And he noticed that I wrote him another letter. He read it. IN FRONT OF ME! How awkward, isn't it? Hahahaha. Then we talked until 5am. I started reminiscing. I wanted to cry but tears won't fall from my eyes. We talked about us. Why we broke up and everything else. I said to him, "Alam mo bakit ka iniiwan ng tao? Kasi di ka marunong makaappreciate. Nagttake for granted ka kasi." We didn't fight ah! Haha. We remained casual that time. I told him I was happy to know that he still saves the letter until now and he told me that he is still reading it at random moments. He said, "Naiiyak nga ko pag binabasa ko to eh. Nalulungkot ako." The way he said that while looking in my eyes, I knew he said it sincerely. I felt it. When we decided to sleep, we stood and we hugged each other. This time, as friends. That was not a romantic hug. But that was a hug saying "I miss you." Finally, he went downstairs and I went to the bedroom.
I don't know that I've ever felt as happy as I did that day, but then again, it was always like that when we were together. I never wanted it to end. :) ♥