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I got a "Faebelina" mirror sign to go in my office and I LOVE IT :D It's over the top and shiny but I think it's cool haha. I’ve wanted one of these since I was a little kid! 

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Redid an old drawing to celebrate 19k over on Twitter. I know you guys have been asking me for these for a while, I’ve been too nervous to do them haha. Anyway, I appreciate you guys here on Tumblr too and since this first pic was one of the oldest things on my Tumblr, if you remember it, DOUBLE thanks to you for sticking around this long! :D 

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So my best friend (Nerdacide) is at the OWL games today and she made this AMAZING AND ADORABLE SIGN and held it up during the stream lol! Skorn and I were smiling so hard.

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what do you do when you are overthinking? I'm in such an unhealthy place right now with it and I can't get it to stop :'(

Aww Anon, I’m sorry. : ( I overthink a lot more than I should. I think knowing that it’s something you do is half the battle. Here are the steps I take when I find myself thinking too much:

1. Realize I’m probably overthinking.

2. Take a step back form the situation, remove myself to another room or go outside or put my phone down. Getting fresh air can do wonders for clarity. 

3. Rationalize the situation. If I find I did something wrong, try to apologize. If I rationally find I didn’t do anything I could consider wrong, remind myself that that’s probably paranoia talking. 

4. Remind myself that people think way less about me than I think they do.  I think that’s true for almost everyone, unless you’re a big celebrity haha. Most people probably aren’t thinking about you all the time. 

That’s in a social situation. If I’m overthinking my art, I will work on a personal piece that is special to me and only me. Something that reminds me why I love art. That helps ground me and keep me from spiraling into the “oh no I know nothing about art and I never will and I’ll never be good because….” abyss. It’s easy to get caught there if you’re not vigilant. 

Anyway, I hope this helps with whatever situation you’re in at the moment and I hope you can find your way out soon : ) 

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Had a hard weekend dealing with some stuff that bled over into the week. But every day I've been reminding myself that the sunshine is bound to come back and its okay to feel what you feel until it does. Yesterday I felt like the rays were peeking through again and that my heart will heal in time. The sun will always return. :)

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Been struggling lately with a lot of people talking over me in several areas of my life. I’m used to my family doing it but lately it’s been coming from people I consider friends and people I like to talk to on a regular basis. It’s part of the reason I’m so quiet irl, I decided when I was little I didn’t like raising my voice so if someone was louder than me and the only way to talk was to talk louder than them, I wouldn’t do it. 

For all its flaws, Tumblr allows me to just talk sometimes and I’m really thankful for that. I’m thankful to you guys that you let me be myself and say what I want to say. You’re good people and I hope you all have a really nice rest of your week. Thank you for all you give to me.

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My thoughts on BfA Spoilers below!

Click only if you want to be spoiled, my friends! 

Just watched the new allied race cutscenes here: http://www.wowhead.com/news=279846/allied-race-intro-and-unlock-scenario-cutscenes-spoilers

HOO BOY!

Lightforged/Void Elves:

First of all, wow the Void elves and Lightforged have a more badass/sinister tone than I was expecting. Kivaa definitely fits within their attitude lol. I wonder who did the trial with her? (In my headcanon, obv they pick for you in the cutscene) Maybe someone else’s draenei would like to be her trial buddy :3

They talked about the Light showing the “true path”. The Void has some opinions on that. I wonder how these two races are going to get along? It’s interesting that they decided to put them on the same side when ideologically they are different. Or are they? Very interested to see how that plays out. I can definitely see these two races being a lot more aggressive than we’ve seen from the Alliance so far. Maybe even make some SUPER bad decisions, would not be surprised.

Blood elves/Nightborne:

So great to see Alleria back in Silvermoon. Got chills because when I first played through that zone I kept wondering what it was like when the Windrunners were there. It really makes me wonder though why, right after defeating the Legion and the new war hasn’t even started yet, why they won’t even HEAR the message she has to bring? Even if they didn’t like it, it would still be useful information--tactically. Like, like or hate Anduin, at this point in the story he’s done so much to stop the killing on both sides. In the future? I don’t know who or what he’ll become. Maybe this was his last effort to make peace? 

The. Night. Borne. Let us hope, Thalyssra, that Tyrande AND Elune aren’t right about you. (Please Blizz, I like Thalyssra...at least for now.) I find it really odd though that she and Liadrin seem to have forgotten that love of and addiction to magic has killed (uninvolved) Kaldorei not once, not twice, but three times? Is it really that surprising that Tyrande would ask that question? I mean, I don’t agree with Tyrande like I’ve said, but I get why she would feel that way. At least when the Kaldorei “slept in dens and trees” and stuff, they had the excuse that they were on a whole different continent than the fighting. The War of the Ancients came right through Suramar and they walled themselves off. (Understandably to save themselves, but how is one okay and one is not?) 

Tyrande remembers her own home turning their backs while she fought the Legion. Even Silgryn could admit how impressive they were to do what they’ve done to save themselves without having magic. Maybe all this pent-up resentment and anger will give her some good writing in the expansion. I’m still on the fence about her. I have a strong feeling that by the end of BfA, I’m going to like or hate Tyrande or Thalyssra and I’m not sure which will be which yet! 

I’m already disappointed (as a former belf player who loves them) that the blood elves are doing to the void elves what they believe was done to them. It’s kind of a core part of their culture. You would think having to make the impossible choice Malfurion had to make would give them some more understanding but I guess not. I really hope that there are more good things to be proud of in the Sin’dorei story to make up for that. Helping the Nightborne is definitely one of those things that shines...just...I just hope they’re not helping them because they have something to offer and shunning their own who became void elves because they see them as weak/dangerous. Even though I don’t play one anymore, I’m still very invested in what’s going on with/for them. 

In a way though, it’s gratifying to see them do this BECAUSE it kinda proves what everyone already thinks--Elves are elves are elves are elves. They’re all one people who by the stupid actions of others and the perpetuation of old grudges can’t find peace. We’re all beautiful, let’s stop fighting pls thx!

Highmountain:

If you guys don’t already know by now, I think the Tauren are the best of us Azerothians in their attitude and demeanor. The Highmountain tribe takes that to a new level. Mayla is a badass. There’s really not much more I can add because they’re perfect  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I may not play a moo moo but I love the moo moos. Unrelated note, my mom’s favorite animals are cows so I’ve always imagined that if she played WoW she’d be a tauren priest going around healing people’s scapes and scratches haha.

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Been meaning to draw this for a while. The good and bad things people have said about my art over the last three years that stick in my head. From friends, strangers, family members. There’s no real point to this other than to put on canvas what goes through my head daily. Putting myself out there is still scary sometimes but it’s so worth it, even with all the bad things.