(TW incest, SPN discourse and rape) Feel free to ignore this ask if it makes you uncomfortable. But what’s your thoughts on the idea of Soulless Sam losing his inhibitions and so giving into his darkest desires, and sexually assaulting Dean (which is how the vampire turning scene is read). I often see this tied to the idea that because of the incestuous deal and Azazel’s blood, Sam’s tainted and has this inherent darkness, specifically playing around the idea Sam’s sexuality is dark and perverse, and he harbours these feelings towards Dean and desires to assault him but feels shame and guilt for it. But as Soulless Sam he doesn’t. This reading always felt a little weird and uncomfortable to me but I couldn’t put into words why
oh good I thought for a second that you were asking me abt this (popular and bad) take bc you enjoy it 😭
it’s not the incest and the quote-unquote perversion that I have a problem with but as usual the fandom’s dogged attempts to invert samndean’s power dynamic while failing to recognize how the narrative actually utilizes sam’s role vs dean’s, thus uncritically doubling down on the Righteous Man vs Boy With The Demon Blood dichotomy. dean-biased viewers “love” soulless!sam because they can point to him and go see, that’s the Real Sam, Sick And Twisted Freak Corrupting Dean’s Innate Goodness All Along, which is frankly so unforgivably disgusting to me that it makes me want to spit. I’ve played with this concept myself thru fic but as a belief that sam holds about himself (and that, for the record, dean also holds about himself - it’s just that each of them deals with it differently in keeping with their contrasting roles and with the power dean has in the relationship that sam does not.)
I could write the billionth essay about soulless!sam vs demon!dean except with the canon’s Us And Them framework in mind as well as the audience’s predisposition to overlook sam’s abundant nuances to be able to characterize him in a “worse” light than dean while inventing dean nuances to be able to “justify” their often superficial preference for him, but I don’t fucking feel like it. those who get it get it and those who don’t will never care to; my 10-year break from the fandom sadly proved that beyond a shadow of a doubt.
all that to say, I’m fine with reading arousal into soulless!sam’s response to dean’s noncon vampire-turning that he stood by and watched, because who cares, that’s fun to me. he should’ve been worse. hashtag fujosam moment. what I’m NOT fine with is the dean queens ravenously seizing on this moment as “proof” of Poor Sweet Angel Baby Kisses Dean’s helplessness/submissiveness in the relationship as a whole, because that is flat-out fabricated bullshit. like, early s6 features some of the most interesting dean characterization in the show to me in that the narrative actually intentionally punishes dean for the “substandard masculinity” represented by his break from hunting/his life with lisa and ben, and this assault scene is very much a part of that. it is so much rarer throughout the course of this show for dean to be subjected to that type of “indignity”/“emasculation” relative to sam, and this is a function of their respective roles, and it is why this particular scene is so obnoxiously buzzed-about by this insanely dean-biased audience.
btw, what does dean do in response to his pent-up fury at the helplessness he feels because of this assault and the events surrounding it? he quite literally beats sam to a bloody pulp, before cas even informs him about sam’s “soullessness” (definition flexible). he ties sam up in a chair and tells him he’s not letting him go no matter how nicely he asks and barks at him like he’s a worthless monster and coolly instructs cas to Probe Him for answers without his consent, because again, that is a consistent part of sam’s role that you are meant to contrast with dean’s. furthermore, he threateningly tells sam he’s gonna watch every move he makes from that point forward and demands that he runs his every decision by dean because his sense of right and wrong cannot be trusted. like can we examine this on a metaphorical level Just A Smidge, for me?
anyway TL;DR as usual I can’t believe I actually think this but this audience at large is incapable of handling the complexities of these characters as they are presented in the canon, and so few people write S/D fic in a way I can actually stomach or appreciate that I have to write it myself for the minority of readers it appeals to. I didn’t even touch on the massive problem I have with dean and thus the fandom reinforcing sam’s belief in himself as Unclean/Impure due to an event that occurred when it was impossible for him to consent, OR on the implicit homophobia underpinning dean’s vampire-turning scene and really that whole episode, because who has the time!!!!