Progress since last week...
Falling behind in my CMA studies, got bored with it last week, told myself I'd catch up over the weekend, but we had two soccer games on Saturday and two more on Sunday, so I knew I was telling myself a lie.
And I'm traveling for work this week, so I will fall farther behind, but I am not lying to myself this time when I say I'll have some time over the weekend to study, it's just a matter of making myself do it. Besides the work trip should help me with networking goals and inspire some future storytelling.
The work trip is a 3-day conference at the hotel near our corporate HQ. I made some good impressions with a few senior leaders, I made some good connections with the people I was sitting close to, I skipped an hour session after lunch and snuck away to the office to meet some colleagues in person for the first time. The last few presentation of the day between 3:30-5p got a little boring, but all in all I was having a good day.
Cocktails were 5p, then back in the main room for dinner at 6:30p. Since my plane was delayed the night before and I chose sleep over my morning run, plus my social battery was running low and I'm not drinking alcohol at the moment, I took that 90 minutes to do 4 miles on the treadmill, relax in my room for a moment, before showering and returning for dinner.
I survived dinner, sat down at a table where I recognized a few faces from the day, did my best to make small talk. But most had been drinking and were in a slightly different mood than me. I know this isn't true, but they all seemed to know each other and work with each other, I felt like an outsider, this is just how I am.
And it started to dawn on me that many of these people are a level above me, many of them my age and younger, so my ego gets bruised a bit. But I'm down at a satellite office with fewer opportunities than corporate, and maybe I just don't work hard and network hard enough. But I'm trying to change that.
The person sitting next to me was probably 10 years younger than me, and it through our conversation, I realized he was the person that beat me out for a promotion I interviewed for back in the fall. Again, I was an outsider to that org, he wasn't, he's probably great, but it's still an ego hit. I spend the rest of the dinner talking to a few others that were nice enough, maybe I made a decent enough impression, who knows.
Need to rally to get through two more days of this.