#fen lore

[lluxlokii]

I really wanna draw more art about my agere and my queer experiences and share it with the world but I always stop myself short from actually doing it. Idk if it's because I know I probably can't post it on my accounts BC family see it or some wierd form of embarrassment/guilt.

But at the same time I really wanna express myself. I'm just a Fucking baby yk what I mean? I'm a baby animal in this confusing world.

[fenrir-kin]

Brief personal thing below the cut, I gotta compile my half-formrd thoughts somewhere

My brother and I have as little to do with each other as possible. We both much prefer it that way, and while I do wish I could go back and do things differently... what's done is done.

Anyway. Our mother is reaching a milestone age soon, and I thought it'd be nice to try and get all kids together for a nice birthday meal. I asked baby sister to put together the group chat with all the siblings, as she has brothers number.

All is initially going well. Brother is behaving, I am behaving, we've even gotten long-lost older sibling involved.

I start to wonder if brother has matured, is starting to get his life together, if I will be pleasantly surprised when we all occupy the same space.

And then I'm told he's being evicted because he just. Has not paid rent. Not because he doesn't have it! He just. Hasn't paid it.

So maybe I was a bit premature in thinking he'd gotten his life together a bit.

The more things change etc etc

[lluxlokii]

In mental anguish. Not doing well at all, had a huge nervous breakdown on the 6th that I'm still reeling from. I hope things turn out better for me in the near future, I kinda really need a lucky break.