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Journal Entry

27th Sun of the Fourth Umbral Moon

What does one say to their journal with yet again, months have drifted by? Where does one find the time to write when work never ceases?

I suppose I do not have to ask for forgiveness from an object. 

So here I am. I am happy, learning, growing and trusting once more. I did not think it possible as the last three years have made these things feel almost impossible in concert. I have had let go of many things in my heart and here I am. 

I had to let go of fantastical ideals, push aside my denials, reach deep into myself and just take a moment to set my fears to the side. And in doing so I have Burrich at my side, a young teenage ward named Ezraine in my care, friends in need that I can actually help and work that gives me purpose and restores my faith in people. 

Catherina and I have found peace and move through the world stronger than ever. I feel unstoppable with her with me. 

Now I face the hardest of challenges, attempting to save one of my best friends, Saphyra. Her past beginning to rip her apart, a past I cannot put to paper for her secrecy. 

The way to save her is magical...ritualistic...and dangerous. At a moment of peace in my heart I put myself and those I love in danger for her. I would sacrifice it all. 

But here I am, learning a magic rare and dangerous, figuring out paths where others failed. Tonight I will finish this work...I must. Time is running out for her. 

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Day 3

Impulsive. Yeah, that’s my trademark. I’d accept it, certainly, because I am so aware of that. That’s the reason why I regret most of my decisions. I ain’t mature but I do know how to listen from the advice of other people.

I feel better now. I am thinking of my future plans and things that I want to do. I don’t wanna miss every single chance that will make me satisfied. Making myself busy really helps me forget the negative thoughts from the past. I mean, i know, its too early to say but I know for a fact that soon everything will fall into the right place. Other people will choose to get drown from alcohol, well for me, I’m drowning myself from MUSIC. Specially from the same music Jike and I used to listen. I wanna get used to the pain, I wanna torture myself until I reach the day of my recovery.